48. Briar
Briar
H e loves me.
He kissed me.
He loves me.
All three of these dark, beautiful men love me. And my heart feels too full.
Jenson doesn’t rush. He explores my mouth with careful reverence as my movement returns, until I can roll into him, burrowing my head into his chest. He strokes my hair. “How do you feel?”
I’m trembling. The aftermath of all those feelings is hitting me hard .
More hands. River presses himself against my back. “It’s okay. It’s going to feel intense for a little while, baby.”
Kai runs his hands through my hair as he lays a blanket over the three of us. River presses in closer, murmuring to Jenson. “Sub-drop?”
My body tremors get worse. “What’s…that?”
I try to press in closer to both of them as Jenson strokes my hair. “It’s like… an emotional hangover, after what we just did. It’s why we had such a large aftercare section in the agreement. It wouldn’t have been as bad if we did things the original way. I should have warned you it would feel more intense.”
Kai tugs the blanket down slightly. There’s a glass of water in his hand, and River presses his lips to my shoulder. “You need to drink, baby.”
I shake my head, not wanting to move. “Stay here.”
More coaxing kisses. “How about this? You can curl up on Kai’s lap, and we’ll get you what you need. Okay?”
I pause, considering. Kai holds out his arms in silent invite, and I nod, reaching for him.
He lifts me carefully, the shock of cool air against my skin smothered by the blanket River quickly wraps around me. Kai settles back against the headboard with me held tightly against him, and River and Jenson sit close to us.
River holds the glass to my mouth. My arms are wrapped around Kai. “This will make you feel better. A couple of these, okay?”
He’s nudging my head back, until the water runs down my throat and I swallow. “Why do I feel like this?”
Shaking, emotional… needy. Fragile, even.
“Your endorphins have dropped. Everyone reacts differently.” Jenson picks through the fruit bowl on the dresser, returning with an orange that he starts to peel. “We’ll work out what works best for you together, but it’s completely normal. How long it lasts can vary.”
He presses an orange segment to my lips. “Suck.”
The tart, refreshing flesh feels nice.
“More? It will help.”
I nod.
Kai rests his chin on top of my head.
Jenson feeds me pieces of orange, River encouraging me to drink another few glasses of water. And slowly, the shaking starts to subside.
I glance up at Kai, and he gives me a small smile. It grows when I lift my fingers and trace the heart he gave me back into his skin, following it up with a kiss. “I think I’m starting to feel better.”
“Good, but stay with Kai for a little while longer.” Jenson tilts his head at the torn expression on my face. “Tell us what you need.”
My heart thumps as I glance between them. River starts when I crawl off Kai’s lap and into his, wrapping my arms around his neck and pressing my face to his skin as I breathe him in. His voice is soft. “Hey, you. Did you enjoy yourself?”
I nod into his neck. “I felt everything. It was… a lot.”
“Too much?” His hand traces my spine as I turn my head, still leaning on him as I eye Jenson. “We can adjust things, if you want to do that again.”
“I do.” My smile starts slow. “I liked the clamps.”
His laugh makes my smile grow as his body shakes beneath mine. “Me too.”
Jenson looks a little uncertain as I move to him.
Pausing on my knees, I look at his face. His lips. “Can I…,”
I want to kiss him.
His hands settle on my waist immediately, lifting me until I can wrap my legs around his hips, balancing on my knees. “You need reassurance after a scene. Closeness. Good to know.”
A scene. That word definitely works for what we just did.
My nose presses into Jenson’s throat, before I shift, my lips against his skin. I move higher, kissing his neck. His cheek, just below his ear. Tracing across his face, his stubble rough beneath my mouth. “It’s not the scene that’s making me do this.”
Maybe it is. But I just want them . And one thing in particular. Jenson inhales as I slowly place my lips against his. I don’t move until he makes a noise beneath me, his hand wrapping around the back of my neck as he kisses me back.
“You didn’t keep your promise.” I breathe the words into his ear, and his body stiffens. He didn’t touch me, my orgasm derailing his plans.
Jenson pulls back to look at me. He’s still hard beneath me, but his jaw is tight as he shakes his head. “Too soon. We have plenty of time.”
I rock my hips, experimenting with the feel of him. Velvet and heat, and he tips his head back with an exhale.
“Please.” I press my lips to his throat again, licking the salt from it. “Please, Jenson.”
I want to feel him. To know how he feels inside me. It’s like something is missing from the experience I just had with Kai and River, and I don’t want to feel like that.
His words are strangled. “You are dangerous. You need to rest, baby.”
Shaking my head in silent rebuttal, I glance behind me. Jenson’s hands clench on my skin as I tilt back. Shuffling until my back is against the bed.
Kai looks down at me, his lips parted.
I run my hands over my body, cupping my breasts, feeling the ache of the past hour in my body. But that almost familiar buzz of excitement is there too as I peek up at Jenson. His jaw is clenched.
“ Briar .”
“ Jenson .”
My cheeks flush red, but I open my legs anyway. Baring myself to him. “Please?”
The noise he lets out tells me that I’m in trouble. “You’re going to get exactly what you asked for.”
He means it as a warning.
But my eyes widen with delight. “Promise?”