How To Get Caught Under the Mistletoe A Lady’s Guide
How To Get Caught Under the Mistletoe: A Lady's Guide
Twenty-Six November
In my defense, Charlotte kicked me.
Oh, very well, perhaps it was not a kick. Charlotte is too civilized for that, but it was a very firm nudge. The sort of nudge that will probably leave a bruise.
I recovered myself somewhat and blurted out the first words to tumble into my mouth. “I thank you, yes.” And then I died a little.
Mr. Darcy bowed. “I look forward to it, Miss Elizabeth.”
As the gentleman walked away, I groaned and rolled my eyes to the ceiling. “Why did you do that?” I whispered to Charlotte.
Charlotte smothered a smug little grin. “I daresay you will find him very agreeable, Lizzy.”
“More would be the pity! Tragic indeed to be forced to admit that I enjoyed dancing with a man I swore to despise.”
“Despise! Do not let your fondness for Mr. Wickham let you make yourself disagreeable to a man of ten times his consequence. Every lady in the room is pining for a set with Mr. Darcy.”
“Well, how unfortunate for him that he chose to ask the one woman who is not.” I sighed and drew back my shoulders. “I require a little more punch before I stand up with him. Charlotte, are you well? You are looking somewhat out of breath.”
She fanned her face, and indeed, she did seem paler than usual. “Oh, ‘tis nothing, Lizzy. I should like to sit for a few moments, though. You know, I do not dance as often as I used to, and I suppose the exertion…”
Movement just beyond Charlotte caught my eye, and I gave her a tug at the elbow. “Yes, yes, keep on with that. You are frightfully out of breath, and your feet hurt and you require some time in the ladies’ retiring room. Repeat after me.”
She gave me a quizzical look as I rushed her toward the door. “But Lizzy, I said nothing about my feet hurting. It is only that I feel rather faint just now, and—”
“Faint, yes, that is very good. Say something about feeling feverish, too. Oh!” We stopped short as my cousin, Mr. Collins, deposited himself in our path. “Excuse us, cousin. I was just escorting Miss Lucas out for a respite.”
He bowed deeply, sweeping his hand from his chest to the air in a ridiculous flourish. “Forgive me, fair cousin. I had hoped to beg a set of Miss Lucas, and, dare I hope, another from you before the evening is complete?”
Charlotte opened her mouth, but I gave her a little push in the shoulder, propelling her forward. “I fear now is not an opportune time, Mr. Collins. My friend is feeling unwell, and I have only a few moments before I must return for my set with Mr. Darcy. Some other time, I hope.”
His disappointment was keen, and he was still lamenting about it as I dragged Charlotte from the room. “Lizzy, I would have said yes,” she chided me.
“Charlotte, even your kindness can extend only so far. My toes are still tender from my set with him, and truly, you do not look like you can sustain half an hour of his conversation.” I dragged her away. “There are far more agreeable men.”
“But Lizzy, what if none of them mean to ask me? I do not entertain as many offers as you or Jane.”
I stopped. “Jane and I only danced with him because we had no choice.”
She put a hand on her hip. “You are purposely missing my point.”
“Indeed, I am, and I still say you ought to count yourself fortunate that you were spared the trouble. The very idea! It is not as if you would consider anything else with the man.”
“Well…”
“Come. Here is a nice seat, and let me fetch you a glass.” I swiped one from the tray of a passing footman and placed it in her hand. “There. I shall return straightaway to tell you how odious a half hour I passed.”
“Be careful not to accidentally enjoy yourself, Lizzy.”
Everyone was staring at me. I swallowed and lifted my chin against the aghast expressions all around—all my neighbors who either knew of my dislike of the gentleman or thought me so far beneath him that they must have assumed it all a good joke.
I drew back my shoulders and hoped Mr. Darcy didn’t have sweaty palms or clammy fingers.
In point of fact, his hands were quite nice.
Just what I might expect from the rogue.
And he seemed to know his way about the dance floor, for which my toes blessed him.
But he was excruciatingly silent all the while, and the way he stared at me did nothing to settle the flutter of nerves that suddenly tickled my stomach.
Why would the man just gape blankly into my eyes, with no thought for conversation or admiration or even a jolly good row? Terribly disconcerting.
Very well, if he would not say something, I would do it. I waited until he stepped forward to lead me down the set. “Mr. Walton’s fingers have recovered admirably.”
