CHAPTER 28
ADDY
“Get ready for bed. I’ll just run to my room to change and be right back,” Adam told me as we walked into my room together later that night. We’d all had a fun evening and for the first time in days I was smiling and feeling light and freer.
“Wait,” I said as he moved to turn back to the bedroom door.
“What’s wrong. You need to come with me?” Adam asked. He’d already come back towards me, close enough that he was able to hold my hand in his.
I knew why he’d asked that. Until everything that had gone on with Jenny that morning I needed him, Jord, or Kane with in touching distance at every second of the day. Even using the bathroom had been a rushed exercise so I could get right back to whoever I had asked to wait right outside the door for me.
“No. It’s not that. I just…maybe we don’t need pajamas?” I suggested shyly.
“We don’t?”
“Well, not if you don’t want to, and I don’t want to.” I was already slapping my head internally. That sounded ridiculous, I was sure of it. Definitely not the seductive words I was searching for.
“I’m gonna need you to be more direct for me, honey. Tell me what you want,” Adam said as he came closer and grabbed my left hip, pulling me close until our bodies were touching.
“You,” I whispered as I reached up and kissed his jaw softly. “All of you.”
Adam’s lips crashed down over mine and one of his hands gripped the back of my neck as he angled my head and kissed me passionately. I returned the kiss just as desperately and instantly we were a clashing of teeth, tongues, and lips. I reached my hands up to his huge shoulders and explored the tightly packed muscle there as he held me so my lips stayed on his.
“Tell me now if you need me to stop,” he gasped as he came up for air.
“God No! Don’t stop, Adam.”
He kissed me again, hard and fast until I barely knew which way was up, then he grabbed my hips and lifted me up. Leaning down over my bed on one knee he lay me in the center of it like he was setting down something fragile. The way he looked at me, the passion, mixed with his gentle concern, swirling in those dark eyes, it made me smile.
“You’re so beautiful when you smile like that. We need more of that,” he told me as he stood at the foot of the bed and watched me, a gentle smile spreading on his face too.
“Well, I was hoping you were about to do that - make me smile more, I mean.”
“Damned right I am,” he growled, then he crawled onto the bed over me, caging me in as his arms rested either side of my head and his huge body hovered over mine. For a second panic took a slight grip on me, the power of him above me setting off a warning in my head, but when I glanced up and saw his eyes watching me so closely, with so much concern, that fear was gone as fast as it came. This was Adam. He would never hurt me, no matter how much bigger than me he was. I was safe with him, and I knew there was nothing he wouldn’t do to keep me that way.
“Still with me, baby girl?” he asked softly.
“No where else I want to be,” I returned with a grin. Heat was buzzing through my whole body and rushing to my center. I wanted this with him. I needed it.
He leaned down and kissed me again, this time the kiss slower and more languid, like he wanted to take his time. His hand caressed a path down between my breasts and then slid up my shirt and over my stomach.
“Can I take this off?” he asked as he lifted the hem of my shirt.
“Please.”
Adam worked to undo the buttons on the cotton shirt I’d pulled on that afternoon, and slid it off of my shoulders, my bra going right after it. I didn’t even flinch, or worry about my scars. Adam had seen them already and I knew they didn’t bother him, so I wasn’t going to allow my insecurities to take this moment from me.
“You’re utter perfection, Addy. I could spend hours just looking at you like this,” he sighed as he sat back on his heels and just looked at my naked top half.
“Well, please don’t. I was hoping for a little more action,” I told him with a laugh, and he smiled too.
“Okay, not now, but one day,” he compromised. “I’d love to have you spread out on my desk naked one day, while I’m working. Wouldn’t get much damned work done, but I’d have a hell of a time making you come over and over again.”
“Adam!” I cried, but the idea was completely turning me on and I could feel the dampness building in my panties.
“I think you like that idea, don’t you?”
