23. Liliana
Imake my way out of our room and down the hallway, wrapping my arms around myself as I get closer and closer to the kitchen.
The shower was nice, helping my stressed muscles relax a little.
Being here at the lakehouse brings me a peace I can’t fully explain in words. I feel safer here, away from the city, out in the middle of nowhere.
I stop at the kitchen doorway and lean against it, watching Jax as he moves around the kitchen.
The only thing he is wearing is a pair of his boxers, currently, I have taken his shirt.
His back flexes as he opens the fridge and grabs the juice and eggs, he steps them both on the counter and turns towards the oven, checking the pan.
Of course, he can cook, so I am not surprised, is there anything this man can’t do?
I push off of the doorframe and make my way to the island taking a seat, I lean forward watching his muscles flex again as he breaks the shell and puts the eggs into the pan, the room starts to fill with the smell of eggs and coffee.
“Did you sleep well, Darlin” Jax asks softly, he is always worried about me.
I would be lying if I said it didn’t still catch me off guard. I have spent all of my life on my own, trying to be whatever my mother wanted me to be, but I never lived up to what she wanted. She was there with me, but I still felt alone, like no one loved me for me. She has always loved the idea of what she could turn me into.
Jax is different. He has accepted me for who I am and hasn’t tried to change me into someone I am not.
“Yes,” I respond softly, the memories of last night flooding into my head, the handcuffs, the breath play, the eye roll in the back of my head feeling as he filled me with his cock.
My gosh, I feel the wetness between my legs increase as I try and focus on the here and now.
“Good, I have a surprise for you today,” He confesses, snapping me out of my head.
“A surprise?” I ask; of course, he has something up his sleeve; he always does.
“Yes, but first, you need to eat,” he says as he turns and walks over to the island, setting a fresh cup of coffee in front of me. He leans in and gently connects his lips to mine, but just as quickly, he pulls back and looks at me.
“More,” I beg him.
A smile forms across his lips as he shakes his head.
“We are going for a ride today,” He says calmly.
“Oh yeah,” I ask with amusement. There is something about Jax on his bike that turns me on, the way he rides, the way he places his hand on my leg, and the way he makes sure I am holding tightly onto him.
Everything about him screams taboo, which, honestly, makes me want our relationship even more. I don”t want a normal relationship, I am not normal. My head is not normal. And from what we did last night, he isn”t either. He can make my body sing with one look and one touch, and I am his all over again.
“To the waterfall, it is my favorite spot and the whole reason why I bought this property.”
“Sounds magical.”
“It is, and now it can be our spot.”
“I like the sound of that.”
He turns and makes his way back to the stove, flipping and moving around the eggs. Then he turns and places the food on the two plates he has laid out.
He is very organized and seems to have a routine for everything in his life, except for me.
I think of myself as a wrecking ball who has come into his life, and we are both trying to play catch-up.
“Eat, Darlin, then we will go,” he says, taking the plates in his hand. Then he turns to face me.
“Yes, Sir,” I whisper. He places the plate in front of me, and I grab the fork.
His eyes are burning into me. A groan leaves him as he picks up his coffee cup and takes a sip.
I love that I can affect him as much as he affects me. He keeps his eyes on me as I take a bite of my eggs.
I will never understand what he sees when he looks at me, but I plan on spending the rest of my life showing him and helping him to understand what I see when I look at him.
Jax pulls the bike up to the trail and turns off his bike. I remove my helmet and slowly get off, setting the helmet in my spot. He gets off the bike and grabs the backpack, pulling it over his shoulder. He zips up his black jacket and reaches out his hand to me. I take it without needing to think.
He begins to lead me down the trail. The clouds are over our heads, and by the way they look, it is going to rain soon, which I think was part of his surprise—us getting caught out in the rain together.
He acts big and tough, but he has no idea how much of a book-boyfriend he is turning out to be.
To the outside world, they think they know him, but no one knows him, not the way I do.
I rest my head against his arm as we continue to walk down the trail heading deeper into the woods.
He stays quiet as we make our way through the woods.
He said he wanted to take me to the waterfall, which is the whole reason he bought the land, but I think he bought this place because he needed an escape from what the outside world was asking him to be.
I still don”t know his past or what he has been through, but I do know he doesn’t trust easily. His walls are a mile high, and for some reason, they came crashing down for me.
“You okay, Darlin?”
“What, yeah, I’m good,” I say as I look forward. I can see an opening at the end of the trail, and I can hear the water nearby. We must be getting close.
“This is our place now. You can come here whenever you need to escape the outside world, Darlin,” he says with pride.
“Thank you.”
“For what?” He asks.
“Knowing that I need a place like this,” I confess to him.
“I will give you whatever you want, Lil. All you have to do is ask, and it is yours, just like I am,” he says softly as we both stop.
I look over the waterfall and the small pond that has been created because of it.
Jax releases my hand and removes his backpack, I watch him closely as he kneels and opens the bag, pulling out a blanket, and some food and drinks for us.
I smile as I take a few steps towards the waterfall. It is breathtaking.
I feel the rain starting to fall, I take in a deep breath of the fresh air, I have never felt so free in my entire life.
Signing the contract to belong to Jax helped me become free from my mother, Chad, and anyone else who would try to control me. I gave Jax everything; in return, he saved me in every way someone could be saved.
Jax comes up behind me and kisses my neck as she grabs the bottom of my shirt. I lift my arms. He pulls back and lifts my shirt up and over my head. He grabs onto my leggings as I step out of my sandals, and he lowers them down with my underwear and tosses them to the side. He stands up and circles me, stopping in front of me.
He removes his jacket, then his shirt, I look down as he reaches down and unzips his boots and tosses them to the side with his socks, he unbuttons his pants and pulls them down with his boxers.
He steps out of them, kicking them to the side. I walk into him, resting my hands on his chest. He leans down, connecting his lips to mine as he wraps his arms tightly around me.
The rain continues to fall around us and on us as he starts to lower us both to the ground. I position myself on his lap, resting my knees on the ground on either side of him; I lift myself as his eyes stay locked on me; I open my mouth his tongue enters as he grabs onto his hard cock, placing the tip at my entrance. I slowly lower down onto his cock.
He releases his cock and grabs onto the back of my neck, pulling me against him more as he starts to roll his hips, and I start to move up and down his length.
A moan escapes me as we become lost in each other.
I know this is supposed to be self-care time for me no touchy, but he is becoming my self-care.
The thought of not touching him, tasting him, and feeling his cock in me sends a strong pain to my chest that makes me lose my breath. I start to move faster, his hips rolling, he growls into my mouth as I break the kiss and make my way down his jawline to his neck, I grab onto his hair and pull his head back giving me better access to his throat.
“Fuck Darlin,” He moans.
“You are mine, Jax, all mine,” I demand.
“ I am yours,” He moans.
I never thought we could give each other more of each other, but here we are, in this beautiful place, giving ourselves to one another without a second thought.
I don”t know what the future will bring me, but I do know I never want to live without Jaxon Fox.