Chapter 29
Iwalk into Teddy’s flat with Elijah. Cat meets me at the door.
“If you’re going to start a fight, don’t bother,” she spits, and my heart breaks in half. She’s gritting her teeth and I realise now I’ve never seen her face so full of rage - a face I caused.
“I’m just going to talk to him. I… I’ve had some time to think about it,” I tell her. She looks to Elijah, who simply nods at her. She backs off and goes back to the living room.
“He’s in his bedroom. He hasn’t… he hasn’t really left,” Daisy says from the couch. Daisy puts her arm around Cat as she sits down beside her. I begin to head off into his room when Elijah stops me.
“He really does care about you. That was never a lie. Just… just remember that, okay?”
“I’m going to make things right,” I reply.
I head into his bedroom, and I’m met with a curled-up Teddy. He’s lying in bed, with a speaker playing a song that’s filled with regret and pain. He hears me open the door, but doesn’t move. He must know it’s me; they have thin walls here.
“Can I sit down?” I ask, not knowing if he would even want me to. I know he lied to me, but I ran away again - even after I promised him I wouldn’t.
Teddy nods, his back still facing me. I sit down on the bed, not knowing what to do. I’m just going to talk until something sounds right.
“I’m sorry for leaving last night. I should have heard you out. In fact, I’m sorry for leaving at all. I shouldn’t have done that to you. I…” my voice cracks. The thought of him at the train station flashes in my mind, and I hate it.
How could I do that to someone I love?
Then I think about how I did it to Kai after Mum’s funeral, and a pang of guilt hits my heart.
“I still love you. I just… I just wish you didn’t lie to me about this,” I tell him, placing a hand on his shoulder. Teddy doesn’t move or react at all. I lie down next to him, rubbing his shoulder with tentative fingers.
“Can you turn around, baby?” I ask, wanting a glimpse of his face. He doesn’t move.
“Baby, please, I…” I begin, before I hear a whimper. Teddy puts a hand to his face and curls up further.
“Oh, honey, please don’t cry, it’s okay. I’m not going anywhere,” I tell him as I pull him in for a hug. He turns around and places his head into my chest. He breaks down like a heartbroken child.
“I fucked it all up. I just wanted to protect you, but it ended up just pushing you away,” he cries as I grip him tighter.
“Well, it’s all out now. And I’m not going anywhere. I’m sorry for not understanding before,” I tell him as I caress his back.
“You have nothing to be sorry for, Noah. I should have told you.”
“But I get why you didn’t. I didn’t tell you why I was leaving either. I lied to protect you too. But sometimes, even if the truth hurts, it’s better to let it out,” I explain. He sits up and wipes his eyes. He puts his legs into a basket.
“I’m sorry, I’m such a mess.”
“Aren’t we all?” I say, which causes a small laugh to come from Teddy.
“You’re right. I think being a mess is just a symptom of being human,” he says, drying his eyes some more.
“I thought I’d lost you,” he whispers, looking me straight in the eyes. I crawl towards him and kiss him on the cheek.
“Never.”
“Is that a promise?” He asks, extending his pinky. I clasp my pinky finger around his. We hug again, the warmth comforting us.
“I’m not like them, Noah. I promise I’m not. I tried to be for years. I wanted my father’s approval so badly. I just wanted to be seen by him. But… it wasn’t in my heart. I’m not like them. Never have, never will,” Teddy explains as I clasp my hand around his.
“I believe you,” I tell him, and he smiles for the first time in a while. “I can’t imagine how that must have felt, to be born into a family and not feel like you belonged,” I say, placing a hand on his shoulder. He rests his cheek on my hand and closes his eyes.
“I missed you.”
“I missed you more,” I tell him, smiling widely. We’re quiet for a few moments before I break the silence.
“You know what we need to do now, though, right?” I ask, placing my hand on his thigh. I look up at those beautiful blue eyes of his.
“What?”
“We need to go to the police and end this,” I tell him, and I watch his face drop.
“Noah, please no. They’ll kill us all if they even suspect you knew their identity. If we go anywhere near a police station, they’ll murder us. I don’t…” his voice cracks. Tears spill out of his glassy eyes again. “I don’t want to lose you.”
“We need to, baby. There’s no other way. We’ll never be happy if we let this go on,” I plead as I touch the nape of his neck. He wipes his eyes, but the tears keep spilling out.
“We’ll watch our backs. We won’t get hurt. I won’t let them do anything. This is our only option,” I tell him, pulling him closer to me. He places his lips onto mine, his salty tears making their way onto my tongue. I rest my forehead on his.
“Are you with me on this?”
“I… yeah. Okay.”
“Say it.”
“I’m with you,” he says as we back away. “We can go tomorrow after we finish work.”
“Do I still have my job?”
“I’ve written out a disciplinary notice, but you still have your job… for now,” He laughs. I wipe his tears and then caress his cheek.
“I love you, Teddy.”
“I love you, too.”