“I prefer the idea of you making me come right now.” I told him, very brazenly for me. I instantly blushed when he looked to me with surprise and delight in equal measure.
“So assertive. I like it. I knew you had it in you,” he grinned as he started to unfasten my jeans, then slowly slid them, along with my panties, down my legs.
“I…I thought you liked to be in control?” I questioned.
“Oh I do, and I will be most of the time if you allow me to be, but I also like this demanding side of you too. So sexy. I want to see more of that too.” I didn’t even have time to respond as he pulled my pants and panties clean off of me, tossing them to the floor, then he was over me again. His lips crashed down over mine and kissed me hard and fast, then he was drifting down my neck with those teasing kisses. He continued down my chest, between my breasts and down to my stomach. His hands stroked back up and cupped my breasts and he teased my nipples with his fingers as he continued to place gentle kisses on my stomach.
It took my fried brain a few moments to realize he was kissing each and every one of the marks and scars there. My eyes watered with the threat of tears as my emotions clogged my throat. It was such a gentle, loving gesture, and it meant so much to me, allowing me to replace the terrible memories of how the scars got there, with this perfect moment with a man I loved.
“Still okay, baby girl?” Adam asked. He stopped kissing me and looked up, his eyes meeting mine.
“I’m good. I just…you kissing my scars…it feels good, in here.” I pressed a hand to my chest, over my heart.
“I love every single thing about you, Addy, including these scars. When you look at them now I want you to remember this, not what happened to make them exist, okay?”
“Yeah,” I nodded as I swiped at my eyes. “Me too.”
“You say stop at any point, and I stop. Tell me you know that.”
“I do. I trust you Adam,” I assured him. “But…” I added with a more playful smile. “…I think you’re wearing way too many clothes right now.”
“You’re right. Let me fix that,” he replied with a wink that set my heart fluttering even faster.
I watched him like a thirsty housewife at the Magic Mike show as he peeled off the t-shirt he wore. Next came his jeans, then his boxers, the whole time his eyes locked on mine and that sexy, playful smile remained on his face. He was a work of art, and I had the ridiculous thought he should never wear clothes. His body was way too perfect to be covered with such unworthy garments. Only the idea of other women getting to ogle what was mine had me changing my mind.
“You’re smiling now, baby,” he teased as he knelt on the bed and placed his body over mine again, caging me in, but this time we were both naked, and I was so ready and needy for whatever he wanted to give.
“Who wouldn’t be smiling right now?” I asked happily.
I moaned in delight as he dropped lower and turned his attention to my breasts without warning, clamping my right nipple in his mouth and nipping it slightly with his teeth. He alternated between them, the combination of pleasure and that little hint of pain making me cry out in pleasure, but also with my need for more. My core was throbbing for his touch.
“You taste so sweet,” he uttered as he sat back and looked to me with way too much calm. He was straddling my thighs and I could feel the weight of his unmistakable hardness between us.
“Adam! I…I need more, please!” I cried. I was desperate and wild, unable to control the way my body moved beneath him, desperate for his touch and so much more.
“Easy, baby girl. I’m gonna make it better now,” he soothed. He kissed me chastely a few times as he fumbled to grab his jeans which he’d thrown onto the edge of the bed. I thought about telling him I’d put condoms in the nightstand, but he already had one from his pocket in his hand.
“You’re sure about this, Addy? We can stop if…”
“Don’t you dare! I’m sure. Please don’t make me beg anymore, Adam. I need you right now. Please!” I moaned, so desperate I thought I may cry if he tried to stop again.
He looked to me assessingly for a moment and I knew he was worried, especially after my very recent meltdown, but he must have seen what he needed to see.
He made short work of getting on the condom, then he leaned in closer to me, checking in with me once more, his eyes assessing every inch of my face for worry or panic, but I knew he’d find none there.
