Chapter 29
Venom
I gently run my fingers up and down Raya’s back, the tips of my fingers touching her raised scars, while I watch her sleep on my chest, her face relaxed for the first time in so long.
After making love four times, giving only her the pleasure, she fell asleep with my dick still inside her. Now it’s flopped on my stomach, half-mast, twitching to go again and again, between us, but I ignore it because this is the most rest she’s had all week.
Raya hums in her sleep, moving her head so her nose touches my neck, and I smile as I run my other hand through her hair.
How did I ignore my feelings for her for so long?
How could I believe she was using my sister to get a cut?
I’m a fucking idiot, is what I am.
My phone rings, and while keeping one hand on Raya’s back, I quickly grab it with my other, it’s Blade, I answer quietly, “Yeah?”
“How is she?” he replies instantly, and I smile slightly.
It didn’t go unnoticed when the bride had disappeared during her own impromptu wedding reception, and the brothers began to worry, especially Psycho, who still feels guilty over his words.
I wasn’t as concerned because I knew she just needed time.
So much has fucking happened in the past few weeks, her head is all over the place.
Add in me proposing the way I did after her second therapy session.
It was the first time she actually had a conversation with me, and I couldn’t fucking lose her, it’s natural to feel overwhelmed by all of that.
I didn’t plan on sleeping with her tonight when I walked into our room.
I planned to hold her and whisper sweet nothings to her, help her get used to my touch slowly while she was awake because in her sleep she gravitates towards me.
As soon as I realized she was scared she couldn’t give herself to me, thought that I deserved more than her…
I needed to prove her wrong and I hope I did because she melted into me while I finally felt like I was home.
“Doing alright,” I admit, “she was in her head when I came to find her, so I thought it was best to stay in the room before she got bombarded with a lot of questions.”
“I understand, so do the brothers, the women though, they’re worried about her,” Blade says quietly, and I sigh.
“Let me guess, Ivy?” I confirm, and he hums and replies, “Yep, she kicked up a stink, a fucking big one at that, to the point Psycho finally snapped at her, reminding her that her friend needed some time to herself with her new husband.”
“Fuck, I bet she loved that,” I mutter.
I love my sister, I really do, everyone does to be fair.
But we knew she had some growing and maturing to do.
She kept Clara’s stupid ass plan from Psycho, along with the fact that she was pregnant with his baby and expected him to read her mind and come save her.
Don’t even get me started on her refusing to tell Psycho about her feelings growing up.
He had to read her mind, again, and fight for her when she knew he thought her dreams were to leave Rose Meadow and he was trying to put her first.
“She can see Raya when Raya is ready,” I mutter, and he hums again, but this time in agreement before he says, “I called not just to make sure she was alright but also to see if you wanted to put a hold on the run with the Carnage MC or see if a brother can take your place?”
I look down at my girl to see her eyes already on me and smile at her, not surprised she woke up.
I continue to run my fingers up and down her back, showing here the scars don’t bother me.
I reply, “Actually, brother, I was wondering if I could get the club's agreement for Raya to go on the run with me on the back of my bike.”
Raya’s eyes widen as she sits up a little, her breasts still snug against my chest, breasts that I really want to suck on right now, and Blade chuckles.
“I thought you may say something like that,” he admits, “and no need for a club vote, you want your wife with you, then take her, maybe some time away will do some good. She has time off at the station, right?”
“She does,” I say, “Tom gave her the month off after saving Huddy, and school is still out. It’ll also do us good, especially with Angel still trying to claim she’s pregnant.”
“Okay, then take her,” he says, and I grin wide while Raya looks at me with awe, and he says, “And don’t worry about Angel, her time is coming up at the strip club, Viper, and I have come up with a plan for after the run.
Now, I’ll leave you two to it and keep the women away until you both get back. ”
“Thanks, brother,” I mumble as I gently trace Raya's lips with the tip of my finger, then hang up before putting my phone back on the nightstand without taking my eyes off my beautiful wife.
“I thought women were forbidden to go on club runs,” she whispers, and I hum and admit, “They are, but no other brother can do what I do, Uncle Cannon is away for the week, and I really can’t put the run on hold again,” I frown, “Though you do have a therapy session…”
Shit, maybe I should call Blade back and rearrange the run. I mean, it isn’t like the Carnage MC needs the ammo ASAP.
“I can do a remote call,” Raya says, “I won’t miss the session, and this way,” she clears her throat, “maybe this way you can be a part of it and hear everything I’ve been too scared to say.”
