26. Kane #2
“How long did you plan to keep me in the dark?” I shift my gaze between them, waiting for someone to speak.
“Today. We wanted to talk to you today. What you walked in on…” Jace starts. “I realize how this is gonna sound, but the truth is after last night we were so happy. We were so sure you’d want to date us… the moment overtook us.”
I can’t help it. I snort .
“Told you,” he mumbles. “But even though that moment didn’t involve you specifically, you were still part of it.
I hope you’ll always be part of it. Just like Blake was part of the moment between the two of us when you came over after work that day.
He wasn’t physically there, but it was what happened between the two of you at lunch that set things in motion.
And when he got home, didn’t you feel how much he liked seeing us together?
That’s what Blake and I mean when we say we want to date you.
We want the three of us to be together, but in those moments where you’re with one of us separately, that makes us just as happy. ”
“We should have told you this sooner.” Blake runs a hand through his already ruffled hair “It’s my fault we didn’t.”
“Ours,” Jace interrupts. “I was the one projecting my issues onto you two,” he insists.
“I think we’re both guilty of that.” Blake turns his humble gaze to me.
“You’re new to town, you’ve got a new job, and I know those things are challenging enough without adding us to the mix.
” He draws a line between him and Jace. “I wasn’t sure you’d jump at the chance to go public about dating two guys.
And selfishly, that let me hide who I am a little longer, while I tried to wrap my head around my feelings. ”
“What’s there to wrap your head around? I heard you say you love Jace.”
“I do. But he’s not the only one.” The corner of Blake’s lip tips up in a bashful smile.
“That’s what we’re trying to tell you, sweetheart.
” Jace cups his hand around my neck and strokes my cheek.
“We love you, too. Blake and I may have started out as a couple, but once we discovered that we’d both been with you, and we both felt drawn to you the same way we did to each other…
The connection Blake and I have is the ki nd of thing you’re supposed to feel only once in a lifetime, but we both feel that connection to each other and to you.
There was never a doubt that the three of us belong together.
We just didn’t know how to express what you mean to us, and we let sex be the cop out until we thought you were ready to hear the truth. ”
“You wanted this to be more than sex all along?” My heart beats erratically in my chest, not sure how to interpret this news.
“We thought we might scare you off if we told you how serious we are about you.” Jace reaches for my hand, and though I’m still leery of what they’re saying, I let him take it.
“Our feelings for you were pretty intense right from the start. And by the start I don’t mean when you moved here, I mean when we first met you. ”
“That was…” My mouth falls open as I stare at Jace, dumbfounded.
“A year ago. Yeah.” I swear his cheeks turn pink with that admission. “Blake’s the fate guy, but having the two of you here—the only two people I’d ever wanted to make something real with—that’s a sign even I couldn’t ignore. The three of us…I want it more than anything.”
“So, you’re saying I’m not the side piece in your...” I wave my hand around as I search for the word I want. “Couple?”
“You’re the piece that holds us together,” Blake says softly. “Or, we want you to be.”
I open and shut my mouth, then open and shut it again.
“Can that really work? Three people ?” I may have been fantasizing about that a little this morning since I’d developed feelings for both men and couldn’t imagine being with one over the other.
But I don’t think I was taking that fantasy seriously. I mean… three people?
“It was working, wasn’t it?” Blake shrugs sheepishly. “The three of us compliment each other. You and Jace are brave where I’m practical, you and I are social where he’s independent, and he and I can be idiots where you’re smart. The fact that we’re having this conversation is proof.”
I press my lips together to contain my grin—Blake’s self-deprecating humor really is charming—though he’s making this sound much simpler than it is.
Things may have been working in the bedroom, but what happens when we step out of it?
Will we be shunned by the town? Will my job be in jeopardy?
Will my sister accept or even tolerate my lifestyle?
“Plus,” Jace continues before I can finish my thoughts, “we all have an adventurous side that likes to explore and soak up the outdoors. Plenty of two-person couples don’t fit together as well as the three of us do.”
My history with Brian is evidence of that. Still, what sounds good in theory can’t be this easy in practice. Can it?Besides, there’s still the matter of their deception, and that makes me leery.