I had been terrified I’d never have sex again when this thing with my three guys began. I had been so sure having sex would plummet me right back to the horror of the past and all the monsters who had hurt me. But I had been wrong. What I had with Jordan, Kane, and Adam was so far removed from the horror and pain filled experience I endured while I was a captive, and what I did with the three of them had never once reminded me of what had happened to me. Having sex with the men I loved made me feel safe, and loved. It was filled with gentleness, pleasure, and the deep connections I shared with each of them. It was making love and it made me feel more like the me I wanted to be than anything else ever could.
I ran my hand down his body, appreciating the beauty of his perfectly sculpted abs, pecs, and huge muscular arms. He had the power to break me if he wanted to, but in that moment I knew that was something I would never ever fear from him.
As I slid my hand down his side, I could feel the scars there – the burn scars from his fight to save his parents from their burning car. He’d been lucky to escape the explosion that it ultimately ended in. He could have been taken from me before I even got to know him, and that terrified me. Losing any of them terrified me. Kane, Adam, Jordan. I needed them more than anything at that terrifying time in my life. My brothers too. They were everything to me, and losing any of them would push me into an abyss I knew there would be no coming back from.
“Eyes on me at all times, baby. Don’t look away, okay?” Adam said, making me realize I had closed them, lost too deeply in my head.
I nodded, which seemed to appease him as he began to kiss and nibble his way down my torso again. It felt both amazing and torturous, my own desperation for more, now feeling like I was at combustion level. I was about to open my mouth and beg him for more, but I paused when his touch moved lower – to exactly where I so badly needed it, brushing over my core, and then delving deeper to my clit with a teasing, light touch.
“More!” I panted. “Please Ad!”
“Sshh now. Just feel,” he whispered as the pressure on my clit increased. He pushed two fingers of his other hand inside me and started to thrust with just the pressure I needed, the entire time our eyes were locked on each other, me trapped in the lust I saw in his gaze, and him checking in constantly that I wasn’t freaking out on him.
“Yes!” I gasped. I became lost to pleasure as he skillfully brought me to the brink. I was so close, about to crash down over that edge that I had been chasing since his first touch of my naked chest.
“Adam, wait,!” I panted. “I want to feel you inside me when I come.” I was out of breath and fuzzy with need as I teetered on the edge of my orgasm, but I wanted this with Adam. I wanted him to be as close to me as he could be when we lost ourselves to pleasure.
“You’re killing me, Addy,” he told me huskily, but there was a hint of a smile on his face as he pulled back enough to lift his weight onto his arms. His eyes locked with mine as he lined himself up and then he pushed in. I could see the restraint it was taking for him to take it slow, but I appreciated it, since he was definitely the biggest of my guys in more ways than one. The stretch inside of me was a little uncomfortable as he slid into me gently, but as soon as he was in place, the discomfort eased and I looked up at him with a nervous smile.
“Okay?” he asked.
“I need you t-to move,” I pleaded.
He seemed to watch me for a moment, indecision in his eyes, but then, finally, he did. He remained cautious, still keeping each thrust slow and steady, and looking at my face continuously to ensure I wasn’t in pain. But as he started to move in a slightly faster rhythm, pain was the last thing I was thinking of. The pleasure within me was already building quickly, getting me closer and closer to that high I had found myself chasing constantly since Jordan and I had sex for the first time at the cabin.
I wrapped my legs tight around his waist, locking my feet, hoping it would pull him deeper inside of me and it did. I cried out in pleasure as he hit that perfect spot. As my orgasm built fast and powerful within me, I clung even tighter to him, my hands gripping his huge shoulders, as I moaned in pleasure and uttered his name over and over again.
“I want you to come with me. Are you close, baby?” he asked in a tight, sexy voice that only drove me higher.
“Y-yes!” I cried as I clung to him even tighter and buried my face against his shoulder. I felt his whole body tighten beneath me and knew he was there too, so I let myself go, pleasure crashing over me like a tidal wave. I gripped Adam, lost to everything but him and the pleasure that was coursing through me.
