The Designated Twin

25. Lucy’s Journal

Saturday, April 3rd * 8:29 p.m. * seas of sadness wreck me as I lie in bed

My sister is camping with my future king-in-law and they do not have cell service which means I can’t text-harass her into all the details.

It’s driving me mad! And I could really use the distraction because things aren’t going to work between me and hot PPO Gabriel. No matter how badly I want it to. He is currently in a plane flying around their camping area because Finley demanded he get to do the hike and camping trip truly alone with Lorelei. The PPOs followed him to the location before jumping in a small plane to periodically check on the crown prince.

It was at that moment I realized we wouldn’t work. He will have to go back to Korsa, and sure, I could follow, but still. His job would pull him away from me too much, and I know my sensitive soul can’t handle that. So here I lie in seas of sadness over yet another failed attempt at love…. To make matters worse, my boss just texted me. He wants me to plan another read-a-thon at the community center. Ugh, he needs to hire a new event coordinator already and quit using me. I’m just supposed to be the assistant. That’s what I was hired for. Granted, I do like encouraging the youth of today to read, and the extra pay is nice. Speaking of, if my sister does move to Korsa, how will I afford this place myself? I really need to sell more books.

This $300 a month for my books isn’t cutting it. So much to think about, but honestly, I don’t want to right now. I just want to throw the towel in on life and say forget it all. Help me out of this, God. Please. I’m slowly losing motivation to keep going.