Chapter Seventeen
Sofiya
“Ithought I lost you for a moment,” Dimitri admits to me as we lay in bed together. My body is exhausted from sleeping in the cage for the past four days. It was just the cold hard ground for me.
“I thought so too. I only felt numb. But I know I want to be with you, Dimitri. There’s no denying it. I need you.”
His eyes darken. “I never thought I would hear you say those words when we first met. But here you are, still with me, even after everything I’ve done to you. Have I truly broken you?”
“Yes. To some degree. But I know what I want is a part of myself. And what I want is you. I need you so badly it hurts. You haven’t touched me in days. I was so lonely in that cage.”
“You need my attention, I take it. I denied it from you and now you’re desperate for it. Is that right?”
“Yes,” I practically moan, not even embarrassed by that fact. That’s how badly I need Dimitri.
“You need my touch?” He runs his hand over my arm, sending goosebumps across my skin. No matter how he touches me, it always makes me feel alive.
“Yes.”
“How often?”
“All the time.”
“You need it now?”
“Yes.”
He rolls me onto my back and leans over me. It’s then that I notice he’s shirtless. The only time I’ve seen him shirtless was when we were in the shower together. But he’s never been this physically vulnerable with me before outside of the shower.
My hands run over his chest and a low hiss escapes his mouth. I love knowing I have the power to make him feel good too. Maybe I’m not just a plaything to him. Maybe I can truly become his wife.
“I want to make love with you,” I whisper. “That’s what I want.”
“Sofiya…”
“I know you think you’re not capable of it.
That you’re only capable of the darkness inside of you.
But I know you have a softness within you.
I’ve seen it before. Make love to me right now, Dimitri.
I don’t want you in a cold cage in a basement right now.
I don’t want it on a desk or a bathroom counter.
I just want you to touch me, gently, for once. I need it.”
“How badly do you need it?”
“More than anything.” I can feel tears pricking at my eyes but I hold them back. I’ve cried enough times over the weeks I’ve been married to Dimitri. I just want to be happy so I’m choosing to be happy with him.
“I’m used to darkness,” he says. “And I want to fuck you until you scream my name.”
“And I need you to make love to me. Can you do that?”
He cups my cheek and I lean into his touch. “Will I lose you again if I don’t?”
“Maybe,” I admit. “I’m not sure. I don’t mind the darkness at times. But I don’t always want it. Sometimes I want love. Can you show that to me, Dimitri? Please. Can I be your wife? Your equal? Or will I forever be the woman you discipline?”
“I think I’ll always love disciplining you,” he says with a smirk. “But you really need this from me? Need me to show you love?”
“Yes. More than anything. That’s what has been missing in our relationship. It’s why I went numb in that cage. Because I didn’t have you. Didn’t have your attention. And I still don’t have your love. I want it so bad. I need it.”
He looks into my eyes for a long moment before he subtly nods. “I’ll try.” He doesn’t say anything more before he places his lips to mine. The kiss starts off soft and sweet before turning more passionate. More rough. I sink right into him.
Dimitri sits up and slips my nightgown off my body, leaving me fully naked underneath him.
“I’ll never get tired of looking at your body.
” He trails his fingers along my breasts and down to my stomach and then between my legs where he stops.
“I know I’ve taken you hard in the past. It’s been a few days now. Is your cunt still sore?”
“No. Not anymore.”
“Good. Because I’m going to thrust my cock so deep into you, you’re not going to be able to think about anything else.”
“Yes,” I whisper. This is what I need. His touch. His attention. His desire.
My back arches slightly, trying to get closer to his touch but Dimitri pulls his hand away, making me pout.
He taps my nose. “In time, baby. I just want to look at you for a moment.” He spreads my legs wide and trails his eyes over my entire body, from my face down to my toes.
His eyes linger on my breasts and my vulva.
My inner walls clench at the memory of having him inside of me.
I need it again so badly, I can barely breathe.
“Dimitri,” I whimper.
He grips my thighs. The sight of his strong hands on my body makes me shiver. A flash of arousal hits me that is so strong, I almost come right then and there. Just from his look. That’s the power he has over me.
“You’re dripping for me,” he murmurs, running his finger along my inner thigh. He lifts his finger up to show me the glistening wetness from my body before he places it on his tongue. “You always taste so good. You really are made for me.”
“Yes.” My hips roll up.
“You need this, don’t you, baby? You’re desperate for me.”