I was still off floating somewhere in the clouds, but I forced my eyes open and found Adam watching me with a sexy lift of one side of his mouth, that looked cute on him.
“Still okay?” he panted.
“Better than okay,” I assured him with a goofy smile I couldn’t have stopped if I tried. “You?”
“Amazing,” he grinned. “I really do think you were made just for me, baby girl,” he told me.
“I think Jord and Kane may slightly disagree with you there,” I giggled.
“For us then. You were made for us. You’re so beautiful and sexy. I love you so much.”
“I love you too. And you’re pretty sexy yourself,” I told him. He leaned in and planted a loud ‘smack’ of a kiss in the center of my forehead, then he carefully pulled out of me and got to his feet.
“Stay there. I’ll just get rid of the condom,” he explained as he strode off, giving me a perfect view of his spectacularly tightly muscled ass.
He returned to my bed quickly and I found myself laid on top of him, his arms banded around me and holding me protectively, the comforter keeping us both warm.
“How are you feeling?” Adam asked after several moments of peaceful silence between us.
“Really good right now,” I told him easily.
“And when this sex high wears off soon?” he pushed.
“I’m doing better, Ad,” I told him as I rested my head on my clasped hands and looked up into his eyes. “I mean, nothing is magically fixed and I know I have a long way to go, but today has been easier than the couple of days before it. Maybe tomorrow I’ll wake up and be a mess again, but I hope not. I have my sessions with Laura every day and the pills. Hopefully, it will all help me to find the quiet up here that I need to find my next steps forward,” I explained as I tapped my head.
“You’ve got all of us too, baby. You don’t have to face anything alone ever again. Kane, Jord, and I love you more than we can ever tell you, and your brothers would do anything to care for and protect you. Whatever you decide those next steps forwards are, you won’t be taking them alone.”
“I just wish I could be more whole for you all. I hate how weak all of this has made me. I’m a mess,” I sighed tiredly.
“Addy, people can fall apart after one scary event in their life. Being mugged, or their home broken into. Something as simple as that can have people scared to leave their homes, and seeking therapy and drugs. Those people faced true fear once and it rocked their whole lives. You faced true terror for two whole years and a ton of times since too. You didn’t just have your life rocked, you had it ripped from underneath you and torn to shreds, but you survived. You worked to get over all of the flashbacks and nightmares. You tried to overcome what had happened to you and the terror it caused, and you still are. Do you realize the strength you have to have inside to do that, or even just to want to? You’re a super hero, honey, and I won’t accept anything less,” he said firmly.
“The way you all believe in me, makes me feel stronger,” I told him as I lifted up and pressed my lips over his, but I pulled away quickly when a loud bang shook the windows of my room slightly. “What was that?” I asked as I looked to Adam with fear.
“I don’t know. Stay here,” he told me as he rolled from under me and got to his feet in one fast movement. He went to the window and pulled up the blind so he could look out into the darkness, just as another bang shook the windows again.
“Fuck!” he roared as he reared back from the window and ducked slightly.
“What is it?” I cried.
“Someone’s throwing petrol bombs at the house from the gate. Well, four someone’s,” he clarified, but I wished he hadn’t.
“The others!” I cried, but Adam had already raced around the bed and had his cell in hand. He pressed a few buttons and a blaring alarm rang out through the house.
“If they’re not awake already, they will be now. Kane will be alerted and the security team too,” he told me as he started to pull on his jeans without even bothering with underwear. I just sat on the bed shaking and staring at him.
“They came for me, didn’t they?” I asked shakily.
“Doesn’t matter. They’re not getting to you. Get dressed for me, Addy,” he told me as he pulled his shirt over his head.
“Yeah,” I nodded as I forced myself to move. I didn’t want to be killed while I was stark naked. Better to be dressed.
“Addy?!” My bedroom door was thrown open and I didn’t even try to cover myself as I froze in terror. Jordan burst in, dressed in shorts and a t-shirt, his sneakers on his feet.
