Chapter 28
CHAPTER 28
Gabriel
The metallic door slides shut behind me with a hiss, sealing me inside the human pets’ sleeping quarters. I sit heavily on the narrow cot assigned to me. I run my fingers through my hair, hoping to dispel some of my frustration.
Briar—ma douce Briar, my sweet, Briar—Aefre’s with her now. What is he doing? What is he saying? Is he... touching her?
“Merde!” I spit, slamming my fist into the wall beside me.
I know the only reason I’m not in solitary is because Aefre is going to have sex with Briar tonight. I’m furious with jealousy but there’s nothing I can do about it. And what makes me even more angry is that I can’t even masturbate thinking about her without asking permission.
I lean forward, resting my elbows on my knees, and try to breathe. Focus. Think. I need a plan. A way to take her far away from him, from this place, from all of it.
The UCs. I have them. They’re my only card to play, my only shot at freedom for both of us. But how much would it take to bribe a guard? To steal a ship?
I’ve seen the patrols, the security systems. It won’t be easy. I’ve tried before and my voice is already locked out on the Luminous Arc so Briar’s Imperial would have to be good enough to trick the codes. The ship only responds to native speakers. Even if I could somehow get us past the guards, past the cameras, and onto a ship, where would we go? The galaxy isn’t kind to humans. We’re not just pets—we’re prey. Everywhere, there’s someone stronger, smarter, with better tech. Even if we found a place to land, who’s to say we wouldn’t be sold back into this hell or something worse?
I close my eyes, forcing myself to think. The credits I’ve earned—it’s not a fortune, but may be enough to pay for passage to some distant, forgotten corner of the galaxy where humans aren’t just commodities. But where?
A memory sparks—a rumor whispered among the pets; Fifi was always talking about it. A hidden colony, Haven, a place where humans live free. A fantasy, most likely. But isn’t that all I have now?
The image of Aefre fucking Briar crosses my mind and I hit the wall again. The other humans look up at me cross.
“Ma chère,” I whisper. “If there’s even a chance, I’ll find it for us.”
Aefre thinks he’s in control. But he doesn’t know how far I’m willing to go to get her to myself. And he may have Briar’s physical body, but he hasn’t got her heart. Not yet.
The lights are on. It’s the Watching. My body aches for sexual release. Watching les garcons bathe Briar’s body, kissing her sweet lips, and her warm body pressing next to mine has been playing on repeat in my thoughts for the last four hours.
I open internal communications to Kaelin from the pet sleeping quarters.
“Ember, what is it that it couldn’t wait until the morning?” he asks annoyed.
“I want to masturbate.” I find it only mildly degrading now to have to ask and be monitored, but it’s life as a human pet.
“I’ll arrange it and come by and get you. Control yourself until then.”
I go back to bed. There’s some grumbling among the other humans that I woke them up, but I don’t care. It’s the Watching, the lights are on. We aren’t supposed to be sleeping, although most of us pets do sleep during this time.
I lie under my covers and stare at the ceiling. My mind races thinking about Briar and what Aefre is probably doing to her right now. I can’t help but remember the first time Aefre had sex with me. I’m not attracted to men, but I was attracted to him then. There was nothing more that I wanted than to have him dominate me. So I understand if Briar just gave herself over to him willingly. He’s trained us to do that. To do his bidding. To love him and to be obedient to him in every way.
The day after Fifi died, he came to me and I welcomed him. His closeness. How he comforted me then. How he mastered me.
I shake my head to displace the memory. What I want now is to masturbate thinking only about Briar. Thinking about our kiss in the cleansing room. Thinking about where that might have gone if we’d had the full hour alone.
Whatever she and Aefre are doing right now it’s only physical. When I make love to her it’ll be human to human, lover to lover. I’ll be so gentle and attentive, nothing like sex between trainer and pet. Someday, ma chère Briar, we will have our time.
It seems like an eternity before Kaelin arrives. As soon as he’s at the door, I walk out, but he stops me.
“Wait Ember,” he says as he attaches a leash. “I have to use this now after what happened with Ash earlier.”
I don’t reply. I don’t care. I just want sexual release.
Now that I’m all leashed up we begin walking toward the medical center. Human sperm is never just thrown away. As we enter, the doctor greets us, and I’m taken to a small room, not unlike solitary, except in this one the two other men join me.
