35. Chapter Thirty Five
Chapter Thirty Five
I don’t let go of Theo. I don’t look up from where my head is nuzzled in his neck. Not even when I can feel him loading us into a car. He wraps the seat belt around both of us before wrapping his arms around me.
I feel like I can finally breathe properly.
Seeing my Alphas come down the stairs gave me the most immense relief. While I had hoped and prayed that Jaiden wasn’t lying to me, it was impossible to not have doubts.
After the first sounds of gunfire, the Mullen pack raced down the stairs and made their way into my cage.
A final needle was injected into my neck. I wanted to spit the fury I felt in my chest but I held back. I had to play the numb Omega. I had to keep up the game even though it went against my instincts.
My skin felt itchy as whatever drug they injected into me made its way into my bloodstream.
The sound of Theo’s voice cracking broke a vital piece of me. It felt near impossible to keep control of my emotions. I felt my knees go as a whimper of heartbreak escaped me.
Yet, all of that feels like a distant memory even though it was only moments ago .
Wrapped in Theo’s arms, I feel like everything is okay. That I am able to push aside the trauma of what I thought was me losing them for life.
I know that is not true though. I have no doubt that the trauma will sneak up on me eventually. It always does.
But for right now, I spend the car ride sucking in lungfuls of Theo’s scent until I begin and end with him. I hear him doing the same as me. His body silently shakes under mine as I feel his tears drenching my shirt.
I hold him tighter, giving him the opportunity to break, just like he has done with me so many times.
The minutes drag on as we revel in each other’s embraces, pulling comfort from each other.
Eventually, I feel the car pulling up at the Manor. Theo doesn’t waste a single moment as he slides out of the car, keeping his hold tight on me.
The sound of his feet crunching on the gravel has me clinging tighter to his neck as flashbacks of my kidnapping rattle me.
“Shhh, baby. It's okay. You are safe. You are home,” Theo whispers into my ear, helping to push the memories from me. I knew that it was too good to be true. Trauma will demand attention when it sees fit.
Pulling from me, Theo reaches a hand up to cradle my chin, “What did it, Kennedy? What set you off?”
“The g...gravel,” I murmur, my teeth giving an involuntary rattle.
Letting go of my chin, Theo turns, looking at someone that I assume is in his employ.
“See to it that the driveway is sealed immediately. Anywhere on the property that there is gravel needs the same treatment. ”
He doesn’t wait to hear what the response is, instead he quickens his steps to the front door. I watch as Theo enters a completely different pin into a new security system. Walking through the door. He follows a similar procedure as he locks the door.
“New security?”
Turning his head back to me, he looks at me with a seriousness that can’t be denied, “I refuse to play around with your safety ever again, Kennedy. This is your home. I want you to feel safe here with or without us.”
Tears spring to my eyes and I can't stop myself from bringing my lips to Theo’s. The dam holding back the weight of the past week breaks at that moment.
The kidnapping.
Thinking that my Alphas were dead.
Being locked in a cage and not being able to see the sun once.
I didn’t realize until now just how stir-crazy that made me. I was so overcome with grief and stress that nothing else seemed to matter. It was like a part of my brain shut itself off in an attempt to protect me in some way.
With my head nuzzled into Theo’s tee, he carries up the stairs. I feel the moment that he opens the door to my nest. All of their scents invade me at the same moment.
It makes the tears fall down my face even harder. I refuse to let him go when he places me down into the nest. I cling to him like my life depends on it. He doesn't let me go either.
He whispers reassurances and sweet nothings into my ear. It helps to ease the pain inside me but it doesn't erase it.
I still feel empty .
The bonds are still quiet and I long for nothing more than to feel them again.
I feel like I took them for granted. That maybe I didn’t fight for them hard enough. It was one thing for them to dull the bond to the point that I couldn’t feel them anymore but it's another for them to take their marks from my neck.
Like they didn’t matter. Like they were meaningless. Discardable.
It brings a certain type of fury to the forefront. Something that I have never felt before.
I want vengeance. Both for me and my pack.
I want to see those responsible for my new found pain and trauma go through what we have for the past week.
Only I don’t want them to walk free when we are done.
Theo’s hands loosen from their tight hold on me as I lift my head.
“I don’t want them to get away and not pay for what they did to us.”
Theo’s eyes harden. I feel as though his eyes pierce my soul. Now that we don’t have the bonds to judge the others' emotions, we need to dig a bit deeper to get what we need.
Before Theo can say anything, I sit up, loosening his hold completely.
“I don’t want you to tiptoe around me anymore Theo. I respect the sentiment but right now, I know that I need to get my vengeance. They made me think you three were dead.”
I don’t allow myself to focus on the way my voice cracks or the expression on Theo’s face as it does.
“I can’t be the same Kennedy as I have been. It's clear that this world doesn't want that for me and I know in my soul that I don’t either. I don’t want to give these Alphas free rein to just walk all over Omegas. They need to know that their actions have consequences. If I need to be judge, jury and executioner, so be it.”