“Jordan?” I squeaked as I took him in. He raced over to me and wrapped me tightly in his arms.
“Help her get some clothes and shoes on, bro. I need to grab my shoes and a gun.” Adam stopped to kiss my head before he left, but he didn’t say anything more.
“G-gun?”
“Just to be safe, princess. We only have two security guys and Kane out there right now. Asher can shoot a gun too, but better to be over prepared, right?”
“I can’t h-have them get hurt again,” I whimpered.
“Hey!” Jordan lifted my chin until my eyes met his. “No one is getting hurt. Let’s get you dressed, okay? Then we need to get downstairs to the basement level.”
“Jenny a-and Eli?”
“Kane already brought Jenny into the house and put her down stairs in the gym. Eli is with her. Ash and Kane are scoping out the property to see if anyone got over the fence yet.”
“Yet? Why d-does this keep happening? It’s all my fault!”
“Addy, listen to me. We don’t have time right now. We just have to focus on getting dressed, okay? I have to get you out of here and where it’s safe,” Jordan said firmly and it gave me the shake I needed.
“Yeah,” I agreed as I swiped at my tears. “Get dressed.” I walked over to my closet where I hurriedly pulled on some panties and grabbed some leggings and a sweater. Jordan was right behind me, grabbing me a pair of chucks and some socks.
“Let’s go,” I said as I walked out of my closet pulling on the sweater over my leggings. I moved to grab the sneakers from Jord, planning to put them on downstairs, when the sound of glass breaking right behind me, startled me.
I went to turn to look what had happened when Jordan threw himself at me and dropped us both to the ground. I screamed in fright and fought to breathe as I lay with his weight pressing me down. Was he hurt? Why wasn’t he moving?
“Jordan?” I cried.
“Sshh. Stay down. That was a bullet. They’re trying to draw you out so they can take you out,” he told me as he adjusted his body so he was covering me, but I could see his face above me. “Just try and breathe for me, babe.”
“Where did the bullet go. Did it hit you?” I panicked.
“No. We’re lucky the guy is a crappy shot. It went wide and landed in the wall beside us,” he explained.
“Jordan?” I heard Kane yell up the stairs and I allowed myself another breath of relief that he was close and still alive.
“Kane! Someone just tried to take Addy out. They shot through the window!” Jordan yelled.
“Stay where you are I’m coming up!” Kane yelled, then he was in the hallway, looking in the doorway to us. “Are either of you hurt?” he demanded.
“No, we’re good. Guy’s a shit shot, but we need to get Addy out of here,” Jordan answered as I just lay there fighting to breathe and not lose it completely.
Kane looked around the corner of the door with one quick and fast glance, and instantly another bullet was fired, this one hitting something glass above us, the tiny pink fragments, and some liquid raining down over the floor near us. I cried out and covered my head, pressing tighter into Jordan.
“It’s okay, angel. They can’t get to you there,” Kane told me more calmly.
“What the fuck’s going on?” Jordan hissed.
“The explosions out front were to make us all move around. They must have a sniper out there waiting to take Addy out. I called local PD and our security are chasing down the guys who were at the gates.”
“A sniper,” I squeaked. “This is insane. How is this my life?”
“Addy, I need you to focus. I need you to come to me, okay? You have to stay down flat, just like you are now. I want you to slide over to me. There’s no windows he can see out here and we can get you downstairs.”
“I can’t,” I gasped. I was shaking so hard and frozen with fear all at once.
“You can, princess. You can do anything. All you have to do is move a few feet to Kane, and then you’ll be safe,” Jordan told me confidently.
“What about you?” I whimpered.
“I’m gonna be right behind you.”
“O-okay,” I agreed reluctantly. Jordan lifted himself just enough for me to slide out from beneath him, and I slid across the floor and over the smashed glass, and what I knew now to be perfume, judging by the flowery scent. Once I got within arm’s reach of Kane, who had dropped to his knees right outside the door, he grabbed my hand firmly and pulled me right out of the room and into his arms.
