31. Vaughn
CHAPTER 31
VAUGHN
T hen
“Give me what I want.”
She did.
I wanted every last drop of her. Not allowing her any time to recover, I flipped us over and crawled my way up to her mouth, kissing her and making her taste herself.
She moaned, sucking on my tongue.
“So good.” I sat up on my knees, never once breaking our heated stares as I unbuckled my jeans to kick them off with my boxer briefs.
Through dark, dilated, hooded eyes, she took in the size of my hard cock for the first time. I fisted my shaft, jerking myself off in front of her. She watched with an expression full of desire and nothing else. I smiled, appreciating the look in her eyes.
I was a goner.
It was her turn to smile as she sat up, kissing me. Silently demanding I keep going. When I didn’t move fast enough, she reached for my dick and wrapped her hand around my shaft, causing my breath to hitch against her lips and my dick to jerk in her grasp.
“Yeah, baby, just like that,” I scoffed out, biting her bottom lip. “Stroke my cock. Harder. Faster.”
She was a very good listener. Driving me to the brink of insanity.
With her, it was different, and there was no denying that.
She slid her tongue into my mouth, and I let her take the lead.
“Van, I want you.” She positioned my dick at her entrance.
I groaned, “I want you more than I’ve ever wanted anything. Are you ready for me?”
“Yes, I’ve always been ready for you.”
“I don’t deserve you. Not your heart or your pussy, but I’m a selfish bastard, and I want both regardless.”
“I’m yours forever.”
“Don’t say things you don’t understand.”
“I love?—”
“Don’t say things I don’t understand.”
“Vaughan—”
I kissed her, mostly to shut her up. I didn’t want her to have expectations after this, and I was beginning to realize she would. And still, I couldn’t stop myself.
Slowly, inch by inch, little by little, I thrust inside her. She felt incredible, like nothing I’d ever felt before. The sensation of her walls tightening around me was indescribable.
My balls ached.
“I’m right there, baby.”
She gasped, clinging to my back. “Yes…”
“Yeah? You okay?”
“Yes, I like that. Keep going.”
She moaned, fisting the sheets as her head fell back against the bed. Preparing for the pleasure my cock would bring.
Thrusting in and out, I played with her nub. Her pussy constricted every single time I massaged her clit up and down. The faster my fingers moved, the harder and deeper my thrusts became.
Squirming.
Falling apart.
“You were made for me. How are you this delicious?”
“ I was made for you.”
Unable to confront the truth, I hid my face in the crook of her neck. Aware it wouldn’t matter in the end—she owned my heart and soul.
Always had.
Always would.
Our mouths parted, both of us panting profusely, helpless against our bodies coming together as one. She gasped the second she felt my cock hit her G-spot, and I picked up the pace of my assault.
“Vaughan … right there…”
“Here, baby? You want my cock, here?” My dick throbbed to come balls deep inside her now.
“Oh God … yes … right there…” Her moans got louder and louder, squeezing the hell out of my cock.
“Yeah, baby, just like that. Come hard for me.”
“Yes… Don’t stop … please don’t stop.”
“I won’t. I can’t. You own me.”
She pulsated, and her sweet pussy sucked me dry. I came so hard my vision blurred, and my body trembled right along with hers. We went over the edge together, where I could barely see straight. We stayed like that for I don’t know how long, in our haven that would eventually turn into our hell. It felt as if an eternity had passed between us, and it still wasn’t enough time with her.
It was never enough time with her.
“I’ll be right back.” I kissed the tip of her nose and got up, going straight into the bathroom. Needing a minute to myself for what I wasn’t prepared to face.
My emotions held me hostage while I cleaned myself up.
“Don’t say it. Please don’t ruin this for me.” She was staring up at the ceiling when I walked back into the bedroom. Lost in her own thoughts with my white sheet wrapped around her naked body.
“What exactly do you think I’m going to say?”
“That you regret it.”
“Look at me.”
She did, her eyes already welling up with tears.
“Aw, baby.” I went to her and kissed her lips. I hated fighting. I hated all of this.
“Every time something intimate happens between us, you always push me away after. Please, just give me this. I can’t hear you say that you regr?—”
“I don’t.”