I don’t wait for Kaelin to release me from my leash. I just pull my clothing down, my erect penis springing forward, surrounded by copious hair. I don’t even know if all of my pubic hair is my own. I was only sixteen years old when Aefre bought me and those first months were so traumatic, I don’t remember many of the details.
I remember the magic cross piercing though. A horizontal and vertical piercing through my penile head. It’s supposed to bring more pleasure to the women I have sex with. Although I’m rarely allowed to have sex with anyone. Aefre likes to keep me on a tight leash sexually.
Kaelin turns on the computer. “I have a holo of Ash running, her tits bouncing like crazy. It’s only a minute long, but given what happened today…” Kaelin says. He knows exactly what I want as the doctor does. We’ve all been together on the Luminous Arc , playing these roles for the last twelve years. These men have watched every sexual encounter I’ve ever had and sometimes even participated. Except for my kiss with Briar. Everything else has always been orchestrated by them.
“One minute will be enough,” I reply. I don’t even care that they are watching it too. Sometimes the doctor’s extra commentary on human body hair annoys me. But, when all three of us begin to watch Briar running, her breasts bouncing and her tail swaying behind her, I don’t even care what the doctor says.
“She’s such a beautiful human female. From her scans her vaginal canal is just long enough for the average human male, so she’d be a tight fit for any of us, and especially you Ember. Your dick would be so squeezed inside of Ash… I rarely envy Aefre, but lately when I see that human pet, I do.”
I stroke myself while I watch the holo of Briar running, trying to block out their conversation. I concentrate on her big breasts swinging as she sweats and runs in the video. The tail that matches her hair swishing erotically behind her. I think someday, she’ll be mine. If even for only a day. I imagine having sex with her in the cleansing room under the running water. Pinning her to the side of the shower and entering her as I kiss her. Now that I have the doctor’s extra information about the size of her vagina, I can add it to my fantasy. My dick pushed inside of her so tightly…
“When she’s fully trained I hope that I’ll be able to experience sex with her,” the doctor says. “I’d love to fuck her holding that tail.”
“I prefer her defiant spirit,” Kaelin says, “I don’t care about her body. It’s her heart. She’s so rebellious you can see it in her eyes. No doubt she’d love a strong hand. Spanking. Being tied up. Being dominated. I’m sure that’s what Aefre is doing right now and I envy him.”
Unable to block them out all I can think is, This is what makes me different. I don't want her for either of those reasons— Mon Dieu , Je l'adore—truly. I adore her. Thinking about that, it’s not long before I’m coming hard into the doctor’s vial which he holds for me.
“That’s it, Ember. Stroke it out. You know how to do it. Good boy.”
I look down as the clear medical container seals automatically with my sticky white semen in it. I don’t ask what the doctor’s going to do with it. I never do. The truth is I don’t want to know. The less I know about genetic testing or children I’ve inadvertently fathered in the galaxy, the better. It’s not that I don’t care, I just want to be able to sleep at night.
“Should we wait?” the doctor asks, meeting my eyes.
I take a deep breath. Do I need to masturbate to her again? “Yes. Again.”
“I thought so,” says the doctor. “Those breasts are pretty amazing and you see her every day, bouncing.”
“You like her defiance too, don’t you Ember?” Kaelin asks me.
I nod. I don’t want to discuss what I like about Briar with these men. She’s mine in my mind even if she’s not yet in reality.
“Do you want the same holo?” the doctor asks me. “Or we could get the feed from Aefre’s room. You know he keeps it open to track his pets’ progress.”
Do I want to see Aefre fucking Briar? I’m so tempted. I meet the doctor and Kaelin’s eyes. I know they want to watch it.
“If we turn that on,” Kaelin says, “I’ll have to relieve myself too.”
“Same,” says the doctor. “But there’s nothing stopping us from watching it.” The doctor checks something on his device that gives a readout of all the pets’ health. “He’s definitely had sex with her. There’s semen in her vagina, mouth, throat…”
“I want to watch it,” I say before I can think about it too much. I want to know. To torture myself. To see if she really loves him or to see if it’s the same pet to trainer sex I had with Aefre.
The doctor and Kaelin share a smile. Three more vials for semen appear and the doctor begins the holo when the two other men have pulled down their trousers. This is new for me. Usually they’re just watching me, but now all of us are masturbating together while watching Aefre and Briar. It’s almost like we are worshipping Aefre in a strange god-like fashion, our semen the offering.
