Breaker: An MC Romance

Chapter 22

Quinn

I gripmy phone as I pace my nearly empty living area.

Everything has been shipped with the help of my dad, with whom I have slowly become close with again. Momma wants to speak to me, but I”m just not ready. It”s hard to understand her thought process all those years ago. My heart beats for Alex, but the thought of traumatizing Noah as punishment for his father makes me physically sick.

I”ve been seeing a therapist to help with my fears over my feelings of emotional attachment. I”ve had days where I can”t breathe at the thought of giving myself fully to Alex, then days where I physically break down at the thought of losing him. Still, my dad has been the one who brings me back each time. If I call, he”ll answer immediately or as soon as he”s done with a patient.

This is the relationship I”ve wanted but couldn”t have, because I blamed him for my trauma when, in reality, Momma wanted to use me to punish him. In doing so, she punished me, too.

I check my phone again, and nothing.

Dammit…. Maybe I”m too late?

I shake my head and begin pacing again. Every day, with with my dad”s and therapists” encouragement, I message Alex, and even Jack jumped on the train to get me to open up more to Alex, and let him know that he owns me.

Even if it scares me.

I bit the bullet, so to speak, and sent him a message about ten minutes ago, telling him that I am in love with him, because the idea of saying it to his face scares me. I”ve finally opened my heart to him, and he”s not messaging me back.

Is it because I took the coward”s way out?

I”m supposed to be leaving in two days, but I can”t leave until I know that we”re definitely over, that there”s no coming back for us because of my problems, and that he doesn”t want me anymore, preferring others. What he did with that girl doesn”t count; I ended things, and just like my dad said, I hurt him.

I shake my head and groan, contemplating burying my head in a hole.

Maybe he doesn”t love me like I thought?

Just as the stupid thought hits me, my phone rings, making me jump. I scramble to grip the device before checking the caller”s I.D., but I scowl, seeing that it”s only Shelly.

I groan and answer it.

”Hey, Shell, can we do the whole ”don”t leave” speech later?” I say but freeze as her sobs hit my ears.

”It”s Noah. He had a fall and is on his way to the E.R. Crow and I are following.”

Tears hit my eyes, and I hang up without saying anything, before grabbing my keys and rushing out of my apartment, needing to get to the hospital.

Ten minutes later, and I”m pretty sure I got myself a speeding ticket via those red light cameras—not that I give a shit—and I run through the E.R. following the sounds of Noah”s cries.

”Mommy, I want my mommy….”

My heart pounds.

Is he talking about Jingles?

Without thinking, I rush into his cubicle as my phone rings. I ignore it and make eye contact with Alex, who looks ready to break, his phone to his ear.

Noah cries again, ”Momma!” We all look at him only to see his eyes on me, his hands making grabby motions for me, and my tears fall.

He thinks of me as his momma….

Snapping out of my shock when he cries grow louder, I rush toward him as Crow moves out of the way, making room for me. I notice a nurse trying to hold pressure to the right side of his head, and panic hits me. When I”m near his hands, he grips Alex”s hoodie to hold me close as I gently cup his cheek. My right hand, which thankfully is healed, grabs Alex”s, needing his touch.

”Momma….” Noah cries as he tries to push the frazzled-looking nurse away.

”I”m here, baby, I”m here….” I whisper as I place my hand on the gauze, causing the nurse to let go and Noah to stop struggling. The nurse furrows her brows, her eyes going to Alex, making my jealousy rise, and I mutter to her, ”He doesn”t like women around his dad.”

She scowls and states, ”She”s near him,” nodding to Shelly, who grins despite the fear in her eyes, then states, ”And so are you.”

I smile as Alex squeezes my hand, and I say, ”She is his grandmother, and me….” I swallow hard, about to admit something I haven”t even told myself out loud. ”I”m his woman.”

Alex”s grip tightens as Shelly lets out a sob while Crow states proudly.

”I”m sure my daughter-in-law here is capable of holding the pressure on her son”s head until Doc comes back. I think it”s best you leave.”

The nurse flinches before doing as asked, and I look at Noah, raising a brow and asking, hoping to distract him. ”Now what did you do this time, little man? Jump off the table?” He sniffles, and I continue, ”No? Hmmm…you slipped on slime?”

