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LYRA
Ballet isn’t art. It’s war disguised as grace.
“Again.”
Every muscle in my body is on the point of collapse, but Madame Kuzmina doesn’t care. She sits in her seat, dead center, four rows back from the stage, watching us like a hawk from the shadows beyond the lights, her fingers steepled under her chin.
Vaughn exhales sharply beside me, his jaw clenched. Brooklyn doesn’t bother holding back her groan. She collapses forward, hands on her knees, sucking in air like we’ve just run a marathon.
“We’ve done it four fucking times already,” she mutters under her breath.
Madame Kuzmina raises a single hand, glittering with rings, in a regal motion. She doesn’t need to raise her voice. Her stare alone is enough to suffocate.
“And now you will do it a fifth,” she says quietly in her Russian-tinged accent, “because the fourth was fucking garbage .”
Vaughn and I exchange a glance. His crystal blue eyes flicker with amusement, but I don’t return the smile. I'm too exhausted.
There’s no crying in baseball. And there sure as shit isn’t any smiling in ballet.
Brooklyn straightens with a sigh, smoothing a hand over her leotard. “Fifth time’s the charm?” she mutters.
We begin again, running through the pas de trois . My mind goes blank the way it always does when I dance—nothing but the music and the movement. Vaughn’s hands on my waist, firm but controlled, lifting me effortlessly. Brooklyn spinning into position beside us.
We run through the entire thing again before hitting our end position perfectly, Brooklyn and I on either side of Vaughn, and for the first time tonight, Madame Kuzmina doesn’t tell us to do it again.
Instead, she nods.
Once.
“That will do. For now.”
I hide the relief washing over me in a wave. Vaughn lets go of our hands with a dramatic groan, then flops onto his back at center stage, staring up at the ornate ceiling.
“Ballet is a fucking disease,” he announces to the air.
Brooklyn rolls her eyes and nudges his leg with her foot. “At least you get to wear flats.”
“Trust me, princess, you do not want to see me on pointe.”
Despite my exhaustion, I smile. Vaughn is chaos wrapped in infuriatingly incredible talent. When he's dancing, he moves with an effortless grace. Off stage he’s all sharp edges and wild energy, a stray dog that’s never been fully domesticated.
Madame Kuzmina rises to her feet, rearranging the silk draped over her arms. “We begin again at nine tomorrow. Arrive warmed up and ready to go.”
With that, she wraps her shawl around herself like Maleficent’s robes and melts up the darkened aisle of the Mercury Opera House, disappearing into the shadows. There’s a brief flicker of light as the door to the lobby opens and then closes again.
Naomi appears at the edge of the stage, twirling her water bottle in one hand and nodding in the direction Madame Kuzmina has gone. “Such a ray of fucking sunshine,” she deadpans.
Vaughn rolls onto his stomach. “And yet she loves me.”
Brooklyn snorts. “She tolerates you.”
Vaughn winks, pushing himself up. “Tolerates, loves, same difference.”
I shake my head and turn toward the wings, heading for the dressing room. My legs ache, and even my skin feels tired. I need a hot shower and about fourteen hours of sleep.
The dressing room is empty, since the rehearsal day was done long ago. But Madame decided to focus her keen eye on Brooklyn, Vaughn, and I and had us stay late, since we’re the ones performing the pas de trois in Swan Lake , which the Zakharova will be performing in a few months' time.
Naomi follows me in, already undoing her bun. She’s our Odette/Odile, aka, Swan Queen, for the upcoming performance. And her reason for staying late has nothing to do with Madame Kuzmina and everything to do with herself .
No matter how many times you tell Naomi she’s amazing, she refuses to listen. I swear, the girl drinks imposter syndrome smoothies for breakfast.
“Tell me you’re coming out with us this weekend,” she coaxes, leaning against her locker. “Or are you going to pretend you have an exciting social life when we both know you don’t?”
I smirk. “Tempting, but I need sleep more than overpriced cocktails.”
As if I could afford overpriced cocktails. Or reasonably priced ones. Actually, even happy hour pricing might be off the table given my current financial situation.
Naomi groans. “You’re such a grandma.”
Brooklyn drops onto the bench beside me. “I might actually be dead by the weekend,” she mutters. “Kuzmina is a fucking sadist.”
“I think the word you’re looking for is Russian. ” Naomi grins.
Vaughn appears in the doorway, shoving his fingers through his shaggy dark hair. “Personally, I like my women with a touch of organized crime.”