She sighed, fresh tears falling down the sides of her face.
“Don’t cry for me, Tru.”
“I mean for next time.”
There wouldn’t be a next time. I felt it in my soul. I came back to love her, to prove my love, to prove the trust we had, and she was still hiding things from me. Dad said she knew everything. So why didn’t she tell me everything when we were fighting? Why not now?
My thoughts were jumbled just being next to her. The next thing I knew, she was kissing all over my face, wrapping her arms and legs around me, seeking the comfort she needed in my embrace. I kissed her, softly pecking her lips, taking my time with each stroke of my tongue as it tangled with hers.
I tasted her tears.
Her hope.
Her love.
When I opened my eyes, I saw every sentiment I felt through her gaze. We locked eyes.
I surrendered.
We lay next to each other. My eyes searched hers. “Tru? Is that the only thing you were keeping from me? The fact that Sandra and my dad have been together this whole time?”
She frowned. “Yeah, it’s the only thing. I wouldn’t lie to you.”
Yet she just did.
For one more minute, I surrendered to her, to the fantasy I’d created in my head that said there was a person—a soulmate, one person put on this plane who saw you for you, who you could trust.
How stupid of me. How fucking stupid.
My smile was sad. I turned my back on her, and then I left.
Tru
He wasn’t picking up his phone, which was weird. We’d had amazing sex, and when I woke up an hour later, he was gone.
Maybe he went back to the party?
I could hear it raging still. Did they ever sleep here?
I pulled my hair back into a ponytail, grabbed some lip gloss, and went outside to find him.
But he was gone. And when I asked people where he was, they just looked at me, then down at the ground like they were afraid to make eye contact.
A loud commotion sounded above the music near the hot tub. Vaughan was in the middle of the tub with girls all around him, wearing basically nothing, and he was clearly drunk. My entire world felt like it was falling apart when he looked at one of them and smiled because how dare he!
That was my smile!
We’d just been together a few hours ago?
How did a person get that drunk in a matter of a couple of hours and forget he has a girlfriend?
Because that was what I was… his girlfriend, right?
He knew I wasn’t the kind of girl who slept around and said I love you when they didn’t mean it. He told me he loved me too.
Why was he doing this to me?
I waited for I don’t know what.
Maybe for my heart to start beating again?
The shock and dismay quickly turned into hurt, which shifted into hurt and rage.
Fists clenched, I marched over. “Vaughan? Are you kidding me right now?”
“Oh look, the liar,” he slurred. “You know you should really stop with the whole innocent act. It might make it easier on your victims.”
“Victims?”
What the hell was he talking about?
“Vaughan, you’re drunk and making an ass out of yourself and really pissing me off right now, so could you just get out of the hot tub?—”
“Nah, I’m in search of my next fling since clearly that’s about how important I am to you. You know everything after all, right? Or care to change your answer now?”
I seriously had no idea where he was going with this, but everyone was watching, and my heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to pass out. “Vaughan, let’s just go talk.”
“She means fuck.” He said it so loudly I’m sure the neighbors heard it. “Besides, I’m sure there’s a reason you didn’t say anything. Maybe you’re embarrassed by me, ashamed, maybe you just wanted to keep the upper hand. Who knows? What I do know is that you always swore to tell the truth until you didn’t.”
“I’ve always been honest with you!” I yelled. Tears were streaming down my face so fast that I could barely see. “What’s happening right now? I don’t understand!”
“Oh?” He turned to the girl next to him and smashed his mouth against hers. “Get it now?”
My world imploded from the inside out.
This wasn’t my world.
He made me feel like I was a part of it.
And he played me the entire time.
I love you?
I love you?
Don’t leave me?
“Just a fling, huh?” I reached for the first guy I could find and kissed him. “Good, now I know how it works. Find a willing victim and have fun. Besides, you’ll only ever be a pathetic loser who can’t even keep it in his pants, just like your dad.”
“SHUT UP!” Vaughan jumped to his feet, but I was already hauling the random stranger into the house. I went into the bathroom with him and locked the door.
He seemed more than happy to be sloppy seconds.
I didn’t touch him again, though. I waited ten minutes.
And then I left.
I left everything behind.
Vaughan.
The boy who broke me first.