Chapter 68
SIXTY-EIGHT
POSSESSED - Witchz
Ronan passed out on the couch next to Dakota. For once, Dakota also looks completely relaxed. He’s sitting up partially against the armrest, mouth open and snoring softly with Ronan’s head in his lap.
It fills my heart with a swelling feeling, watching them both so at peace. It feels like my chest is a sponge, filling up with liquid until it doesn’t fit in me anymore.
Ronan trusts me. He trusts me . And Dakota didn’t run. Well, technically, he did. But he wanted to be caught.
Swallowing is hard past the tightness in my throat. This is everything I’ve wanted, so it can’t be real. Fuck. Maybe this is real. Could it be? I’m pretty sure out of all the people in this world, I’m not the one who deserves to have a happy ending. But Christ, if the world is offering, I’ll take it.
I grab what’s left of Buffalo, tucking it in with Ronan before setting myself up on the floor. I know Buffalo means everything to Ronan, and it breaks my heart that he’s sad. Could I get the head back? I grab my phone, load up Vox’s number, and my fingers hover over the keys.
This is serious. I’m about to start a war over a stuffed animal. But it’s important to my boyfriend.
My boyfriend .
Jesus. This is so real.
A sudden fear hits me. Greyson ran when I tried to make things serious. Maybe if I hadn’t pushed that day, he would still be here.
Maybe I shouldn’t push this.
No. No, I want to.
But does he want me to?
He would want to do this .
Christ. As soon as I think it, I realize it’s true. Ronan feels helpless. He has for a long time. Taking control is the way he takes back his safety.
I drag in a tight breath.
Maybe part of making Ronan safe isn't taking away all of his control. Maybe it’s giving him a choice and protecting him no matter what that choice is. Like I should have done for Greyson.
Fuck. I rub my forehead.
Loving someone is scary. The more you love, the more you can lose.
Slowly, I put the phone down. I think I have to fucking stop letting fear get in the way of my love. Right now, that means I need to let Ronan take his power back.
And fuck if I’m not scared to do that.