Theo sits up to rest on his elbow. His other hand comes up to cup my cheek in a move that feels soft compared to how violent my emotions feel in my chest.
“This is why you are so much stronger than any of them. I have seen this power in you all along. You can face the darkest things our world has to offer you and still come out stronger on the other side.”
“Does that mean you will help me?”
I feel like I hold my breath, waiting for his reply. Something that could either make or break us.
“I would follow you to the ends of the earth, my love. It isn’t even a question that you should have to ask. I will stand by you through it all.”
Relief overcomes me at knowing that Theo will stand by me through this. I know I could have inevitably done it myself. I know now that I am strong enough. But sometimes you just need your man to have your back. To catch you if you fall.
Leaning down, I capture Theo’s lips in a kiss that sets me alight. Suddenly, I feel hungrier than I ever have before.
I swing my leg over Theo’s waist, my core rubbing against his hardening length trapped beneath his jeans. We groan into each other's mouths. I feel an excess of slick coat my panties and my scent explode from me.
Theo growls, immediately flipping me so I am beneath him.
“Fuck, love. You are going into heat.”
All I can seem to manage is a whimper as my stomach clenches. It feels so much more intense than it did when my first heat was stolen from me.
Wave after wave of pain crashes over me to the point it becomes unbearable.
“Alpha...please...” I cry as I try to fumble at the button holding back what I need to make this pain go away.
“Shh, Omega. I am here. I will look after you,” he growls, the sound low and calming, helping some of the desperation I feel to ease; if only slightly.
I need him to take my pain away.
“Alpha, I need your knot. Please!”
My pleas feel desperate as I claw at anything my hands can grab at. The blankets beneath us as well as Theo’s shirt become victim to the heat that I can feel turning me feral.
“I love the way you beg for me. Do you need my cock, love? Do you need my knot to split that tight little pussy open until you are leaking with my seed?”
I writhe beneath my Alpha as I feel him loam over me. All rational thoughts are gone. All I can think of is his knot inside of me, splitting me open just like he told me.
“Give. Now.”
My voice is almost a growl as I move back to the God forsaken button. Using a force I didn’t know I had, I rip at the denim, the button disappearing quickly into the nest.
Without hesitation, I manoeuvre my hand until it wraps around his hot, thick length. My Alpha groans above me as I free him from his confines and give him a quick few tugs before trailing my hand lower and finding his knot. His cock twitches under my hold, the man shaking as I tease him like he seems adamant to do to me.
Doesn’t he know how much it hurts? How desperately I need him to fill me?
Letting go, I reach down to my core, finding it slicker than I have ever been. Collecting my juices, I return back to my Alpha, coating him in me.
I don’t stop with his cock though. He needs to know just how desperate I am. How needy.
With another coating of slick on my fingers, I bring the drenched hand up to my Alpha’s mouth, “Open.”
My voice leaves no room for demand; my Alpha opens his mouth. He sucks my fingers, drinking down my desperation for him; his groan making my core clench. His eyes roll into the back of his head before they return to me. There is a haze over them, and I know the Alpha that I have needed is finally here with me.
My fingers pop from his mouth and for a moment nothing happens.
It's only a single moment of stillness between us before he is ripping the remaining tatters of his shirt, his jeans quickly following and becoming lost in the mess we are making.
He doesn’t waste a moment like the more rational side of him seemed adamant at doing as he notches his cock at my entrance.
There is no hesitation as he slides straight into my pussy. I moan in relief as he fills me to the hilt, fucking into me the way that I needed him to. I claw at his available flesh, constantly needing more.
I need his knot.
Reaching down, I grip his knot in my fist .
“Knot. Now.”
My Alpha’s eyes heat, his growl eliciting more slick from my pussy.
“Such a naughty little Omega,” he moans as he pulls from me, “Present for your Alpha.”
I whimper as I move my body so my ass is up ready for my Alpha to take from me and in turn, give me what I need. A sharp sting has me jolting as my Alphas hand cracks against my ass cheek.
“You will get what I give you when I see fit, Omega. Now bend that back and show me what's mine.”
I moan, launching forward as he enters me again, gripping my hips as he fucks me just like I need.
With each thrust I feel his knot tease my entrance. I clench around him earning myself another spank across the right cheek.
The punishment only seems to spur me on. The pain sends shooting pleasure to my core.
Slick squelches from me, drenching the front of my normally gentle Alpha. This new side of him is making me wild. I need more. More of his dominance.
Clenching down around his length again, I earn a roar from my Alpha before he slams his knot inside me.
I scream as my orgasm overcomes me. Teeth find their way into my throat, returning the mate mark to its rightful spot. The bond snapping back into place heightens my pleasure, my voice becoming hoarse.
I blackout, only coming to once Theo has us settled so he is curled around me, his knot locked inside of me.
My heat gives me a moment of clarity as he nuzzles against my new mark .
“I love you, Kennedy.”
“I love you too, Theo.”
Kissing his mark on my neck, he whispers in my ear, the sound sending chills over my body, “I think I like this mark on your neck better.”