“Fuck, angel. We really need to end this shit. I can’t keep almost losing you,” he growled as he held me tightly against him.
I turned as I heard glass scraping behind me, and moved quickly so Jordan could get out of the room too. As soon as he was on his feet, he pressed himself against my back, and Kane was at my front, the both of them just holding me between them.
“We need to get her down to the basement, then I’m going to hunt this fucker down,” Kane said as he stepped back and pulled his gun from the small of his back, releasing the cartridge, looking it over and sliding it back in again.
“No! I don’t want you going out there, especially not alone!” I told him.
“Like I just said, we have to end this, Addy. Catching one of these guys and finding out who is sending them is the only card we have right now.” Kane explained, and I hated that he sounded right. I didn’t want him risking his life for me.
“We need to move. I don’t like her out in the open like this. That damned bullet was too fucking close,” Jordan rumbled as he pulled me tighter against his body and headed for the stairs. Kane went down first, moving slowly and pointing his gun out in front of him, Jordan and I right behind him, Jordan all but carrying me down the stairs as I continued to stumble,
We crossed the living room, and luckily the heavy curtains were pulled closed so no one could see us pass through it. When we got to the door down to the lower level, Kane stopped and stepped back.
“Keep her and the others in the gym until Ash or I give the all clear,” Kane said as he nodded to the door.
“Kane. Please don’t go out there,” I whimpered.
“This is my job, Addy, and I’m damned good at it. I will come back to you,” he promised as he leaned in and kissed me fast and briefly. “Keep her safe, brother,” he told Jordan, then he was gone, racing back to the front of the house and right out of the front door, knowing his arrogant ass! I was mad at him for going out there and putting himself in danger. Didn’t he realize what he meant to me?
“Come on. He’ll be fine, Addy. He isn’t bragging when he said he’s good at what he does. I’ve heard some stories from Ash about the two of them overseas that make James Bond look like a loser,” he told me with a smile, but I couldn’t return it.
When we reached the gym, Jenny and Eli were inside, Eli sat on a weight bench and Jenny laid out on the floor like a starfish.
“Addy! Christ! Are you alright, shortcake?” Eli gasped as he locked eyes with me, then got to his feet and hurried over. He wrapped me in a warm hug and I pressed against him and held on tight.
“Not really,” I admitted as I shook in his arms.
“Kane thinks there’s a sniper out there. Someone shot at Addy through her bedroom window,” Jorden went on.
“Fuck!” Eli cursed as he held me even tighter. “This has to stop. We can’t go on like this. The FBI should have had this all wrapped up by now, God damn it!”
“I’m okay,” I whispered as I pulled away from his hold and looked to Jenny who had sat up and was studying me.
“Never a dull day around here, huh?” she laughed.
“You could say that,” I agreed, then I flopped down to the floor beside her, exhausted. “Where are Adam and Asher?” I asked.
“They went out front to take care of the guys throwing the bombs,” Eli told me, and I didn’t miss the way he glanced with worry to the door. He was freaking out too, but he was trying not to show it.
“Are you okay, Jenny?” I asked as I fought not to let myself fall apart again, but the fight not to was a battle. I was so done with all of this mess and danger and risk to men I loved. I wanted it over. I wanted dull days from then on. I wanted days with the people I loved, and no surprises trying to tear us apart. Repetitive days of work, dinners, and evenings spent cuddling with my guys, or laughing with my brother’s, sounded like heaven.
“I’m good. Not sure I came to the right place to feel safe though.” Jenny laughed, but I saw it was a mask. I could see the fear and worry in her eyes and I knew she had to be way more shaken by all of this than she looked, especially after what happened to her that morning.
“We’ll be safe,” I tried to reassure her. “The guys will keep us safe.”