24. Zan
Chapter 24
Zan
I jerked in the chains when Kali leaned down and kissed me on the throat. Her soft touch had my dick swelling in my jeans. My chest went tight, pain radiating down my limbs. I choked out a breath, losing the battle of not thinking about sex. My father’s entrancement was wrecking me, and I wrenched the cuffs, not having any control of my body.
“Fuck,” I grumbled, squeezing my eyes closed. “My self-control is gone, Kali.”
She giggled softly, kissing me again. This time she nipped at my ear, and I let out a strangled groan, my desire to have her warring against the entrancement.
“Good thing you can’t go anywhere” she teased in a husky voice. “You’re mine now, Zan.”
I forced out a gruff chuckle. “Better do what you want with me before I break free.”
Her eyes snapped to mine, challenge gleaming in them. The chains were old and rusting away. While they were holding me now, I had a feeling that wouldn’t last. Though I couldn’t help but wonder how much her strength had grown while I was gone. I was sure I’d find out if I broke these chains.
Her fingers fumbled with the button on my jeans before she tugged on them, scooting her body down so she could pull my jeans and boxers off. By now, my dick was rock hard, and the force of entrancement had my muscles straining. I sucked in a breath when she yanked off her shirt before rising on her knees to pull off her pants.
She sat back down on my stomach once she was completely naked, I nearly lost it. My craving for her was rivaling the waves of anguish from the entrancement. Every cell in my body was trying to obey what Amaros wanted, and it was infuriating.
“Will it change?” she asked quietly, her words making my eyes snap to hers.
“What?” I gritted out, trying to think of anything but her body on top of me.
“If we’re bonded,” she whispered. “Will it change how I feel about you?”
My heart squeezed. “I don’t know. But I do know that my feelings won’t change. I already know you’re mine.”
She rocked on top of me, brushing her pussy over my cock, making me buck against her. I couldn’t control it. Not while I was still under entrancement. Though, I was attempting to rein in my strength as much as I possibly could. I didn’t want to break the chains. Having Kali on top of me was something I’d fucking dreamed about for weeks.
“Fuck,” I gritted out, my voice rough with need. “I cannot handle your teasing right now.”
A small smirk appeared on her lips. “Too bad for you—I’m in charge.”
“Oh, Kali.” I forced out a harsh chuckle. “Better enjoy it while it lasts.”
She continued to rub against me until I was writhing under her. My emotions were literally tearing me apart. Every part of my being wanted her, but I was still under my father’s control. Control so strong that I couldn’t fight it.
A growl vibrated in my chest when she lifted herself off me before spinning around. She straddled my chest, and then lowered her head, sticking her ass up. Oh my fuck. She arched her back, keeping her ass inches from my face as her fingers wrapped around my cock.
The air was trapped in my lungs, stifling me. My internal struggle was ripping me apart, and Kali’s teasing was driving me insane.
Then she lowered her head, taking me in her mouth. A strangled groan left me as she took me deeper until the tip of my cock hit the back of her throat. She braced herself, keeping me pressed against the mattress as I bucked against her, my eyes locked on her gorgeous ass. She sucked and licked, drawing the pleasure out until I could barely stand it.
I hissed out a breath when her teeth grazed me. “Kali.”
She pulled her mouth off me, grinning deviously. “What?”
“Do you enjoy torturing me?”
“I was just making sure you were ready for me.”
She sat up, spinning back around, and meeting my eyes. My gaze dropped to her hardened nipples, and I strained against the cuffs, needing to fucking touch her.
“Ride me, Kali,” I demanded hoarsely. “Right fucking now.”
She tsked. “You’re in no position to make demands.”
Her voice was full of heated teasing, but I didn’t have a chance to respond because she lowered herself on me. My cock nudged her entrance, and I stifled a moan as she kept going until I was fully inside her.
“Shit,” I breathed out, pain exploding inside me. Every cell in my body burned with a fire that was suffocating.
Maybe breaking entrancement would actually kill me.
“Zan.” Her worried voice sounded far away as anguish consumed me.
“Move, Kali,” I choked out. “I need you to move.”