Brooklyn makes a face. “You would. And get out , dude. Guys' dressing room is down the hall, in case you’ve forgotten.”
“But I get so lonely all by myself.” He grins smugly before he peels off his t-shirt and slings it over his shoulder.
Vaughn has the sort of body that can only be described as “sinful”. The motherfucker has like zero percent body fat, is freaking ripped , and is covered in strategically placed tattoos. Coupled with his Mediterranean skin tone and vaguely Italian looks, it’s easy to see why his social calendar is perpetually filled—with dates with both sexes, I should add.
Vaughn strolls over to a locker and opens it before he turns to wink at Brooklyn. “You know I keep a second locker with my shit in here. And relax, it’s not like any of you are my type.”
He starts to take off his tights. Yeah, that’s my cue to turn around and avert my eyes. Sinful body or not, Vaughn's and my relationship—pretty much his relationship with any of the girls in the company—is more sibling-like than anything else.
Brooklyn snorts as she peels off her own tights and leotard and replaces them with underwear and yoga pants.
“I thought that your ‘type’ was ‘has a pulse and at least one willing hole’.”
“Pulses are overrated,” he grins.
“ Dude ,” Brooklyn makes sour face and shakes her head.
Vaughn laughs as he turns around, now at least wearing boxers. “Like you’d ever let me near you, baby girl.”
Brooklyn wrinkles her nose as she tosses on a hoodie. “Gross?”
Vaughn shrugs. “The feeling is mutual, and I say that with love. No, what I mean is, I don’t play hard to get. If someone doesn’t want me, I’m already gone. You want this…?”
The three of us collectively roll our eyes as he runs a finger down his ludicrously defined abs and cups his dick through his boxers.
“You have to show me you want it.”
“Yeah, hard pass, friendo ,” Brooklyn says dryly.
“Again, the feeling is entirely mutual, baby girl.”
I giggle, turning to haul my dance bag out of my locker. I wriggle out of my leotard and wrap a towel around myself getting ready to shower, then dig through the bag, fingers searching for my MetroCard. But all I find are a few loose quarters and a crumpled one-dollar bill.
Shit. Not enough for the subway home.
I press my lips together and force the knot of frustration down.
I reach for my water bottle, catching my reflection in the mirror hanging on the inside of the locker door. My brow furrows, my gaze lingering on the way my collarbones are more prominent than they were a few months ago.
“Here.”
I jolt, turning at the sound of Naomi’s voice. She doesn’t make a big deal out of it, but passes me a granola bar.
“I’m good.”
My friend cocks one brow. “I don’t want it,” she says evenly. “So—take it.” Her eyes stay on mine. “And eat it ,” she adds quietly.
I smile wryly as I peel open the wrapper, taking a small nibble. Naomi doesn’t know everything about my life, but she knows enough to see when things are…slipping.
Like me, Naomi is making it work by herself on her dancer's salary, somehow. The difference is, she’s got a safety net if she really needs it. You’d have to stick a gun to her head before she'd call her congressman father to ask for help. But the option is there.
For me, it's not. My safety net was gone long before the monster who was my father bled out in a prison cell.
Brooklyn and Vaughn are talking loudly about Kir Nikolayev, the very enigmatic Bratva kingpin who owns and bankrolls the Zakharova Ballet…specifically, how “fuckable” he is…when Naomi and I leave them and trudge to the showers.
The ache of the extra-long day melts just a little as the hot water pours down over me.
“Hey… You’re good, right?”
I turn to glance over at Naomi, who’s rinsing off at the next showerhead.
I know what she means.
“Yeah, I’m…fine.”
She pushes her long, dark hair out of her face and gives me a piercing look. “For real?”
I exhale. “Yeah, it’s just…” I shake my head. “I’m starting to wonder if school on top of this is too much.”
Between the credits I got for advanced classes in high school, and the college courses I took a few years ago, I’m about two-thirds of the way to a degree in human psychology. The lofty goal is that when ballet eventually ends—whenever that is—I’ll try my luck at the MCATs and med school, and try to become a clinical psychiatrist.
Hey, I did say “lofty”.
Naomi exhales as she turns to rinse off her back. “Yeah, pre-med does sound like a lot on top of this, even part time.” She glances at me, her brow still cocked. “Is that all?”
Goddammit, this girl always sees right through me.
“Vera’s been gambling again.”
She groans. “Are you fucking serious? I thought your mom was banned from every casino and racetrack in the state.”
“Yeah, well, she must’ve found someone who lets her place bets through them.”