“Yes. I never want to feel numb again. I need you, Dimitri.”
“I know, baby. I know.” In one smooth motion, he grabs my waist and flips me onto my back where he spanks my ass. It’s a light spank though but it still makes me gasp.
“You said you would make love with me,” I say.
“I know. But I can’t deny the darkness in me and I’m not sure you want me to only be gentle with you.
I know how much you like pain mixed with pleasure.
” He spanks my backside a few more times before rolling me onto my side.
I can feel him get off the bed but I don’t turn to look.
The anticipation is too much. It’s slowly going to kill me unless he touches me soon.
I hear the sound of his underwear falling to the ground and then he lays down behind me. I gasp when he grabs my thigh and hikes it over his hip, exposing my lower body.
Dimitri’s entire body is pressed along the backside of mine.
“Are you ready for me?” he says into my ear.
“Yes,” I moan.
Dimitri grabs my hip before thrusting his hips forward and entering me. My body is still a little tight and it aches a bit as he moves his length deeper into me. But god does it feel good. It’s almost too much.
I roll my hips back to get closer to him. Dimitri doesn’t hold me at bay this time. Instead, he draws me in closer.
He thrusts roughly into me. Each one is precise with strength. I can only gasp and softly moan. He is a man that likes to dominate and he’s dominating me now, even if we’re moving at a slower, less frantic, less animalistic pace.
“Dimitri,” I moan, dropping my head back onto his shoulder. He presses kisses all along the side of my exposed neck.
“Is this what you wanted?” Thrust. I practically choke from the pleasure of it. “My cock buried deep inside of you?” Thrust. I scramble to grab onto his hand that’s still holding my hip steady. “Am I being gentle enough?”
I think it’s impossible for Dimitri to be gentle but that’s all right. I know I have fallen in love with the darkness inside of him. It speaks to me, even when it terrifies me still.
“Answer me,” he growls into my ear, moving deeper into me with each plunge of his erection.
“Yes. To all of it.”
I can feel him smile against my neck. “Good girl.”
Dimitri rocks his hips against mine, over and over and over again. Each thrust is powerful and slightly painful but also so pleasurable, I could cry.
I bring his hand from my hip over to my breast. He gives it a gentle squeeze and my arousal picks up even more.
He keeps ahold of my breast as he claims my body.
Never will I get tired of this. Feeling his entire naked body against mine is a powerful thing.
I think I may be falling in love with him.
I think I may already be in love with him.
“Fuck,” he growls. “I need more.” He slips out of me and rolls onto his back. “Ride me. Get on my cock.”
I gasp but don’t hesitate to sit on his lap. We both moan when I lower myself down onto his erection. I brace my hands on his chest to keep myself steady. The look Dimitri gives me as he gazes up into my eyes makes me breathless.
He grabs my hips and brings my body down harder onto his cock. My moan comes out choked from the pain of it. But the pleasure of it runs over all of me.
Dimitri is relentless with my body. He always has been and even now, when he is being a bit more gentle with me, he is still showing me no mercy. It’s just his way.
The sound of our bodies slapping together makes me blush. It’s amazing that I can still do that after everything he has done to me.
“Fuck, baby,” he groans, thrusting up into me harder and harder and harder. I can barely breathe. I can barely think. The only thing that encompasses my mind is Dimitri and only Dimitri.
In one quick motion, he sits up, bringing our chests together and our lips into a heated kiss. I moan against his mouth, unable to help myself.
Every move of our bodies rubs my breasts against his chest. I love feeling his naked body touching mine. It’s what I’ve needed ever since I first let him take my virginity.
“Come for me,” he growls, gripping my hips tightly. He helps me grind my body down onto his, which allows his cock to sink even deeper into me which I never thought possible. He has explored depths of me that I didn’t even know existed.
“Dimitri,” I moan as my eyes flutter closed.
“Look at me. Look me right in the eye as you come.”
My eyes snap back open and I force myself to look him in the eye. Not only is Dimitri’s touch cementing me to him, but his eyes as well. Just one look at him and I know I’ll be lost to him forever.
I’m already lost.
“Now, Sofiya,” he commands. “Now.”
The power he has over me is immense. It’s enough to make an orgasm wash over me just from his command alone.
I shudder and tremble. He is merciless with my body as he brings it down onto his cock, over and over and over. I feel like a wild woman as I ride out my orgasm while riding him.