He grins wide, making me smile back. He says, ”I-I fell off the lad-ladder.”

I wince. ”Yeah, that would do it, huh….”

He sniffles. ”It really hurt, Momma….”

My eyes soften and I lean forward and gently kiss his forehead, ensuring to keep the pressure on his injury as Alex grip remains, refusing to let go of my hand.

”Well, if it isn”t my favorite teacher.” I look to see Doc enter the room, and I smile. He looks at Noah. ”All right, bud, let”s sort this cut out, shall we?”

He nods, his little eyes tearing up with fear before Doc looks at me and Alex. ”I think it”ll be best for me to sedate him so I can stitch his wound up before giving him a head C.T.”

Worried, I squeeze Alex”s hand, causing him to straighten and wrap his arm around me, while keeping hold of my hand to comfort me.

Half an hour later, Noah is having his scan. He was a big boy when Doc put a canula in his hand, refusing a nurse, after having some magic cream, before he fell asleep. Doc managed to stitch his cut up without having to shave too much of his hair off. Now Shelly and Crow have gone to the cafeteria to get some coffee, and I”m currently curled up in a ball on Alex”s lap in a room where they will return with Noah. When I refused to let Noah go without me, Doc promised not to leave his side, and Alex kept hold of my hand.

”I like you in my clothes, Goldie….” Alex whispers against my forehead, the coldness of his lip ring soothing me as his fingers run through my hair.

I grip his cut, deciding that now is the time to speak. ”I don”t want to be my momma.” His fingers stop for a moment before moving again, and he stays quiet. ”When I saw you in bed with her, not even caring why, the feeling I felt consumed me, and it scared me, and it still scares me. I-I felt like I could die seeing that, and then hearing what you did with that woman…. It killed me a little bit inside.” He rubs his lips over my forehead as I grip his chain around his neck, admitting, ”I”m in love with you so deeply that I”ve tried to run away from it, and it took for me to be honest with my dad about the past to realize that I can”t run anymore. I need you like I need air to breathe, and I can”t—” my tears fall ”—I can”t apologize enough for pushing you away.”

He holds me tight as he places two fingers beneath my chin, making me look at him. He looks at me so affectionately that my heart pounds.

He rubs his nose against mine and rasps, ”It”s about time you caught up, baby, because, fuck, have I missed you.” He presses his lips against mine as I let out a sob, before he rasps, ”I love you too, Goldie, so fucking much.” He kisses me hard. I grip his chain tighter while opening my mouth, giving his tongue access as he cups my jaw, tilting my head, deepening the kiss.

Home, that”s what I feel right now.

”Oh, it”s about time,” I hear whispered, causing Alex to smile against my lips and break the kiss.

He rubs his nose against mine, and I admit, ”I”ve got another job hours away from here.”

He nods and states, ”And I”ve ensured they cancelled your position,” not shocking me at all, making me giggle a little. I hear Shelly giggle and Crow snort.

”I let my apartment go, and my stuff is on its way to California,” I add.

He nods at my words before kissing me and then stating, ”Your dad has stored all your stuff in his garage.” I laugh this time. Of course, my father was in on it. I kiss his lips before he states, ”I wasn”t letting you go, Quinn. I was biding my time for you to realize it.”

I nod, some tears falling as I whisper, ”I love you.”

He sighs in relief, replying, ”I love you, too.”

The next day, I”m again curled up on Alex”s lap, where I”ve been all night, watching Noah sleep in the hospital bed. He was so brave. Doc stated there was no lasting damage shown on the C.T. He believes he cut on his head is from the ladder, not from hitting it on the ground, which is a relief.

I look down and I gently run my finger over Alex’s ring finger. Last night, I noticed a new tattoo on his finger, proving how much I mean to him. He was never going to let me go, and my name inked on his skin, along with the date we met, proves it—and no, not the date he snapped at me at our first meeting, thankfully, but the date Noah set us up.

Alex gently rubs his fingers up and down my spine, underneath his hoodie I”m wearing, and states, ”I hope you’re aware that you”re not going to your apartment when he”s discharged.”