But I don’t think about it too much because watching Aefre spank Briar reminds me of the sex I had with him.
“Oh grab her by that tail,” the doctor says while pumping himself.
As I watch, I’m relieved that it’s the same trainer to pet sex. There’s no love or passion. It’s all physical. All the way to the end when Briar licks all the semen from his grey body. She never looks at Aefre the way that she looks at me.
After we’ve all orgasmed our semen into the vials, I ask the doctor, “Can I keep the holo of her running?”
“No, but you can see it again if you behave. And that means no more talking to Ash in your human language or paying off the attendants for privacy. You can talk to her in Imperial or not at all.”
I reluctantly answer, “Understood, Master Kaelin.”
“And Ember,” the doctor says catching my attention as Kaelin begins leading me out by my leash. “There’s a high possibility that Aefre will want to breed you and Ash if you win the Grand Championships. So I have something more to look forward to. I know I’d love to watch you rub your furry genitals together. Humans, half-Imperial, half-beasts,” he smiles at me.
“Good” I say as convincingly as I can. I’ve been bred before. It was my second sexual experience after Aefre trained me. The first was with Aefre and the second under his watchful eye a year later with a human woman. I didn’t even know her real name. Only her pet name, Fawn. She had brown skin and dark brown hair. She was gorgeous and more than willing. She told me I was the most handsome man she’d ever seen.
All of our trainers were there, including the doctor. I wasn’t even allowed off my leash because human males couldn’t be trusted in breeding situations. Aefre dictated everything I should do to her and I did it. Was I aroused by the sight of Fawn. Yes. Did she like me? I think so. Did we both orgasm? Yes. She orgasmed twice. First I licked her between her legs exactly how Aefre told me to. It was embarrassing that I didn’t know how to bring a woman to orgasm then. Next, I entered her with my cock. I’d never had sex like that before and I came quickly. Finally, I massaged her clitoris to make sure she orgasmed again for a better chance of pregnancy. She kissed me on the cheek afterward and told me I was sweet, but it wasn’t as real as kissing Briar. It wasn’t even as real as masturbating to a holo of Briar running.
How is that possible? I might have even fathered a child with Fawn and I don’t even think about her or that experience often. But Briar is always on my mind.
My thoughts are interrupted as Kaelin pauses in the hallway. “We need to return to the medical center. There’s one more thing I forgot.”
Immediately, we turn and return. The doctor is waiting.
“I knew you’d forgotten,” he says to Kaelin. “Ember,” the doctor says to me, taking off my leash and guiding me toward the holographic room. “I’m glad you came to masturbate tonight. Your cortisol levels have been too high, and your lack of appetite and irregular bowel movements are classic signs of stress. So I’ve arranged a pastoral feeding session for you. It was supposed to be tomorrow, but since you’re here now…”
I’m ushered into a room with a holographic human woman. She beckons to me. And I go to her. I sit next to her as she opens her shirt and takes out her breast. She offers it to me and I take it. Sucking the milk from her nipple. The woman is a holograph but the milk is real. Donated from someone somewhere in the Empire. A human or an Imperial woman, I don’t know. But these feeding sessions are mandatory to alleviate stress in all males, human and Imperial alike. Another reminder that even though men command my life here, women command theirs, and hence these strange habits they have.
There was a time when I found this repulsive, but now it’s a fact of life. I revert to being a baby again. I suck both of her nipples until there’s no milk left as she gently combs her fingers through my hair. It’s so comforting and safe.
As I emerge from the feeding room, feeling completely relaxed now, I hear the doctor assuring Kaelin that physically I am where I should be now. “Mild increases in oxytocin and endorphins, and reduced cortisol. His heart rate and respiration have also stabilized.” When he sees me he asks, “Do you want to masturbate again? I know how breastfeeding can trigger that.”
“No,” I say. “Not today.”
Kaelin attaches my leash and leads me out. We’re both quiet as we walk through the corridors. When we reach the pet sleeping quarters, he undoes the leash. “You should sleep very well now, Ember.”
I don’t reply but just enter, and quickly slide into my bed, the cool sheets a stark contrast to the heat of my thoughts. As much as I want to mull over my feelings for Briar, I let sleep take me. Perhaps, in my dreams, I’ll find the clarity I crave—un moyen d’éclaircir ce chaos dans ma tête, to clear the chaos in my mind.