“Shit.” Naomi frowns. “Look, I know you hate?—”
“We’ll be fine,” I smile as I turn the water off. “But thanks for the offer.”
She nods, not pushing it.
Vaughn and Brooklyn are already dressed and somehow still talking about Kir’s “big dick energy” when we get back from the showers. I pull on yoga pants and a hoodie before I remember the lack of means to get home tonight. I wince as I glance at Naomi.
“Hey, you wouldn’t have a spare MetroCard on you, would you?”
Naomi’s eyes flick toward my bag, where the pitiful collection of change still sits in the front pocket. She doesn’t comment on it, just reaches into her wallet and pulls out her MetroCard, pressing it into my palm.
“Just take it. I’ll grab a cab with Vaughn.”
“Are you sure?”
She snorts. “Yeah, because I love the subway at midnight.” She shoulders her dance bag and gives me a pointed look. “Text me when you get home, please.”
Vaughn stretches dramatically, slinging an arm around Naomi’s shoulders as he leads her toward the door. “My chariot awaits, milady.” He sticks a cigarette between his lips, making Naomi squint.
“You light that thing anywhere near me and I’m going to knee you in the balls.”
“Don’t threaten me with a good time, girl.”
The door swings shut behind them, leaving only silence.
Brooklyn is still sitting on the bench, one leg tucked under her, absentmindedly running a finger over the edge of her pointe shoe ribbon. The tension in her body from the exhausting rehearsal has shifted to something else.
She doesn’t look at me when she finally speaks.
“You ever think about how much this actually costs us?”
I frown as I throw my gingery-red hair into a messy bun. “What? Ballet?”
She exhales sharply, shaking her head. “Not just ballet. This life. The work, all the training, the barely-there paycheck.” She glances at me, one brow lifting. “We kill ourselves every day for what? The honor of being underpaid and having a career that's over before it's even begun?”
Brooklyn’s like me: making her dance dream work on her own. No safety net.
I don’t answer right away. Truth is, I have thought about it. Every single time I pull together enough cash for rent but not groceries. Every time I ache all over but know I’ll still be back at the barre the next morning.
Brooklyn clears her throat. “Look, I understand pride, Lyra. And I’m not going to insult you by asking if you want a loan or anything. But…” The corners of her lips curl as she reaches into her bag.
My jaw drops as she pulls out a gangster -sized wad of cash.
“If you do need money…”
I blink at the thick stack of crisp hundreds, folded neatly. More cash than I’ve seen in…ever.
“What the fuck, Brooklyn?”
She smirks. “Relax. I didn’t rob a bank.”
I tear my gaze away from the money, forcing my voice to stay level. “Then where…?”
She exhales slowly. “Remember that charity thing where we did that excerpt from Giselle last month?”
Occasionally, mostly because it always results in new benefactors with deep pockets, select members of the company will perform at things like the Policemen’s Ball or other charity events.
Brooklyn clears her throat. “Well, after we were done, this guy came up to me and said he had a dance gig I might be interested in. He said he couldn’t tell me much about it, but that it paid insanely well. And… I took it. That’s where this money came from.”
A strange prickle works its way down my spine.
Brooklyn must notice the change on my face, because she quickly shakes her head. “Look, it’s not stripping or anything. No one touches you—no one even speaks to you. And you’re wearing clothes. But it pays way better than this.” She gestures vaguely around us at the dressing room. “It’s also secret.”
The word makes something inside me tighten.
Secret is never good. Secret always comes at a price.
“What do you mean, secret ?”
Brooklyn twists the ends of her hoodie strings around her finger. “It’s like a private club or something. They pick you up at a location they decide, blindfold you, and drive you there.”
My jaw drops.
“Are you fucking serious? Brooklyn, that’s super sketch!”
She huffs a quiet laugh. “Yeah, I thought so too, at first.”
I narrow my eyes. “ At first ?”
She shrugs. “It wasn’t as bad as I thought. You change in a dressing room, where the blindfold comes off. There were six other girls—all dancers.”
“And then?”
Brooklyn exhales, her voice quieter now. “They give us fresh blindfolds, masks, and earbuds that play music synced with a voice directing us. Someone took us all out to a performance space, and—we danced.”
I don’t like how that makes my skin prickle.
“For how many people?”
She shakes her head. “No idea. I never saw them. Never heard them. But they were there, I could feel it.”
I swallow thickly.
What the fuck.
She holds up the wad of money, her brow cocking significantly. “Lyra, they pay five fucking grand for four hours .”
My stomach lurches.
Five. Thousand. Dollars.
