Chapter 40
CHAPTER
FORTY
Sia
I was naked when Maxim eased into his bed that night. I hadn’t gone back to my room and didn’t want to.
I was shivering.
Anticipation struck a deep shudder within me, but no fear. There was absolutely none and couldn’t be.
“ Malyshka… ” The bed dipped behind me, his proximity close but not close enough. Maxim drew in a breath. “ Malyshka , let me inside you.”
He was asking for permission. Even now after the display in the bathroom. He knew I wanted him. He knew that I knew he could be watching me, and even if he didn’t, I was currently naked in his bed. Despite the obviousness of the situation he was still asking for consent.
Because he was a good man.
I knew bad men. I knew them well, and no matter what Maxim did or how harshly he did it, he could never fall under the umbrella of the dark and depraved. He was dark yes, but not once had I ever felt anything but safe with him. It was why I’d given him my body so many times.
My need for him physically brought numbness to my body. If I didn’t have him inside me soon, I thought I’d actually die. “Maxim…”
I reached for his face in the dark, shadows passing over his chiseled features. He was fully clothed and hadn’t even taken his shoes off. He wouldn’t unless he had that consent.
I gave it to him when I reached back, fisting his cock through his pants. He growled oh so hard before crushing our mouths together in a way that made me hate myself for denying him so long. I’d gotten scared. I’d gotten lonely . I felt like he betrayed me by giving me a part of himself, then taking it away.
But he hadn’t. Truth of the matter was I didn’t know why he put so much distance between us for so long. Maybe he had his own fears about commitment, but he’d done nothing but try to remedy that with me for weeks. I mean the man went to a fucking community college with kids half his age just to be close to me, clearly.
He had gotten close. He’d gotten close and deep, and then there was what had me in his bed now. Maxim Petrov showed his love through action. He didn’t have to put it on a billboard to let me know how much he cared about me.
“Sia…” His tongue dipped into my mouth, his hand between my legs. He brought my arms up, cuffing them with a firm hand before affectively pinning me beneath his weight. “I can’t stop. Please tell me to stop.”
I wouldn’t. I refused, and I knew why he’d want to. I had a feeling he knew so many things about me and not just how to work my body.
“No way in hell,” I said, deepening the kiss and widening my legs. I thrust my hips up, and he growled so hard I felt it in my teeth.
“Goddess,” he breathed, kissing the word down my jawline, my neck. “My angel.”
He felt like mine.
A noise escaped my lips when he pinched my clit, then rubbed it. Two fingers drew back and fucked me while he did it, and I nearly came for the second time tonight.
“Fuck, Sia. Fuck.” Our mouths were fused, his clothes finally off when he shed them one by one, and when he finally let me have him he was just as naked as me.
His body was so hard, solid. He was like a mural of danger and dark ink, and I kissed so many of his tattoos.
The sound he let out was feral, primal. He brought my legs up and eased himself inside me, deep. He didn’t wear a condom, but I didn’t care. I was on birth control.
“Maxim…” I shuddered beneath him, wanting this for so long, to feel close to him again. “I need you.”
It was so hard for me to admit that I needed anyone. I’d survived for so long on my own, but all I wanted—truly wanted—was someone in my life I could trust. I wanted to be able to give myself to someone else and know they wouldn’t use my vulnerability against me.
“Sia Reynolds, you have no idea of my need,” he said, the words humming against my neck, and I gasped. He kissed the space beneath my ear. “If you knew how bad I wanted you, it’d scare you, malyshka . I need all of you in every way you can give.”
I gasped again, wanting that too. I wanted to be needed but had been too scared to let myself go in the past.
I wasn’t scared now, pumping Maxim’s cock while he milked my sex. We were a sea of limbs and sweat, and the taste drove fire through me. His taste brought me to life, and once I had that, felt that…
There was no going back for me, and I had a feeling the same went for him. He roared when he got close to the edge, but I was long gone before that. The fire hit low in my belly, and my walls squeezed so freaking tight around him.
“Sia…” He dragged my name across my lips with so much control and not once did he not let me see him. He always kept me facing him. He framed my face. “My baby girl.”
I panted, getting way too emotional, but I couldn’t help it. I felt safe, so incredibly safe and someone like me didn’t get that. I didn’t get to bask in the safety of the world at all, let alone with someone else.
I guess that was another gift he gave me.