Ethan's Sky (King's Of Fury MC Book 1)

29. Skyler

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Santiago wasn’t lying. He’s an amazing cook. We ate dinner and continued to talk about miscellaneous shit until I started to grow tired. He cleared the table and washed the dishes, even though I offered several times to clean since he cooked. He shewed me away telling me to go take my shower and get some rest. I didn’t argue.

Deciding he was right, I grab my tank top, sleep shorts, and a pair of panties and head for the bathroom, turning on the faucet allowing it to heat when an idea strikes.

“I know what would help me sleep.”

Opening the cabinet under the sink, I look around and find exactly what I’m looking for.

My old Kaboodles box.

Grabbing out the bright pink, extra-large box I set it on the counter. It looks like my daddy’s tackle box only it’s pink with glittery stickers all over the outside. Snapping open the latch, I push the top open. It has four collapsible shelves all full of nail polish bottles, ChapSticks, and hair ties. The bottom space is full of pads and has a half full box of tampons. But what I’m looking for is under the sanitary products. I hid it here because I knew Daddy wouldn’t touch my sanitary products, even to move them out of the way.

I lift the box out and find what I’m looking for.

My purple bullet vibrator. Emily gave it to me as a joke when Ethan left for his MMA camp. I never even opened the box. Until now.

I dig around until I find the package of lithium batteries buried beneath all the pads.

SCORE!

Opening the package, I put the batteries in it, testing the buttons to see it works. I make quick work of stripping out of my clothes.

The hot water feels amazing on my stiff muscles. I stand under the stream of hot water for several minutes enjoying the feel of it as my body begins to loosen up. I put the vibrator on the shelf. Grabbing the strawberry bodywash, pouring some on my hands I begin washing my body.

Closing my eyes, my mind drifts back to our conversations today.

“You’re mine. You’ve always been mine, and it’s time you accepted it.”

He’s right. I’ve always been his. But the way he’s acted, the hurtful things he’s said, make it hard to believe he truly wants me to be his.

I know he had his reasons, but how do I trust him?

“That’s where you’re wrong. I don’t hate you, Sunshine. I’ve never really hated you. I hated what you did. What happened. But not you.”

How do I know he means what he says? He meant what he was saying when he called me all those hateful things. I saw it in his eyes. The anger. The hurt. The abhorrence. He couldn’t fake those things.

What if he’s only feeling this way because he knows about the baby? He could be saying he wants me for now, until the guilt and grief subside. Then where would that leave me?

“I’m supposed to be the one you go to for all those things, Sunshine. But it’s okay. I’m here now, and we’re going to fix this shit between us. Then you’ll see you can trust me to be those things for you again.”

There is nothing I want more in this world than to belong to Ethan. To have him back in my life. Have the future we planned together. But he’s right. I’m terrified he’s going to have a change of heart, or something is going to happen to change the way he feels. Ethan is the only person in this world with the power to destroy me.

“Stop over thinking this, Sunshine. You want this as much as I do, you’re just scared.”

Am I?

“Your head will catch up to your body soon enough. You need to let that shit go and feel me. Feel us. You’ll remember how good we were together, like at the Pearl. It’s inevitable, baby.”

He knows I’m Scarlet.

He didn’t react the way I thought he would when he figured it out either. I expected him to be angry. To cuss and scream at me for tricking him. But he didn’t do any of those things. He almost seemed happy to find out it was me.

When I told him it was a mistake, I only did it because I wanted to fuck him out of my system, he laughed.

Well, too bad for you, it didn’t work!

Even my inner voice agrees with him. Asshole.

“We both know how this will end. With you naked, pinned underneath me writhing in pleasure and screaming my name.”

My head may not be on board with everything Ethan’s said today, but my body sure as hell is.

Squirting a little more bodywash on my hand, I rub it over my breasts, remembering the feel of his hands on my skin.

I hear the song from the Pearl playlist playing in my head, and shift my legs, guiding my fingers along the seam of my pussy and begin to slide them through my wet folds, shoving two fingers inside pumping them slowly.

Picking up the vibrator, I switch it on, using my other hand to run it slowly over my clit.

Fuck that feels good.

Not as good as Ethan.

I imagine Ethan’s hands as they slide my hips up then down, slowly on his cock. His lips on my skin, kissing my neck, my breasts, my lips. Our groans harmonizing as we move in sync with one another.

My fingers caress my chest, my stomach, my lips. Following the path his hands took. I remember the feel of his fingertips roaming my skin, digging, and gripping down my back, over my ass, grinding me down on his length even harder. The friction of our bodies hitting my clit just right, sending ripples of pleasure through me.

My walls grip my fingers as wave after wave crashes over me.

I wash myself one last time, lost in thought until it turns cold, then get out and get ready for bed.

Lying in my bedroom alone, I feel the weight of it all. My mind, my heart, my emotions are all at war.

My emotions are all over the place. Trying to process everything that’s happened over the last few hours. Wishing I could make sense of it all.

The Devil’s Order being back in town and what their presence and attempt at will mean for the club. I have no doubt Gabe will declare war on them. If Mack and Jake don’t beat him to it since Jayde was nearly taken because she was in the same place as me. I hate to even think what could’ve happened had the Devil scum managed to get his hands on us.

I’d never forgive myself if anything happened to Jayde.

Neither would the club.

I can’t lose anyone else at the hands of the Devils.

I know they’re at the clubhouse, in the sanctuary, probably discussing their plans for revenge on the D.O. They’ll be planning their next steps. How to go about keeping the women and children safe while they go to war with their long-standing rivals.

I should make a plan of my own. Afterall, I brought this war to the Kings’ front door. Maybe I can lure the bastard out by giving him exactly what he wants. A trade. I’ll find out what Daddy was doing with the Devil’s Order. Why they killed him. And once I have everything I need to know, I’ll kill the motherfucker myself.

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