Mr. Darcy’s face jerked down to me as we stepped apart. “What?”
“Mr. Walton. He is the violinist, do you see? There. Bitten by a horse last week, I’m afraid. One would never know by his enthusiasm for the piece this evening.”
“Er…” Mr. Darcy adjusted his cufflinks. “Indeed. He plays very well.”
“There. Now we may be silent until we must step together again.” I turned my head to watch a servant replacing a set of nearly guttered candles at the edge of the room, but when I looked back, Mr. Darcy was still staring at me. Oh, bother.
“Do you find the tempo a little fast this evening, Mr. Darcy?”
He looked at me strangely. “I find it precisely as it should be. Do you not?”
“Oh, no, I think it accurate in every way. For, you see, it took us exactly one measure to traverse the line, just as it ought. I only wondered because you look displeased by something.”
“Nothing at all, Miss Elizabeth.”
“That is very fine. Now, it is your turn to think of something to speak of, Mr. Darcy. Might I suggest observing something about how much pleasanter it is to attend a private ball than a public one? Or perhaps you could comment on the flavor of the soup.”
He stepped forward and took my hand to lead me around the next couple. “The soup?”
“Just as you please. The pheasant was done to a turn. Do you not agree?”
“Indeed.”
“Oh, come, Mr. Darcy! You must give me something better than one-word answers.”
A ghost of a smile touched his lips. “I would be happy to discuss anything you prefer. Pray, tell me what you would most like to speak of.”
I considered his question as he marched me around, then returned me to my place. “It must be difficult to settle on a topic, is it not? For I have noted that you, like myself, are usually unwilling to speak at all unless you can say something profound indeed.”
“I would argue that you possess no such difficulty,” was his dry retort. “And I cannot control how my own words are perceived.”
“There, an answer that I must think on for a moment. That will do for the present.”
He stepped back, but his face did not look so grave as it had. In fact, he almost appeared to be amused, and searching for something to say. “Do you often walk toward Meryton?” he ventured.
That was a piteous attempt. But at least it was a question that evoked a response, so I smiled. “Yes, often. In fact, we had just been meeting a new friend yesterday when you happened upon us.”
My heavens! I did not know Mr. Darcy possessed so many feelings, but a great cascade of them blasted over his face all at once.
His jaw rippled, his throat bobbed, and his eyes glittered to a fearsome black.
“I do not wonder that Mr. Wickham was able to make a friend of you. Whether he deserves to keep your friendship is another matter.”
“A friend is a valuable thing to have, would you not agree?”
His nostrils flared slightly. “I would.”
“Then you must also agree that the loss of a friendship is a tragic thing, indeed. The material harm in such a loss cannot be measured.”
He moved toward me and caught my hand for another march, and his voice dropped to a low growl. “Unless the ‘friend’ is shown to be deficient in character, in which case, the loss ought to be his burden to bear, not mine to regret.”
I stopped mid-step. “You are very hard, Mr. Darcy. With such high standards, it must be difficult, indeed, for anyone to win your friendship.”
He tightened his grip on my hand and pulled me out of the way of the next dancers. “Not so difficult as you might imagine. I believe the fault you would assign to me is not lack of civility, but an unwillingness to revise my opinions once they are fixed.”
I pivoted into my place. “One must wonder what measure you use. I trust you are exceedingly careful in the forming of these opinions?”
“Exceedingly.”
And with that one word, our conversation was done.
I fell to silent fuming, and he to dark brooding.
The very cheek of the man! To stand here with me and all but tell me to my face that I was being deceived in Mr. Wickham’s character, when he was the disagreeable one and everyone knew it!
For surely, it was for his pleasure that Mr. Wickham had been excluded from this evening’s enjoyment.
And not because the rest of the neighborhood liked Mr. Darcy, but because he was Mr. Bingley’s friend, while the other was not.
I was too practical to think myself in love with Mr. Wickham after only two meetings, but I will own that his happy manners and the hope of a dance with such an amiable man had been my balm since Mr. Collins demanded the first set.
And now, because of Mr. Darcy, I was to be denied the pleasure of a cheerful man’s company.
But there was always tomorrow. Surely, we would see him walking up the lane with Denny, and he would humbly describe some perfectly acceptable excuse for his absence. And then, he would ask to walk our party to Meryton, or call on us again in the following days.