Believe In Us (Servite Academy #3)

Chapter 35

Chapter

Thirty-Five

JADE

I t’s been a week since the blowout Bass and I had down at the beach house, when he revealed he knew all about my little secret. A week since I accepted out loud that I was going to have a baby with none other than my broody, gorgeous fucking bastard.

I begged him to keep it a secret, not ready for the rest of the world to find out, though I don’t think I’ll ever be ready for that. Yet to no surprise, it didn’t last. The cat is out of the bag now, well at least regarding my close circle of friends, and I’m the one to blame.

After confessing to Stella I was pregnant, the same night I came clean to Scar, she looked at me with an I already fucking knew that look. Though what she didn’t suspect was that Scar is also expecting. I never would have guessed, especially not that our due dates would be only a month apart. What are the odds?

I’d say slim to fucking none.

Yet here we are .

The weekend after, the one before Spring Break was officially over, I went back to the guys apartment to thank them for letting me crash with them and for being there for me when I needed them to be. Even though they had no idea what I was going through, they stood by my side, no questions asked, and without asking for anything in return. Ruby also happened to be there, all of them looking at me with suspicious eyes and I just couldn’t keep boldly lying to their faces. So I blurted it out, killing all birds with one truth stone. I’m trying this new truth thing, keeping things as transparent as possible. So far it’s biting me in the ass.

Like Stella they didn’t seem very shocked by my revelation, making me question if I ever actually tried to hide it. Ruby claims she’s the first one who suspected, the fact that I haven’t drunk my body weight in liquor was a telltale sign to them all. I guess being an alcoholic has its downfall.

Sebastian convinced me to skip out on the following week of school, saying we needed to have some time to ourselves to face the reality of this pregnancy. I didn’t argue, it didn’t seem prudent to, nor was there anything exciting about returning to see those judgmental jerks. Of course, as expected, convincing the professors to allow us to turn in our assignments online versus in person, based on health issues , which aren’t a total lie, wasn’t an issue. Frankly, I never doubted there would be a problem with it, not only because it was Sebastian who asked, but also because we do most of our work online anyway. I honestly don’t understand why we even have to attend our lectures.

The week off has been good for us, we’ve managed to keep things civil, only breaking a handful of fragile items. It’s not my fault the vases around here look so throwable. We’ve argued less and have even scheduled a doctor's appointment for this afternoon, our first one together. I’m anxious as fuck having only gone to one other appointment the entire time since I’ve found out I was pregnant and running out of it before the doctor even had the chance to examine me, but I’m also eager to get this doctor to explain to Sebastian that I won’t fucking break if we have sex.

Because he refuses to fucking touch me.

We haven’t slept together since the day I passed out on him, exactly one week ago, because Sebastian still believes he nearly fucked me into a coma. He’s afraid that we’re going to hurt the baby if he shoves his dick in me.

So not only am I emotional as fuck, eating my weight in food, and feeling like a damn whale, I’m also incredibly, fucking horny.

“I swear Sebastian the moment the doctor tells you you’re a fucking moron for thinking your dick is massive enough to penetrate my amniotic sac, you’re going to fuck me then and there, right against the exam table.” Ace spits out his beer nearly choking at my remark before he and Scarlett burst out in a roar of laughter.

Sebastian throws his hands up in defeat, looking sexy as hell, in nothing but a pair of dark jeans and a single silver chain around his neck. “Come on baby, I know I won’t actually hurt the baby, I just don’t want to hurt you,” he pleads, stepping toward me with his arms outstretched, but I’m quick to put my arm out in front of me to halt him.

“Ace, tell me, how many times have you fucked my sister since she’s been pregnant?” I ask, turning to face Ace who sits on the couch behind Bass looking extremely amused.

“All day every day,” Ace answers smugly, just as Scar swats him on the arm. “Ouch babe, come on she asked.”

“Not helping brother,” Bass groans, glaring at Ace who raises his beer in apology.

“See they fuck all day every day and here you won’t fucking touch me. You think Ace isn’t worried about hurting her, you think he doesn’t care?” I shout, knowing well enough that’s not true but still pissed enough to say it.

“No Jade, that's not what I think, but you’re weaker…” The expression that passes over his face clearly proves he regrets what he ’s said as soon as the words leave his mouth, but it’s too late. Too fucking late.

My blood flows straight up to my head, my hands fisting at my sides as I step forward, meeting him, making him take a step back in defeat. “Weaker?” I ask, pushing his chest with my finger, “Are you fucking kidding me right now?”

The back of his legs crash into the table behind him, a solemn expression flashes in his eyes, at the realization of how his words hurt me. “That’s not what I…”

“Just stop talking man,” Ace mutters to him, “You’re digging a deeper hole for yourself.”

“Fuck off man. Jade, no, I just meant you passed out because you were exhausted. You’ve been so sick, Scar hasn’t, she hasn’t even thrown up once.”

“It’s called morning sickness Sebastian, read a fucking book. All pregnant women get it at some point in their pregnancy, doesn’t mean they can’t handle getting fucked.”

