Four
Megan Bryce To Catch A Spinster
“R ule number one: You can tell no one of our arrangement.”
Nathaniel escorted Olivia through the park on his arm, her maid following discreetly. Since this was the first time her maid had ever acted as chaperone, she was doing remarkably well at keeping nearly out of sight. Olivia wondered idly if her mother had told the maid to stay as far away as possible. Olivia wouldn’t put it past her mother to think a slight scandal might move a marriage along.
“Of course, Olivia. A gentleman does not kiss and tell.”
She nodded. Yet one had to wonder how all the gossip started if not for a little kiss and tell. She knew of at least two young ladies whose reputations had been ruined by hearsay.
She would have to trust Nathaniel that he would not ruin her. Or, at least not tell anyone that he had ruined her.
“Rule number two: I may at any time decide not to go through with our agreement and you will respect that. I will, of course, still pay you.”
Nathaniel stopped in his tracks. “Do you think you’ll change your mind?”
“Well, I don’t know, do I? What if I find the marital act terrifying? One hears so many stories. I just would like your assurance that you’ll stop if I ask.”
“You won’t find it terrifying, Olivia. Thrilling, certainly. And you won’t want me to stop.” He pulled her hand back through his arm and continued walking. “However, if you wish to stop, I will. But mean it if you say it. Starting and stopping is very hard on a man.”
“I will certainly take that into consideration, Nathaniel. Hopefully it will not be necessary.”
Nathaniel nodded. “And you won’t be paying me.”
“I certainly will.”
“No, you won’t. I will not be a paid courtesan, a prostitute, or your mistress... master... Anyhow, I will not be paid.”
“Then why are you doing this? There’s nothing in it for you. I will not be charity.” Olivia glared at him. “Don’t laugh at me.”
“I’m not laughing at you. Women are paid for this kind of service because it is not always pleasurable for them. For a man it is. That will be my payment.”
“Hmm. I still think you should be paid.”
“No. That is final.”
Olivia sniffed, watching the other couples walking along the green. They all looked quite young. And hopeful. And young.
And most definitely innocent. She doubted any of them were having a conversation quite like theirs.
“There is one thing you haven’t thought of, Olivia. What if you become pregnant?”
She continued to look away from Nathaniel as she answered. She was really getting quite tired of blushing in front of him. “I have thought of it. I read somewhere that there is a precaution a man can take to prevent pregnancy. Do you know of it?”
Nathaniel cleared his throat. “Yes. It isn’t foolproof, though.”
Olivia had been afraid it wasn’t. Was it worth the risk? She took a deep breath. It was. If worse came to worst, she could visit relatives until the baby was due. She had five sisters, one of them would surely raise her baby if need be. Mary would, definitely.
“I hesitate to ask how you know such things, Olivia.”
“I do have–”
“And don’t tell me you have five brothers-in-law. I doubt any of them would have mentioned such a thing.”
She glanced at him, noting his dark expression. “Almost anything can be found in a book, Nathaniel.”
“Not any books you should be reading.”
True. She had an extremely naughty book hidden under a floorboard in her room. She might let him look at it when they knew each other a little better. She had a few questions for him.
“Well, I’ve read quite a few things I shouldn’t have. I will accept full responsibility should something unfortunate happen.”
He muttered, “Bloody hell,” and she ignored it. She was putting him in an extremely stressful situation after all.
She said, “Would you like me to pay you after all? I understand the method is not so pleasurable for the man.”
He was turning a bit red and his collar seemed to be bothering him. “No, you will not pay me.”
She patted his arm. “Of course, Nathaniel. I did not mean to insult your manly pride.”
This was really turning into more work than Olivia had planned.
They resumed walking and he said, “Was that the list, then? You only have two rules?”
“I did have a third one, but after last night’s demonstration I am no longer worried about your devotion to the project. I think we’ll do quite well together. Although, I’m certain I’ll think of more rules as situations arise.”
“I’m certain you will.”
“I would like to know why you changed your mind, though. You seemed quite put out with me when I originally asked.”
“You surprised me, Olivia. It was like having a dog come up and ask for its dinner. Wholly unsuspected.”
Olivia turned to stare at him. “Are you comparing me to a dog, sir? A talking dog? Surely it could not have been as unbelievable as that.”
Nathaniel grimaced. “That wasn’t what I meant. Of course I was not comparing you to a dog.”
“It sounded like you were.”
“I was not expecting a gently bred lady to proposition me. I was expecting you to talk about your stars, or since you wanted to be private, I was expecting you to try and compromise yourself.”
Olivia nodded. “I see. You expected a bark and instead found I could speak. Do the ladies often try and compromise themselves with you?”
“Not often, no.”
“You seem to have a low regard for my sex, Mr. Jenkins.”
“Or a very high regard for dogs.”
“I wonder, sir, why you are not married. It has left me quite baffled.”
He bent his head and laughed. His shoulders shook as he quietly gave in to the inevitable. Olivia tried very hard to keep her lips pursed.
“I apologize, Olivia. My charm has deserted me, it seems. If my mother knew I had just compared a lady to a dog, I’m sure she would disown me completely.”
“Which I’m sure you would deserve.”
