21. Saige
21
Saige
“ W hat the fuck!?” Saige whispered to herself after she finished throwing up.
Flushing the toilet, she stood up and stared at her reflection in the mirror. Honestly, she looked and felt like shit. She was one hundred percent sure that she was coming down with the flu or COVID or something because she wasn’t feeling quite like herself. Initially, when she started throwing up a few weeks ago, she chalked it up to the fact that she’d taken two lives. Surprisingly though, she wasn’t losing sleep behind killing muthafuckas who were trying to kill her. She just figured the sickness was some type of adverse reaction to killing two men. Weeks later, she wasn’t so sure which was why she thought she’d caught something.
It was the night before Christmas, and she was going to be pissed if she had to spend Christmas day in bed. Ramel had been begging her for a new bike and of course, she’d gotten it for him. All she wanted to do was gift it to him and see his reaction, but she didn’t want to risk spreading her sickness to everyone else. Gargling some Listerine, she spit it out and took a deep breath which just made her feel nauseous all over again.
“Bae, are you pregnant?” Qua asked her as she walked out of the bathroom.
She rolled her eyes hard and flopped face first into the bed. “Quadir, you can be anything in this world, so please…be fuckin’ for real. Ain’t nobody pregnant.”
“I don’t know, baby… when Moon said it a few weeks ago, I thought she was trippin’, but I’m seeing it now. You are moodier than usual, and you’ve been throwing up like crazy.”
“I’m throwing up because I have the flu or somethin’,” she whined, rolled over, and looked at him. “And why the fuck did Moon tell you that I was pregnant?”
“It slipped my mind because that was the same day Luca rolled up on you, but Moon said she had a gut feeling. I’m starting to think she was right. We don’t use condoms, and I never pull out,” he reminded her.
Saige shot straight up when she started realizing that two plus two was equaling four. Grabbing her phone from the nightstand, she opened the Flo app. Scrolling back, she realized she hadn’t logged in a period since the end of October.
“Ain’t no fuckin’ way,” she whispered as she stared at the app like something was going to change.
“What?” Q peeked at her phone. “What’s wrong?”
“I might really be pregnant.”
“I thought you’d say that,” he grinned and got out of the bed. He disappeared into the bathroom for a few seconds then came back with a pregnancy test. “I bought this just in case.”
Staring at him, she became overwhelmed with fear and started crying her eyes out. Rushing around to her side of the bed, Q pulled her into a hug and rocked her back and forth in an attempt to calm her down. Saige finally calmed down, went into the bathroom with Qua, and peed on the stick. They waited for the results in a thick silence. With every second that passed, Saige felt like the oxygen in the room was running out.
“Gahdammit,” she hissed as she picked up the Clearblue Digital test that read positive .
Qua took it from her hand as a wide smile spread across his face. “Damn baby. You having my baby.”
“H-how do you feel?” She looked up at him from her position on the toilet.
“Like I could kiss you a million times in one minute! I’m happy as fuck!” He exclaimed with joy.
She stood up and smiled back. “Yeah?”
“Yes, ma. I’ve never really wanted to have kids until I met you. You make everything in life worth having, including a family. I’m honored to be bringing a baby into the world with you,” he confessed with tears in his eyes.
“Babyyy,” she pouted and wiped the tears that escaped his eyes. She knew if he was crying then he felt strongly about them having a baby. “I’m so happy that I can make you happy. I love you.”
“I love you more, mama,” he hugged her tightly as the tears flowed freely down his face.
Saige was feeling a rush of emotions, but the one she felt the most was love. She was terrified as fuck to raise a child because she always feared that she would turn into her mother. She vowed at a young age to never treat any child the way her mom treated her, let alone her own child, but she was sure that she’d be a virgin forever. Never in a million years did she think that she would run into a nigga realer than Quadir.
“Awh bae, I can’t believe I made you cry,” she giggled and let him go.
He wiped his eyes and sucked his teeth. “Saige, you can be anything in this world so be fuckin’ for real, ain’t nobody crying,” he threw her game back at her.
“Whatever!” She slapped his chest and laughed. She ran back into the bedroom, grabbed her phone, and then returned to the bathroom. “Hold up the pregnancy test, bae.”
“You trying to catch a nigga slipping on camera, awh hell nah,” he wiped his face a few more times before holding up the stick and smiling.
She snapped the picture. “Your eyes are still red as fuck, so I can still tell people that you cried,” she stuck her tongue out at him.
“We’re really going to have a little you or me. That shit is wild,” he looked at the pregnancy test again. “Thank you, Saige. I truly feel like my life didn’t start until you came in it.”
She started crying all over again after hearing him say that. “Qua! Oh my God.”
“I’m being for real, ma. No other woman got me crying in front of them and shit, so that should tell you everything you need to know,” he chuckled then kissed her. “So, thank you. You really gave me a second chance at life in more ways than one.”
“Well, I want to thank you . You have been the greatest gift from God that I didn’t even know I needed. The way you love and protect me shows me just how much you care. I never have to question where I stand with you, and I never want to do life with anyone besides you,” she told him while lovingly staring into his eyes.
“Are you about to propose?”
Saige doubled over in laughter at his goofy ass. “Shut yo ass up.”
“I’m just saying, bae. You know Chrissy proposed to Jimmy. I just wanted to make sure that’s not where this was about to go,” he continued joking.
“No! I’ll wait for you to do it,” she giggled and kissed him.
“Okay, good,” he picked her up and carried her back into the bedroom. Laying her on the bed, he lifted her nightgown up and kissed her belly repeatedly. “Wassup lil’ baby? This is your daddy. You’re going to be hearing my voice every day.”
“Q, the baby probably doesn’t even have ears yet,” she looked down at him.
He looked up at her and shrugged. “I don’t care. I want to talk to him or her every day.”
“Okay,” she giggled at him again.
Q resumed talking to her belly, and Saige thought it was the most adorable thing ever. She couldn’t help but to feel blessed that God had given her such a wonderful man to create life with. Every little thing that Qua did for her on a daily just reminded her how lucky she was to have him. There truly was no one else she pictured doing life with besides him.