He walks around the coffee table and picks up a box of Krispy Kreme donuts he went out to buy me last night. These spontaneous cravings are getting the best of me, though he has yet to complain about his late-night trips to fulfill them. He opens the box of donuts, turning it in my direction, and offering me one. “Here babe I think you’re hangry, have a donut.”

“Donut!” I squeal, my voice quavering as I tremble in anger smacking the box out of his hands, “I don’t want a fucking snack Bass, I want you to eat me like one.”

Ace spits out the entire contents of his beer all over the hardwood in front of him. “Oh fuck,” he mutters, Scar bringing her hand to her mouth to hide her laughter.

Picking up the box and setting it down on the table, he closes the space between us taking my face in his hands. “Look baby,” he says, leaning his head forward and bringing his nose to rest against mine. “Let’s just go to the doctor's appointment,” he adds, bringing his hand to lay over my stomach under my shirt, slowly rubbing against it, “And see how our Little Monster is doing.” His hand moves lower cupping my pussy through my tight biker shorts, “After, I promise nothing will stop me from tearing into this little cunt like the monster you know and love.”

My pussy throbs in anticipation, his words serving as the perfect foreplay. I nod like a needy whore, my earlier rage gone just as fast as it came. Only with him, only like this.

I don’t know how Sebastian convinced me to come to a doctor’s office down in Galen Grove, but apparently this is where Scarlett has gone to try and keep things more private and away from the gossiping bitches of Hillcrest. Grove Medical Group is a small clinic, secluded in a twenty-story office building on the edge of town, but Dr. Sheppard is apparently an old family friend, who is paid generously to keep the information she learns to herself.

Great, even this doctor is on their payroll.

Frankly, Sebastian has been annoying the shit out of me ever since we drove here, over thinking everything, and panicking about the slightest of things. I haven’t stopped throwing up, although I am putting on some weight because I eat twice as much as I puke out, he’s worried I’m not getting the proper vitamins and shit given I’ve only gone once to the doctor prior to this, and like I said, ran out having a full-blown panic attack.

“It hasn’t been because I haven’t wanted to,” I sneer, turning away from him and facing the doctor, “It’s just, when the fuck was I supposed to find the time, or be able to sneak away to go to a doctor’s office, not to mention I don’t have health insurance.”

“We won’t worry about that here dear,” Dr. Sheppard assures me, “I am very generously paid to work no matter your economic status.” Dr. Eileen Sheppard is an older woman, maybe in her mid to late forties, tall and slim, with long brown hair down to her lower back, and kind eyes .

“You have to think not only about yourself now Jade, but you also have to take care of yourself for the baby,” Bass says, and even Dr. Sheppard realizes that was the wrong thing to say.

“You think I’m not taking care of myself?” I shout, his face instantly scowling at my indignation. “Do you honestly think I’m that irresponsible?”

“That’s not what I…”

I don’t give him the chance to redeem himself before giving him a piece of my mind. “I haven’t had a lick of alcohol, which trust me given the way my life has been going in recent months, I’d say that’s a huge accomplishment. I’m always tired, sick to my stomach, getting fatter every day, not to mention I’m horny as fuck and you won’t fucking touch me.”

“Jade…”

“Maybe I should give you a moment,” Dr. Sheppard mutters.

“No!” Both Bass and I shout simultaneously.

“Doc, can you please tell this insufferable moron that he’s not going to make me lose the baby if he fucks me, no matter how rough it gets.” Dr. Sheppard’s eyes go wide in shock before her calm guise falls back in place.

Bass groans beside me, running his hand over his face and chin, “Jade, what the hell?”

“Look Sebastian, darling,” Dr. Sheppard says, placing a hand tenderly upon his shoulder. Anger boils in my gut at the sight of her touching him, but I somehow manage to keep my emotions in check. Last thing I need to do is piss off my doctor. “It’s a common misconception to be honest. Some couples have many questions about maintaining a healthy sex life during the pregnancy, and it’s definitely safe to do so.”

“I’m not worried about hurting her Doc,” he says, pulling away from her, noticing my glare directed at the placement of her hand. “I just want to make sure we keep Jade, and the baby, healthy. She throws up almost every day, multiple times a day, and instead of putting on weight, she’s losing it. ”

“Well that’s why you’re here today. We’ll run some blood work, some tests to make sure her hormone levels are where they should be since this is only your second checkup, and an ultrasound to check on the baby’s vitals and get our first look.”

After taking my vitals, Dr. Sheppard leaves the room for a moment leaving Sebastian and I in a deafening silence. Once she returns, she washes her hands, slipping on a pair of gloves, and pouring some weird lotion onto her hands.

“Okay I’m going to need you to lie back and lift your shirt up over your stomach.”

I stare at her dumbfounded by her request. “We’re going to do an ultrasound, to hear the baby’s heartbeat and since you are about eighteen weeks, we can try to see if the baby allows us to see his or her sex. That is if you’d like to.”