That’s rent, food, security. That’s a way out from the hole my mother seems to be completely hellbent on in digging us into.
Brooklyn watches me carefully. “Listen… again, I get pride, Lyra. But I saw you counting coins…” She lifts her shoulders. “They said they might be looking for more dancers. So if you wanted…”
I shiver, feeling the invitation linger between us like a lit fuse. I swallow, eying the money in her hand.
“Look, for now…” She hands me two twenties. “Will you just take a cab home? Seriously, the subway is dangerous this late. Please? And if you’re interested in the job… Here's the number for my contact.” She finds an entry on her phone and texts it to me.
Pride wants me to refuse the money politely.
Common sense and the prospect of spending hours underground with my fingers wrapped around my keys wins out.
“Thanks,” I say quietly, taking the money. “Seriously, thank you. I’ll pay you back.”
The night air is crisp, biting at my skin as I pull my hoodie tighter around me.
“Wanna just share my Uber?” Brooklyn nods at the car waiting at the top of the alley behind the theater.
I exhale. “Maybe, actually.” I shoot her a wry smile. “I feel like you’re pampering me tonight.”
She giggles. “I mean, yeah . You’re my girl. C’mon.”
I start to follow her. When I slip my hand into my hoodie pocket, I groan.
“Shit.”
Brooklyn glances back. “What’s up?”
My face droops. “I left my phone in the dressing room.” I shake my head. “You know what? Go ahead. You already gave me money for a cab. I’ll just do that.”
She frowns. “Don’t be silly. I’ll wait for you.”
“Nah, go get your ride. It’s late. But thanks. And…for earlier.”
“Anytime, girl. See you tomorrow for more Russian gulag conditioning?”
“Wouldn’t miss it,” I groan.
I watch as she tugs her coat around herself, scampers up the alley, and slips into the waiting vehicle, red taillights disappearing into the night.
The door hisses shut behind me as I duck back into the warmth of the dim, silent ballet theater. My steps are quick as I make my way toward the dressing room.
It only takes a minute to find my phone and I stuff it into my hoodie pocket, shaking my head before slipping back outside.
This time, the door clicks shut behind me with finality.
The street is mostly empty now, the occasional honk of a distant car the only sound. The alley behind the Mercury splits halfway up to the street: continuing straight puts you onto Madison Avenue, which runs one-way north: perfect for Brooklyn, who lives up toward Harlem. But if I take the left-handed side-cut out of the alley, it’ll dump me on East 49 th Street, where it's easier to get a cab going downtown , to the apartment I, unfortunately, share with my mother in Hell's Kitchen.
I ignore the creepy sensation that being here at midnight always brings as I hustle up the alley. I’m just about to turn the corner and head out to East 49th when I hear voices.
Low. Rough. Male.
I freeze.
The words are hushed, but I can still hear them. A weird shiver ripples up my spine as I do.
“What are you doing here? Bianca got out of rehearsal hours ago.”
The first voice is rough-sounding, deep, and somewhat frightening, with a dangerous edge to it.
My stomach knots at Bianca’s name.
Bianca got out of rehearsal hours ago.
Bianca as in Bianca Barone—well, Bianca Drakos now that she’s married—who's in the Zakharova with me. She’s an incredible dancer, super sweet, and is the youngest daughter in the Barone Italian mafia family.
I suck in a breath, pressing my back against the brick wall, forcing myself deeper into the shadows.
“No shit. I’m not here for her,” a second man growls. “What are you doing here, you psycho?” His voice is deep and dark, too, but also edged in something savage and viciously alluring, like a blade dragging down my spine or a dark promise whispered in my ear.
The first guy exhales sharply, irritated. “It was stupid and reckless for Matteo to hire her.”
My pulse hammers.
Her who?
“She dances here ,” the first guy growls. “She’s friends with people like your sister. She could talk?—”
“She was blindfolded, you dumb fuck,” the second man snaps. “And just what was your plan, exactly?”
The first man huffs out a breath. “I was just going to scare her a little,” he rumbles. “Remind her that the money she was paid ensures silence.”
Something inside me goes cold as things fall into place. I’m pretty sure they’re talking about Brooklyn.
The second man’s voice sharpens. “Stay the fuck away from where my sister dances, understand?”
There’s a tense, prolonged pause.
“Fine.” A slow exhale, like a forced truce.
“Is that a yes fine, or an I’m blowing smoke up your ass fine.”
“It’s a yes fine, calm down,” the first guy grunts. “Anyway, in unrelated news, Mushkin hasn’t responded to our summons.”