“You hurt me.” My voice is barely louder than a whisper.
“I know,” Jace says.
“I’ve never regretted anything more,” Blake adds. “I’ve also never wanted anything more, and I made some stupid decisions to try to make it happen. That’s no excuse, just the truth, and while I can’t take back what I did, I can promise to always give you the truth. If you’ll let me. ”
“Kane,” Jace starts, “Blake and I love each other, and we love you. The question is, do you think you could love us?”
Putting aside the external factors—my job and my reputation—that I should consider, I can honestly say I have feelings for both men.
Feelings that originated from the time I met each of them, and which grew over these past several weeks, enough so that I was starting to panic over how to navigate them without hurting anyone.
Regardless of how unconventional this is, both Blake and Jace have touched my spirit in a way no one else has, simply by accepting me for who I am.
I’ve never felt inadequate with them, never doubted my own mind.
I can truly be myself with them, something I’ve rarely felt with anyone else, even Liz, who despite being my biggest supporter never quite got me the way Blake and Jace do.
Is that love? It’s more than I ever felt for Brian, who I did think I loved, so yeah.
It may make me slightly crazy, but I do think I can love them both. I’m halfway there already.
“Yes.”
The word barely passes through my lips before Jace’s are on me, soft and savoring.
Remorseful and hopeful. Then Blake tilts my chin toward him and takes his turn, showing me the depth of the feelings in his heart.
Back and forth, they take turns worshiping me with their mouths; confessing their regrets, begging forgiveness, and pledging their love.
It’s poignant, and emotional, and touches my very soul.
Like they’ve been trying to tell me, something about the three of us together feels right.
But as they smother me with attention, it becomes glaringly obvious they’re holding back, and while there’s still a lingering sting from their deception, I know deep down the three of us have no future if I don’t put that sting behind me.
Pulling back, I cup each of their faces in my palm. “Now you two.”
Blake licks his lips with a shaky breath as Jace wraps a hand around his neck.
Then their lips meet, right in front of my eyes, and a soft moan rumbles from Blake’s throat.
Their eyes are delicately shut, tongues subtly meeting between barely parted lips, and it’s so beautiful I swear my eyes get a little misty .
Unlike this morning, when I assumed they didn’t have room in their hearts for me, I can now admit that I don’t feel left out even though I’m not part of this kiss.
Watching them allows me to see the reverence I feel each time they touch me, something that’s been there all along.
Yet, I’m pretty sure I’d have convinced myself I was imagining that if I had come into this knowing I was late to the party.
I guess their secrecy wasn’t as idiotic as I first thought. Not that it was the best approach, but maybe it wasn’t the worst, either. And now that we’re all on the same page and these two aren’t holding back…
My eyes aren’t the only place I’m wet. My slit is leaking profusely at the erotic sight playing out before me.
I must gulp or lick my lips or do something to give away the direction of my thoughts, because suddenly they’re both staring at me with a mix of curiosity and hunger that has me rubbing my thighs together.
“Sorta looks like he’s enjoying this little show, doesn’t it?” Jace’s mouth lifts in a lascivious smile.
“Something you want to tell us, Kane?” Blake’s grin rivals Jace’s.
Oh Boy. I want to see you rub your cocks together, I want to see you suck each other off, I want to watch you fuck.
Lewd fantasies bombard me faster than I knew I could conjure them, the depth of my curiosity apparently bottomless.
Instead, I trap my lips between my teeth and shake my head with wide, guilty eyes.
Eyes that wander downward of their own accord.
“I think someone wants a better view.” Jace stands up and strips off his shirt before reaching for the button on his pants.
Blake follows suit, watching me with a sly gaze. “When I came home yesterday and saw you and Jace…Watching your lovers fuck is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen. Also, the hottest. Is that what you want? To watch us? ”
I’m not embarrassed to say that per se, this is just all so new I’m not sure how to put my thoughts into words yet. “Maybe?” I gnaw on my lip, glancing bashfully between them.
As is normal—probably since he’s the most experienced of all of us—Jace takes charge. Fully naked, he takes a step forward and drags the length of his rigid cock along Blake’s, letting out a contented sigh when they make contact.