Chapter 14
CHAPTER 14
I Want You Back
Kayleen
I’m not surprised when Cam tugs away from my kiss, but it still hurts. After our talk last night, I thought we could work things out. I didn’t think he was going to answer my call, but I was happy when he did.
Getting to hear his voice made everything seem right in my world. He listened and made me feel better. When I woke this morning, I just wanted to see him and have that comfort in person.
That’s why I went to his apartment. When I didn’t find him there, Caleb told me Cam had a morning class over on this side of campus. It was good to see Caleb.
He seemed genuinely happy to see me as well. I came to campus, hoping I would find Cam. I almost gave up and then I saw him walking toward the parking lot.
I rushed to him, not even thinking. Now he’s pushing me away and I feel silly. I tuck my hair behind my ear and take a step back.
“What are you doing here?” he murmurs.
“After talking to you last night, I realized how much I missed you. I miss us. I thought maybe we could talk and work things out,” I say.
“Don’t you have enough going on?”
“Yeah, Cam, I do. That’s why I need some normalcy. I need something to be the way it should be. Something safe that I can count on.
“I know I can always count on you. We’re safe. I miss knowing I can climb into your arms and have a safe place that I know,” I plea.
Cam looks off in the distance for a moment, then shakes his head. I know he is mad at me, but the hard scowl on his face is throwing me off. After our call last night, I thought he had had enough time to cool off.
He looks back to my eyes and nods. His face softens slightly. I watch as it seems like a million thoughts cross his face and mind.
“Yeah, I know what you mean. Safe and familiar is something I need right now,” he says.
I break into a face-splitting smile. My heart leaps for joy. I knew we wouldn’t stay broken up. I move into his side, and we walk to his car.
Cameron
Kay is familiar. I can trust her. I was reaching for something I’ll never have.
I don’t get to choose my happiness. I never have and it seems like I never will be able to. So I might as well stick to what I know and can trust.
I know what I’m getting with Kay. I don’t second-guess myself with her because our relationship is second nature. We’re friends, we fight, we fuck, those are things I can expect from our relationship.
I could use a good fuck right about now. Something to erase Amina … wait, Maribel from my mind. I was falling for her. I just don’t understand.
“Cam?”
“What’s up?”
I glance over at Kay, fidgeting in her seat. She looks back at me and smiles. Wow, has she always worn this much makeup?
I shake the thought off. Kay is pretty and she doesn’t deserve to be compared to a fucking liar. I drop my eyes to her shirt, which is barely containing her cleavage.
I wonder if she knows her breasts would be just as sexy if she covered them up. Amina had this way of wearing things that weren’t revealing but were still enticing, nonetheless.
Fuck, Cam. Let that shit go.
“I just wanted you to know how much I missed you. I’m sorry about everything. Our time apart showed me how much I love you and I can’t see myself without you in my life,” she says.
I have to grind my teeth as guilt fills me because I don’t feel the same. I missed Kay as a friend. Not having her in my life? Yeah, I wouldn’t want that if it meant I’d lose our friendship, but in a romantic sense, I might be all right.
“I missed you too,” I reply as I feel her staring at the side of my face.
“Is something wrong?”
“No, just a lot on my mind with school. I just took a pop quiz. I’m not sure I did so well on it,” I say.
“I’m sure you aced it. You and Caleb are crazy smart. You used to ace your tests without even studying.
“I guess I shouldn’t have thought I could do the same. I flunked every time. Jokes on me, right?”
I sigh. I don’t want to touch this one. It feels like a trap to take us back to where this all started. I don’t want to start fighting already.
“You know. Community college isn’t the worst thing ever. I’ll help you with your classes if I can. Give it a year and you could transfer. Kota would help out, I’m sure,” I say.
“I’ll think about it. I don’t know if any of that is an option at the moment. So much is going on at home. I know my parents aren’t telling me something.
“They stop hissing at each other every time I enter the room. This divorce … I can’t help feeling like something bigger is happening.”
I keep my mouth clamped shut. If only she knew. There is so much more to it. I feel bad for her. She’s a daddy’s girl and he’s about to break her heart.
All I can do is be here for her when the shit hits the fan. Oh, it’s going to hit and she’s going to be devastated. Her family could lose everything when it’s all said and done.
Rumor has it the divorce is an effort to try to at least leave Tammy and Kay with something before all Jimmy’s assets are seized and frozen. I don’t think Kay is going to take any of this well.
It’s definitely time for her to start thinking about what to do with her future. She’s not going to have Daddy’s money to fall back on like she’s always thought she would.
“Ugh, forget all of that. Want to rent a movie and get some takeout?”
“Sure, darlin’, whatever you want,” I murmur.
“I’m glad we’re back together. There’s so much I need to make up for,” she purrs and reaches for my thigh.
My cock twitches in my sweats, cutting my words off when I go to tell her I never said we were back together. Working things out and being back together are two different things. Kay grabs my growing erection and gives it a squeeze.
Who am I kidding? We always end up back together. It’s what we know.