“I would indeed. How may I make this up to you?”
Olivia patted his arm. “Let us simply forgive and forget. I believe the situation we find ourselves in will lend itself to the occasional social blunder.”
“Thank you, my dear. But perhaps a rest in this gazebo will show I am not completely without manners.”
“Thank you, Nathaniel. It is getting a bit warm. I’ve always thought gazebos so nice to cool down in.”
Nathaniel grinned, pulling her into his arms as soon as they entered. “I don’t think you’ll do much cooling down in this one.”
Her surprised look congratulated him as he slowly bent his head and touched his lips to hers. He gently flicked her upper lip with his tongue, expertly guiding it in at her gasp. His tongue flicked hers playfully.
Olivia grasped his lapels, breathing faster, daringly touching her tongue to his.
“Oh, Nathaniel. That is pleasant.”
He traced the back of her corset, sliding his fingers under her arms, tempting himself. She murmured something and stepped closer, crushing her chest against his. Nathaniel traced the rise of her breast and groaned.
Olivia’s maid called out and he pushed her away quickly. Her chest heaved as she tried to gulp down air.
She said, “So, this is the fascination with gazebos.”
“Yes, but we may be seen at any moment by someone other than your maid.”
“I think that is part of the fascination.”
He smiled as they exited and found her maid waiting, pointedly looking at the trees.
Nathaniel said, “Well, my dear. I believe you requested an escort to the opera. Will you join me?”
She wrinkled her nose, then squared her shoulders. “I did want the full experience and a night at the opera does seem de rigueur for courting couples. Thank you, Nathaniel, that will be... wonderful.”
Nathaniel had lost his mind. Or rather, he kept losing it whenever he went near Olivia Blakesley. He had meant to talk her out of getting seduced, not talk himself into it. But here he was, courting her, wooing her.
Taking her to the opera!
The last time he’d let his pants do the talking for him, he’d been eighteen and had come home with a black eye. If he continued with this mad scheme, he’d be coming home with a bullet in his gut from one of her brothers-in-law.
Madness. She was a gently-bred woman. An oddly-reared, stubborn, passionate, intelligent woman.
And he couldn’t help but feel that if he refused her, she would find some other man. Another man who might hurt her or her family.
He shook his head in disgust. He was grasping for straws here, any excuse that would let him do what he wanted.
Because he wanted her. Wanted her more than he’d wanted a woman in a very long time.
He had not felt so excited to be alive since his father had died. She shocked him, amused him, aroused him.
He wouldn’t hurt her, as some other men might. He would give her what she wanted; an experience to last a lifetime. No one would know, no one would be hurt. He could go ahead with his conscience clear.
And he would gag the voice in his head that was telling him that this would be the final nail in her spinster’s coffin.
Mary arrived later that evening to join them for dinner and stole up to Olivia’s bedroom to hear all the juicy details one couldn’t tell one’s mother. Since there were far too many juicy details one couldn’t tell one’s sister as well, Olivia glossed over her morning outing and went straight to the next planned encounter.
“You want to go to the opera?” Mary looked at her oddly. “Since when?”
“Since a handsome man asked me to attend with him.”
“Ah, of course. I should have expected that. Well, I’ll certainly join you, and Rufus, too. He loves the music.” Mary looked at Olivia’s pained face and laughed. “You did know there was singing involved, didn’t you?”
“I suspected. Is it awful?”
“It’s nothing like Prudence and her screeching, if that’s what you’re asking. You should ask Rufus to explain it before you go. I’ve actually started to enjoy it.”
“Poor Rufus, to be married into our unmusical family.”
“Mmm. Perhaps I should warn your Mr. Jenkins.”
“Perhaps I should bop you over the head with my telescope.”
Mary tsked at her. “So violent. Never fear, I won’t say a word to him about that. What will you be wearing? Mama says she almost got you to the dressmakers this week, but lost you to a bookseller on the way.”
“I told her before we went that I didn’t need any new dresses.”
Mary looked down at Olivia’s gray bombazine and raised an eyebrow. “Gray is not your color, Livvy. It makes you look deathly. I think you should take Mama up on the offer and get a nice spring yellow. You’d look lovely.”
Olivia made a face and gagged. “Yellow? Be serious, Mary. I am nearly eight and twenty. No spinster should wear bright yellow. It would just be sad.”
Mary looked at her crossly. “You are not a spinster, Olivia Blakesley. I hate when you say so.”
Olivia sighed. “I am. And what’s more I don’t mind. I don’t mind gray bombazine, either. I need never worry that I’ll stain it.”
“That’s because it’s ugly and no one would care if you burnt it. And I doubt Mr. Jenkins thinks you a spinster.”
“Mr. Jenkins is not exactly in the first flush of youth either.”
Mary laughed. “I don’t think you can say that about men, Livvy. He is more mature.”
Olivia agreed. He certainly was. And she got the distinct impression he liked her ugly dresses. He certainly talked encouragingly enough about getting her out of them.
She smiled as she followed Mary down to dinner. Even despite the looming threat of the opera, she could not wait until she could see Nathaniel again. He had already exceeded her greatest expectations.
She would just have to remember not to mention any more activities that she did not want to participate in. He was entirely too good a listener.