She listened, rocking her body back and forth. Nope, that wasn’t fucking helping. If anything, it was worse. My chest tightened, the pain stealing my breath. I forced my eyes open, only to meet Kali’s panicked ones.
“I think we should stop,” she whispered as she halted her movements. “Fuck, Zan. I can see how much pain this is causing you.”
“Don’t,” I warned gruffly. “I’m fine. Keep going. I want to watch you come apart.”
She bit her lip, and I swallowed my groan as I lifted my hips. Her hands landed on my chest, her nails digging into my skin.
“Move,” I ordered.
She kept my stare as she began riding me again. I wasn’t stopping until this damn pain went away. Because there was no way in hell I was going to be stuck under my father’s entrancement and be unable to touch her. I gave no fucks how badly it hurt right now. I only hoped I could somehow break the control.
Her eyes fluttered, breaking our stare as her pleasure began to take over. I kept my gaze locked on her, knowing that watching her was the only thing keeping me grounded. I clenched my teeth, another wave of pain hitting me. It was never ending, and I yanked against the chains.
“Touch yourself.” My gaze trailed down her bare stomach, and I bit my tongue, wanting nothing more than to touch her. But if I got out of these chains, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to control myself. While every part of my mind wanted her, my body was struggling to obey my father’s demand.
She dragged one of her hands down my chest, placing her fingers over her clit as she continued to rock back and forth. A moan escaped her lips, and she upped her pace, chasing her impending orgasm. My muscles spasmed as pain tore through me. It was taking everything to stay silent, but if Kali knew how much agony I was in, she’d stop. But it was all fucking worth it to be with her.
“Yes,” she breathed, her eyes closed.
It was easy to see that her new senses were taking over. It hit me that this was her first time having sex as a Shadow. I’m sure she was drowning in pleasure right now. Orgasms were amazing as a human, but as a Shadow? They were fucking mind-blowing.
Her chest heaved, her breaths coming out hard and fast. I fought through the pain to listen to her heartbeat, knowing she was close. A few moments later, she let out a scream, her body going rigid as she came.
I froze, the pain dimming quickly until it was finally gone. Kali was still coming down from her high, and I didn’t think she even realized that she was digging her nails into my chest hard enough to draw blood. Not that I minded.
I sucked in a breath when a new sensation filled me. Kali gasped, her eyes snapping open to meet mine. Something crept through my veins wrapping around me and squeezing tightly until it reached my heart. Kali brought her hand to her chest, clutching it as her eyes widened in shock.
And then…I felt like I was floating.
Happiness.
Desire.
Love.
All those emotions swirled through me, and then something foreign was mixed in. Kali was frozen on top of me, her eyes searching mine. Was she feeling the same thing?
Whatever I was feeling was tied to her. It was like her essence was running through me—parts of herself that made her who she was.
This was it. Pax had been right the entire time. Our souls were binding together, never to be separated.
I didn’t notice a difference in how I felt about her. Maybe it was because I already loved her. I would do whatever I fucking needed to keep her alive. Her happiness and freedom had been my priority for months.
“Do you feel it, Kali?” I murmured in a low voice.
Her small smile proved she remembered that question. It was the same thing I’d asked her the first night we slept together. Back when she refused to reveal any kind of feelings toward me.
“Yes,” she admitted in a whisper. “I feel it.”
“Look at that,” I mused, a grin tipping my lips. “Your answer is very different from the last time I asked you that.”
“Last time, you were still a Kane vampire who kidnapped me,” she shot back, her voice teasing.
“Undo these.” I rattled the chains impatiently. “Our bond broke the entrancement, and I’m more than ready to fucking touch you.”
Her eyes flashed with amusement as she threw me a sinful smile. “I don’t have the keys. Looks like I’m still in charge.”
I was still rock hard inside her, and when she moved again, pleasure ricocheted through me, a far cry from the pain I’d been feeling. I wrenched in the cuffs, annoyance flooding through me. I was free to do what I wanted—which was to have my hands all over her.
