36. Lucy’s Journal
Lucy’s Journal
Someday, June Something. * Who Cares * Void of Life
Hadley and Braxton are married. Karoline and Mason are married. As of yesterday, my sister is now engaged to the Crown Prince of Korsa… and I’m stuck staving off my playboy boss’ s attempted advances. It’s not that he isn’t extremely handsome and hot. It’s not even that I think he is a horrible human being. He runs a community center for disadvantaged kids for crying out loud. It’s the fact that I’ve seen him with so many women on his arm in the short year that I’ve known him. And he’s my boss. And he’s two years younger than me. That’s why I have to continually push him off. He’s just after the chase. He doesn’t actually care about me. That much is clear. I’m just another prize for him to win. Once I cave and he “gets” me, he will throw me away. I know his type, and I am at defense level 100 against it… Even if I choose to flirt back with him occasionally because he might be a wee bit fun to play with. But I’ll never admit that aloud.
But God…
Where is the man for me? I’m so lonely now, alone in this apartment. This is only the first night. Well, Lorelei left Frannie for me, but it’s not the same. Nothing is the same anymore. It feels like a dark, heavy weight is settling on my chest, suffocating me and beckoning me to the edge of a cliff. I don’t want to feel this way. Help me… Please, God. Help me. Not to need a man. Not to be so concerned that I’m lonely. Not to feel lonely.
I should reach out to Hadley. Or maybe even Emma Jane.
But why does it feel so hard to pick up the phone?