I smile, place my head on his shoulder, and mumble, ”I wasn”t planning on it.”

I feel him grin against my head as the door to Noah”s room opens. I look but don”t move my head, though I grin.

”Hey, Ken,” I say, causing Alex to look near the door. She grins at us before looking at Noah, her eyes softening.

”Well, Noah definitely likes to scare people, huh?”

I giggle at her words as she walks over to the bed, and runs her fingers through his hair.

Alex grunts. ”You”re really here?” He tightens his arms around me, unwilling to let me get up to greet his cousin, who grins knowingly. Since yesterday, he’s only let me stand when I needed the bathroom.

I smile as Kennedy shrugs, some strands of her black hair falling over her face. ”Your girl here rang me yesterday on her way here and kept me up to date. Of course, I”m here, Alex. He may be my second cousin, but I”m still his auntie.”

I grin wide, and I’m about to speak, loving that she”s come all this way for Noah, when the door opens again, and I wince. Doc freezes in the doorway, seeing Kennedy, who looks at him for five seconds before turning back to Noah.

”So, exactly how did he fall?” she asks like Doc isn”t staring at her, checking her from head to toe, shocked that she”s here.

Maybe he thinks he”s seeing a ghost?

Alex clears his throat. ”Lola decided she wanted to apologize.”

Kennedy looks at him in shock, ”Apologize for what?”

I clear my throat, but it is Doc who speaks as he stands at the foot of the bed, staring at her like she”s about to disappear, and states, ”She started an insurrection with the parents at the school Quinn worked, accusing her of using a child to get a patched brother, and how she”s been sleeping with their partners.” Kennedy”s eyes harden the more Doc talks. He clears his throat. ”She then proceeded to threaten the school after making the same complaint. She told Ms. Holden that if she didn”t fire Quinn, then she”d pull the club’s money from the sponsorship funds. She’s also the reason Noah is here because she blocked Breaker’s view of him while he was playing.”

Kennedy growls and takes her phone out, making me wince. She places the device to her ear. She”s quiet for a few seconds as Alex”s hands continue to soothe me, and then she speaks, ”Lola Marie Carter. In an hour, I want your ass down in the reception area of the hospital. You and I need to talk.” I hear Lola squeal, clearly celebrating, making Alex shake his head, before Kennedy growls, ”You can stop celebrating. How dare you ruin Quinn”s career over a man who never wanted you!” She hangs up then looks at me, and says, ”I”ll deal with her.”

I give her a smile as Doc clears his throat. ”Ken, can we….”

She shakes her head as she runs her fingers through Noah”s hair and states, ”I”m here for Noah, not you, Doc.” His jaw ticks at the use of his road name. ”I”m only here for a few days, but then I need to get back to my life and the guy I”m seeing.” Docs face reddens. ”I don”t need any drama, so its best you stay clear.”

I flinch, seeing the fury on Doc”s face before he looks our way. I can tell he’s trying to rein in his anger. Forcing a calmness, he states, ”I”ll be back in half an hour to check his wound. He should, hopefully, be awake by then.”

We nod before he moves, but instead of leaving, he gets close up behind Ken, and I bite my lip to stop my smile.

The man thought he was doing what was right despite knowing he was being used, which is why a part of me believes that evil woman, Prue, has something on him or a loved one. That’s the only reason for him not to question her. It”s just a shame Kennedy didn”t see it that way, her hurt taking over, not that I blame her. Doc, the ass made her the other woman.

He presses his lips to the side of her neck, making her shiver, then stiffen. Alex chuckles quietly instead of flying off the handle like I thought he would.

”You”re mine, Pixie. You know it, and I know it. This man, he doesn”t stand a fucking chance, because I own that heart like you own mine.”

He kisses her neck again, taking a deep breath before leaving.

She looks our way and points, stating, ”Hush, you two.”

We laugh as Noah sits up, blinks his eyes which light up at the sight of Ken, and he says, ”Auntie Ken,” making me grin.

I place my face in Alex”s neck, smiling, knowing this week will be fun.

I”m finally happy…. I just hope I don”t let my fear take over again.

As if feeling my worries, Alex kisses my head and whispers, ”I love you, Goldie,” making everything right in my world.