I turn to Bass who has an equally shocked expression on his face. “I don’t think we do,” I murmur, Sebastian gaze turning to me.

“Very well, why don’t we just try and listen to a heartbeat and then we’ll get you on your way. I have some supplements for you to take to help with whatever nutrients the constant vomiting might be preventing you from absorbing. Shall we?”

I lean back completely on the exam table lifting my shirt off and over my head, sitting in my biker shorts and bralette. I pull my shorts down just under my pelvis, while Dr. Sheppard coats my stomach in cold gel and proceeds to grab the ultrasound wand and places it over my abdomen. Black and white images appear on the computer in front of her, swirling around in an odd shape.

“Looks like the baby is a bit shy. Their body is shifted to one side so we probably wouldn’t be able to determine the sex anyways,” Dr. Sheppard says, carefully watching the screen.

Suddenly a light thumping, like that of horses galloping in the distance, is heard in the room. I look up at Bass whose eyes remain glued to the screen before him .

I turn back to Dr. Sheppard who watches me awaiting my response. “Is that?”

“Yes, that’s your baby's heartbeat.”

“Oh my god that's so crazy” I say whispering to myself, Bass looks down at me in that moment and I notice tears in his eyes when they meet mine.

“It’s so fucking perfect too. This is everything Jade…” he leans over and kisses my forehead and for the rest of the appointment I'm in a daze.

Bass looks happy, he isn’t freaking out like I did during my first doctor's appointment and now I realize that's who I was missing the first time around. Sebastian Silver is my rock and we are having a baby.

Stepping out of the medical office building I finally snap back into reality. Dr. Sheppard gave us a printout of our Little Monster and I am so excited to show Scar and compare. She received one of her little angel last week after her appointment, and I just about died when I saw the teeny tiny little human that's inside her.

We make it back to the car and I sense Sebastian is feeling extra attentive when he comes around to my side and opens my door helping me inside. Here we go again. He’s back to treating me like I’m fragile and I’m fucking over it. I love the whole Prince Charming act but I want the beast to make an appearance soon.

As he climbs into the car, the smell of his cologne slaps me in the face and I fucking snap. I catch him off guard when I grab him by the neck and slam my mouth down on his. He hesitates, not moving for all of two seconds before he claims control of the kiss. His fingers grab hold of my hair and hold my head in place as he fucks my mouth with his tongue. He starts to pull back slowly, licking my lips and kissing down my neck, pulling a moan from me which comes out sounding more like a growl. This. This is what I have been fucking craving. A thousand times better than any snack.

His touch on my skin is electric. He pulls back once again to say something, and I seize the opportunity, climbing into his lap and bringing his mouth back to mine not giving a shit as to what he wanted to say. I need this and I need this now. Apparently sitting my ass on his lap was just what my caveman needed to let out a little more of his beast.

Sebastian has always been rough with me, knowing well enough I’m no delicate flower, but fuck since he fucked me unconscious he’s been treating me like I’m made of glass. Strong, calloused hands roam down my body and as they reach my hips, he slams me down on his lap, his erection digging into me. I almost scream from how hot it makes me. His cock rubs against my clit every time he pulls down my hips making me wetter and wetter with every thrust as I grind back and forth against it. With shaky hands I grab onto his neck using it like an anchor and squeeze. His mouth stills as I look down at him and he meets my eyes. His breathing changes, it’s faster, shallower and it feels like he’s fighting himself for control. He wants to let go. I can feel it but he is still hesitating.

“Sebastian, I need more. I need you to fuck me. I need it now. ”

“Dammit Little Wolf, I am so fucking hard. When I finally fuck you, I am going to break you,” he growls at me. Feeling the vibration of him speaking against my hand distracted me, so much I didn't realize he said “when”, as if we aren’t going to fuck right now. Think again Cupcake, Momma needs a snack.

“You’re adorable, Sebastian. We are totally fucking right now.” I remove my hand from his throat, replacing it with my mouth as I lick my way up from his collarbone to the back of his ear. He groans and lifts up, pushing himself into me and grinding me just right. “I know you can’t resist my mouth baby, let me have a taste,” I whisper breathlessly in his ear .

“Fuck Jade, we are going to get caught out here in the open, I am not fucking you here.”

“Fine, I huff, climbing off of him and settling back into my own seat, though my hand never let go of him. I get up on my knees and start to unbuckle his belt. Bass doesn't make a move to stop me so I am taking advantage of every second I have before he tries to stop me again. I am determined to break him. This is going to happen.

I’m about to put him in my mouth when I hear him groan “Fuck”. I mentally cheer myself on thinking he’s just as hot for it as I am, when suddenly he pushes me off him and puts himself back in his pants. “Jade, fuck, I’m sorry. Eliza just walked by the car and we made eye contact right before you sucked me off.”

“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me right now” I practically cry out, slamming my head back against the seat.

“I promise we will finish this tonight Little Wolf, I will get you good and fed baby..”

“Tonight is too far away Bass, I am going to die from dick-privation before you actually get to fucking me.” This fucking sucks, and I still want a fucking snack!