She leaned down, still bouncing on my cock, her lips meeting mine. I chuckled against her mouth when she pushed her tongue into mine. She was still trying to control this, and while I was amused, I was ready to make her scream.
I yanked my arms, hearing metal twist. Kali’s eyes darted to my restrained arms in surprise, and I shot her a heated smirk when I pulled again, using all my strength. I’d been attempting to hold back when I was entranced, because I hadn’t wanted to break free, but that wasn’t an issue now. The chains finally gave and snapped, leaving the cuffs locked around my wrists. Kali let out a shriek when I grabbed her hips, lifting her off me.
She went for my arm, but I was already flipping her under me, making her land on her stomach. Before she could crawl away, I snatched her wrists, holding them at the base of her spine with one hand. With my other, I grasped her hip, pulling her ass into the air. She cursed into the mattress before tilting her head to the side.
“Who’s in control now?” I asked smugly. “You teased me earlier, putting this right in my face.” I rubbed my thumb over her ass, while keeping a grip on her hip to keep her from going anywhere.
I didn’t need to see her face to know my words were getting to her. Even if we were bonded, she would never stop challenging me—and I never wanted her to. Her struggles to free herself intensified, and my hold on her wrists began to slip. Letting go of her hip for a moment, I grabbed my cock, guiding it to her pussy.
Her fighting halted as I pushed inside her before grabbing her hip again. I buried myself inside her before slowly pulling back out, only to slam back into her.
“Oh my god,” she whimpered.
“Hmm, am I taking another first?” I asked, my eyes staying on her ass as I plunged into her again. “Have you ever fucked in this position?”
She shook her head, a moan escaping her as she met each one of my thrusts, her pussy clenching around my cock like she owned it. Which she did. She owned every fucking piece of me. She always would.
She twisted in my hold, and I tightened my grip on her wrists while reaching for her clit with my other. She cried out in pleasure from my new touch, and I continued to fuck her hard, wanting her to scream louder.
“Fuck,” I gritted out, my own release beginning to build.
Then she broke my hold, freeing her arms, and I let out a protest when she pulled away.
“Kali,” I warned, reaching for her. “What?—”
I caught sight of her dirty grin before she snatched my arm, yanking me onto the mattress next to her. Her moves were much faster than before I’d left the property, and her strength almost rivaled mine. Almost . I rolled on top of her before she could do anything else, trapping her wrists next to her head. She wrapped her legs around my waist.
She was breathing hard, her eyes bright with lust. “Fuck me, Zan.”
“That’s one order from you that I’ll always obey.”
I plunged back into her, silencing her cry by pressing my lips to hers. She tore her wrists from my tight grip before wrapping her arms around my neck and pulling me down. Her legs squeezed around me as I thrust in a steady rhythm while listening to her heart begin to race even faster. I kissed the side of her throat, loving the noises escaping her lips as I upped my pace.
“I understand now,” she said between heavy breaths. “Our bond. It’s nothing like I imagined. I don’t feel forced to love you. It’s just… right .”
Lifting my lips from her neck, I met her eyes, not slowing my thrusts. “It was always right, Kali. It just took you longer to realize it.”
Her small laugh turned into a moan. “Yet, you knew instantly. Even when I was human.”
“I was utterly fucking obsessed with you,” I grunted, losing myself to the pleasure. “That will never change.”
“Don’t stop,” she panted, writhing under me. “Fuck, it feels so good.”
“We have all night. And now that you’re a Shadow, you have the stamina to handle everything I want to do to you.” I paused for a moment. “You know that I can feel when I’m ready to mate. I don’t feel that right now.”
Her lust-filled eyes darted to mine. Since she was transitioning, she shouldn’t be able to get pregnant. But her mother was different. She had Kali and Keeva when black blood ran through her veins. Their bloodline was different. As much as I wanted to be buried inside her when I came, I wasn’t doing it unless she chose it.
“I trust you.” Her answer was instant and clear as her legs tightened around my waist.
I grinned, lowering my head to kiss her again. All our troubles were far away right now. I wasn’t thinking about anything that was happening outside this room. I had every intention of spending as much time as we had in this bed with her until we had to face the world again.