I stare into his eyes long enough to get lost in them. Then a quick glance at his lips pulls me back into them. They brush together softly.
Soft moans collect in my throat as I grind against his body.
“I missed you,” I whisper in between kisses.
“How much?” I reach down to my trousers and unbutton them. I pull the zip down slowly, Teddy’s eyes following my fingertips.
“Can we…?”
“Yes,” he says. He knows what I want.
He takes off his jeans and throws them on the floor. I look upon his naked body and can’t help but salivate.
“So you want to do this?” He asks, and I nod with a smile.
“Yes,” I tell him. “I’ve never wanted anything more.” He grips the waistband of my shorts and lowers them off me, revealing my entire body. He throws them off the bed and looks me up and down.
“How are you this pretty?” He asks, and I can’t help but smile.
“You look amazing as well,” I tell him, my heart threatening to beat out of my chest. My hands aren’t shaking as much as I thought they’d be. I point my knees up to the roof, revealing myself to him.
He pours lube onto his fingers and presses against my entrance.
“I’m going to help make this easier for you a little bit.
Tell me if it begins to hurt,” he tells me, before inserting his index finger inside me.
The pressure is intense, but I try to relax myself.
He slowly gets further and further inside.
There’s a slight burning sensation, but it begins to subside.
“It feels good, actually,” I say as my breathing becomes heavier again.
He starts to go in and out, causing my dick to harden.
He massages my G-spot, causing moans to escape my throat.
I cover my mouth with my arm as I grip the pillow behind me.
He then enters a second finger, and I feel myself tighten around his fingers.
“Remember to relax, honey,” he says, massaging my tummy with his other hand.
I try my best to relax, which makes the burning sensation go away again, and all I feel is complete bliss.
He soon inserts another finger, and I feel myself crumble at his touch.
Is this what it’s supposed to feel like?
This is better than I could ever have imagined.
He takes his fingers out, and I hear myself whine as the pressure goes away. He rests his crotch on mine, his pubic hair tickling me. He wraps his arms around me and kisses me deeply.
“You want to keep going?” He asks while kissing me. He starts kissing my neck again.
“Yes… please,” I groan before he goes back in front of me.
He puts on a condom slowly, glancing at me.
He puts my legs onto his shoulders, and I can’t help but smile below him.
He puts pressure on my entrance, and I relax enough for him to fill me up.
He slowly goes deeper and deeper, as I moan underneath.
“Is that okay?”
“Yes, keep going… please,” I beg him. He starts to get into a rhythm, thrusting in and out. I feel a fire in my tummy as he speeds up, groans escaping him. I turn my face into the pillow as breathless moans sound from me. The feeling is beautiful and profound.
I didn’t know this is what sex was supposed to feel like. This feels good - amazing even. The feeling of him sliding in and out of me is making me melt.
My dick begs for attention until he uses his hand on it.
Now I’m in heaven. The feeling of my skin moving up and down, combined with the pressure inside me, is creating a fire I can’t control.
He speeds up as he goes deeper and deeper.
He lets go of my dick as I wrap my legs around him.
He grips my hands as he gets deeper and thrusts faster.
I grip onto his flesh while he kisses me passionately.
His tongue starts playing with mine as we moan into each other’s mouths.
I start to feel a wave of pleasure reside down at my crotch, and it begins to build.
“I missed you so badly. I needed this. I needed you. I’ve never wanted anything this badly,” I moan, falling deeper and deeper into the pleasure.
“I know, baby, I know.”
He grips my shoulder as I scrunch up my face.
I feel myself tighten around him as my orgasm washes over me.
Teddy’s thrusting slows down, but gets harder as deep groans escape his throat.
He pulls my body onto his length over and over again until I feel his dick twitch inside me.
His body convulses before he falls on top of me, our breathing heavy.
“That was… amazing,” I breathe. Small laughs sound between us as we recover. He takes his dick out of me, and my insides tingle with pleasure.
“So you enjoyed that?” Teddy asks.
“Definitely. Did you?”
“It was amazing,” he replies. He grabs a towel from his drawer and begins to wipe me down.
“Wow, you really did enjoy that. You’re covered,” he laughs while my face goes red.
“It’s your fault!” I shout, and he laughs with me.
Once he dries me off, he pulls the covers over us and flops down next to me. I rest my head on his chest and wrap my leg around his.
“Can we do this every day?” I ask, and he laughs again.
“That can be arranged,” he says, as he begins to play with my hair. My heart feels full. Our naked bodies together just feels right. I want to stay like this forever.
Teddy hears his phone go off.
“Elijah just text me,” he says before he stifles a laugh.
“What?” I ask before Teddy shows me the text he received.
I have two words for you 2
THIN
WALLS
Anyway I’m guessing things went well?
VERY well :)
Ewww you are both disgusting
I laugh as I hand the phone back to Teddy.
“I love you,” I tell him.
“I love you, too.”
“Everything will be better from tomorrow onwards. We’re going to end this,” I assure him. He looks unsure, but grips me tighter.
“I hope you’re right.”