Castle

Chapter 31

THIRTY-ONE

Aster Montgomery’s Journal - Part 2

29th September

I’m heartbroken. Completely shattered.

I tried to kill Lorna. I can’t imagine how low I would stoop. I was about to kill a human being out of jealousy.

What if my children find out the truth? They would think I’m a monster! But I’m not. Loving your husband is not a crime.

I wanted to get my revenge on them. Suddenly, I’d become this evil person who would do anything to make sure the two won’t be happy. I want to destroy them.

If I can’t have Chris, neither can Lorna.

1st October

I poisoned her coffee.

I shouldn’t have done that, but I did.

And Lorna survived. She didn’t drink the coffee and gave it to the other maid instead, who died.

They know I did it. They know I tried to kill her and she’s threatened to call the media because she knows the police department would brush this under the rug. She knows no one in town would dare touch a Montgomery. We are invincible. We have immense power.

4th October

I have to leave. I have to disappear before she takes the news to the media and destroys me.

Dad would understand. Castle and Theo would know the truth. They are wonderful children and I guess I will have to accept my losses.

Lorna will be a good mother to them. I know I said she was evil, but really…I think when I see her now and how much I’ve caused her pain, I think I’m the evil one. All this while, as I was plotting her demise, trying to poison her, she’s beencalm and looked hurt. She apologized to me and asked for mercy.

She says we could co-exist. She would never take Chris’s affections for herself and she wants to continue the arrangement the way that it was. Chris would continue to live in the mansion with me, and Devin and Dayana would still be my children, but Chris would also visit her occasionally.

She wants to share.

She wants to share the man I thought was only mine. I am beyond hurt. I’m dying inside.

I can’t take this anymore and so I am going to leave. I want my children to know that I love them with everything that I have. Castle and Theodore would grow up to be handsome, powerful men. They would live up to the Montgomery name. And as for Devin and Dayana, I wish them well, too. I want them to succeed.

It’s too bad I won’t be here to see it.

This will be my last journal entry.

I love you, Chris, and forgive me for all the pain that I have caused you.

I can’t do this anymore.

I turned pages, but there was nothing else written in the journal after that, which was a sign that she’d given up on Chris and left the family.

Not only her husband, but she’d abandoned her children too?

Was that the truth or was there something else that I wasn’t reading clearly into this?

Did she take her own life, or was Chris involved in her death?

My mind was overwhelmed by all the possibilities, keeping me awake at night.

I was obsessed with solving this. All I wanted was to understand what had happened in the family. If I were to uncover the secrets, I needed to dig deeper and find out everything.

“Millie…”

“Millie!”

Castle stared at me with eyes filled with desire. “I said…I want you to come and sit on my lap.”

“Okay.” I climbed into bed, smiling, “What are you going to…ouch! Heyyy…”

He grabbed my hips and pulled me into his lap like he couldn’t wait another minute to do what he’d planned.

He started kissing me with wild passion, his lips pressing against mine urgently, his tongue moving inside my mouth in urgent strokes. I turned molten every time his hands worked the magic on my body and his expert tongue continued to stroke. I moaned.

He buried his face into my hair and nibbled softly over my neck, his fingers working deftly over the strings of my dress. “Take this off.”

A few minutes later, we were both completely naked. His eyes watched me intently as he sank inside me and started moving. I held onto his powerful biceps as he continued to reward me with hard and fast thrusts.

“Yes…Oh god, Castle…” I whispered.

“You like this, Millie?”

I kissed him hard as an answer to his question.

When we were done, we were sweaty, and I felt like my soul had officially left my body, but that was usually what happened when we made love. He propped himself up on one arm, looking down at me with what seemed like obvious devotion.

I raised my hand to his face, staring adoringly at him. And maybe I was a little lovesick, too.

“What are you looking at?” I asked him, shyly.

“You’re so beautiful.” He said, his fingers grazing over my stomach.

I giggled, snuggling closer to him. He kissed me slowly this time like we had all the time in the world to be in each other’s arms. He nuzzled my neck. “What do you think about…having a baby?”

I smiled up at him. “I would love that.”

He curled and uncurled a loose lock of my hair. “Our kid would have everything in this world…I’ll make sure of it.”

I nodded, “I’m sure you’ll be a great dad.”

A few seconds passed between us, and then I asked him, “Do you remember anything about your mother?”

He shook his head. “I just know what they’ve told me. Theo says our mom left us about ten years ago. Apart from that…well…I don’t remember anything. When I look at her picture, I don’t remember her…which is cruel because who would want to forget the woman who gave birth to you?”

“I’m sorry. Do you remember anything at all? Even the smallest detail would matter.”

“Why…” His hands began shaking, his face contorted in pain. “Why are we talking about this?!” He demanded with calm fury, “I told you I don’t want to…god…my head’s hurting again. I’m having these flashes…it’s suffocating! I woke up the other day with…” He lost it.

He howled aloud in agony.

“Castle, calm down!” I told him softly, trying to touch him, but he slapped my hand away.

He was holding his head in pain, his eyes tight shut, living some kind of nightmare.

There were loud bangs on the door, and Winston’s voice drifted from there. “Is everything alright?”

“Please come in.”

I pulled on a robe and made sure Castle’s lower half body was covered before letting Winston come into the room. “Do you have some aspirin for the headache?” I asked him.

The maids standing at the door hurried, one was pouring water into a glass, another busy doing something else.

And then Castle stopped screaming. He looked at the empty doorway, his eyes red-rimmed. “I will ruin your lives! Mark my words!” He barked those words in an authoritative voice that I did not even recognize.

That was followed by deafening silence.

He stopped screaming and then looked around.

Everyone had stopped doing whatever they’d been doing. They were staring at Castle in horror. Even Winston’s eyes had popped out of its sockets, but he refused to say a word.

He wouldn’t even step closer.

And then something changed in Castle’s eyes, he was tear-soaked, “Why are you…” he sniffled, “why is everyone looking at me like that?!” He clenched his hair in his fists, “I’m tired…I’m going to bed.”

With a shaky hand, I ran my fingers soothingly through his hair. “I didn’t mean to cause you distress. Goodnight. We’ll talk tomorrow.”

He turned away from me and faced the other side of the bed, ignoring me.

Whatever had happened just now wasn’t normal.

And by the looks on everyone else’s faces, it looked like they’d just witnessed a dead man come to life.