The second guy—the one with authority in his voice, the one who's driving the conversation—lets out a dark chuckle. “People rarely actually respond to a Black Court summons.”
I shrink further against the wall.
“They respond in behavior, at least,” the first guy mutters. “Mushkin hasn’t hired more security, fled, moved money. None of it. His schedule is still clear for the night of the trial, though.”
“You know how it is,” the second guy says, his voice smoother now. “Sometimes they’re so confident that they show up willingly.”
The first guy laughs, low and dark. “And if not…” He pauses, amusement dripping from his voice. “Then we get the fun of hunting them down before we even get to the chase.”
A slow shiver slides down my spine.
“Reach out to The Wolf and The Stag,” the second man orders. “Let them know the status on Mushkin. The Black Court will meet as planned.”
The Wolf? The Stag?
The Black Court ?
Nothing about this conversation makes sense.
The sound of footsteps grows louder. They’re splitting up. I panic, pressing myself deeper into the shadows, willing my body to melt into the cold brick.
Then I flinch, freezing in place as a figure rounds the corner and suddenly looms over me.
Tall. Menacing. Powerful.
Suddenly, I’m looking straight into the cold, piercing blue eyes of Carmine Barone.
My stomach drops.
I’ve seen him before—either dropping off or picking up Bianca, or sometimes at performances or some of those charity events. But this is different.
Up close, he’s even more intense than he is at a distance. This near, he radiates raw power—and something darker, coiled beneath the surface, waiting to strike like a lethal, venomous snake. He’s wearing a dark suit and an open pea-coat, molded to his broad shoulders and powerful arms like a suit of armor.
It’s like black lightning striking from the shadows. Before I can even blink, his hand is suddenly on my throat, his fingers wrapping around it and settling against my jugular. It’s not a choke—just a warning. A display of his strength. His power.
His control.
My breath catches.
“I—I didn’t hear anything,” I whisper, the words tumbling out too fast, too desperate.
His grip tightens slightly but he says nothing for a moment, those cold blue eyes piercing into me like knives, as if he’s flaying open my very soul to peer inside and feast on what he finds.
His thumb traces over my pulse. “No one asked you about anything you may or may not have heard.”
A tremor ripples through my body, my eyes widening even further.
“Who are you?” he finally murmurs darkly, his voice low, focused, and almost sensual in the way it teases over my skin.
My heart thunders in my chest and my throat works against his hand.
“N-nobody,” I whisper again. “I’m nobody.”
Carmine’s lips curl, something between a smirk and a snarl.
“Nobody…” he muses.
His grip lingers, his fingers still firm around my throat, pressing just enough that I can feel the subtle pressure against my pulse. A test. A game.
A reminder that he could crush me if he wanted to.
His thumb moves slightly, stroking the base of my throat like he’s considering something. My skin burns where he touches me, body locked in place, muscles coiled tight. I don’t flinch. I don’t dare.
His head tilts, studying me like I’m something strange and unexpected.
“What did you hear?” His voice is a low rasp.
I shake my head as much as his grip allows. “Nothing,” I breathe.
Carmine hums, unconvinced. “Nothing?”
I gulp. “I-I was just leaving the theater. I didn’t—I wasn’t paying attention.”
His grip tightens for a second, just enough to make my pulse spike against his hand before he eases up again. “Funny,” he murmurs. “People who’ve heard nothing don’t usually look this scared.”
I open my mouth, then close it again, forcing my breathing to stay even. He’s testing me, waiting to see if I’ll break.
I can’t do that.
Men like him eat weakness for breakfast.
My fingers clench into fists at my sides. “You… You startled me, is all.”
“If this is startled , I’d love to see what it looks like when you’re truly scared.”
He says it like a desire. Like he’s already thinking about getting off to the idea of my fear.
Carmine watches me for a beat longer. Then, finally, he lets go. I suck in a breath, my skin prickling where his hand was on my throat, the ghost of his touch lingering like a brand.
He takes a slow step back, his sharp blue gaze never leaving mine.
“Well, Miss Nobody who heard nothing,” he murmurs, his lips curling into an amused and cruel almost-smile. “Let’s hope it stays that way.”
And then, just as quickly as he appeared, he’s gone, and the alley is silent once more.
The air feels heavy, charged, like the ghost of him is still standing there, watching me.
I don’t move. I don’t breathe.
Then my legs finally unlock and I’m able to stumble forward, pulse still hammering, his words pressing heavily on my spine and dragging over my skin like hot knives.