Fuck, this girl…
I move slightly and pull Raya up my body, making her gasp, before I guide her to straddle me, lining myself up at her entrance and pull her down, my cock bottoming out, making her tense, before she relaxes when I gently pull her body against my chest.
That’s fucking better.
“You sure?” I ask, knowing how hard therapy is going for her, and she’s only been twice, and she nods and admits, “I’m sure, I think having you around for the call will do me some good,” she twitches her nose, “I’ve been feeling lost, Cale.”
Fuck, the sadness in her eyes kills me.
“I know, kitten, and it is all understandable. For ten years, you’ve only had one goal, and now that goal is completed. You need to try and continue on with your life with me by your side, and I will help you, I promise.”
She nods before she leans down, putting her head on my shoulder as her lips gently caress my neck, where her name is, sending shivers down my spine and my cock twitches inside her before she asks, “What’s happening with Angel?”
“Didn’t miss that, huh?” I confirm as I wrap my arms around her again, she snorts before admitting, “To be honest, I kind of forgot about her.”
I sigh as I run my fingers through her hair, my hand on her back still gently moving up and down, and I confess, “She sent me an ultrasound photo when you were missing.”
Raya tenses, and I quickly hold her tightly before she can move herself, and I admit, “I logged into the hospital database, she isn’t pregnant, kitten, they confirmed it, and confirmed she never was, despite her claims. I didn’t get her pregnant, kitten.”
“It’s not that,” she says, “he mentioned that he slept with her bare to get her pregnant so you’d make her your woman.”
I snort, “How exactly would that work? I slept with her months ago, and even then, I softened. I didn’t come.”
“That is way too much information, Cale!” Raya snaps, and I grin before I move my head and caress my lips against her forehead and murmur, “Sorry, kitten…” And she huffs, her breath fanning my skin, making goosebumps appear. I try not to smirk at her jealousy,
It’s a reaction I never knew I would like.
“When did you first realize you loved me?” Raya asks a few minutes later as she traces her name on my skin, and I smile softly.
“You were fifteen,” I admit, making her snort, “Dirty old pervert,” and I gently pinch her arm, making her giggle.
Fuck me, it’s like music to my ears.
“In my head anyway, that is when I realized. My heart, however, I think it was a lot sooner because every time you were near, I was compelled to move beside you,” I whisper, “Anyway, Ivy had just snuck out to meet you at the library and I lost it.
Dad called me out on it, and I denied my feelings instantly, but deep down, I knew I was jealous because she got to see you that day and I didn't. That’s the night she called and claimed you had to have your appendix removed which, I guess wasn't a lie because they did remove it and I envied my sister more so for being there for you and I couldn't. I just had no idea the horror you were going through, the fight you decided to take on.”
Raya’s quiet for a moment before she admits, “I had two wishes that day, when I was lying in that hospital bed...”
I don’t stop moving my hand as I ask, “And what were they, kitten?”
She takes a deep breath, the coldness of her bracelet, which I bought her for her twenty-fifth birthday, sending goosebumps over my skin once more as she moves her hand across my chest, keeping it over my heart.
“For my dad to come back and hold me,” she confesses quietly, and my heart breaks for her, but it soon accelerates when she admits, “and for you to finally notice me, to be mine.”
“Kitten, I noticed you, if I didn’t, I wouldn’t have treated you the way I did,” I murmur, and she hums and whispers, “I wanted to hate you over the years, to deny the way you made me feel. Instead of being my love, my crush, I left those emotions behind and hate took their place.”
“And now here you are, my wife,” I say cockily, and she snorts but nods and agrees, “Your wife,” as she looks up at me, “Thank you for causing so much crap over the years, Cale,” I raise a brow and she smirks, “I may have gotten bored of you if you hadn’t.”
“Little devil,” I say, and she laughs as I quickly move us, putting her on her back, my cock still deep inside of her, and she grins at me despite the tension in her body at the new position. Tension I know she doesn’t mean to have, and I admit, “I missed hearing your laugh, missed your sassiness.”
Her icy blue eyes soften, and she whispers, “You always bring it out of me, including my anger, my frustration, everything. It has always been you, Cale.”
“I love you, kitten, and spending three days with you on the back of my bike, fuck, I cannot wait,” I reply, and she smiles wide before I lean down and kiss her passionately.
Raya links her arm around my neck, cupping it, and the coldness of her wedding ring sending shivers running through me, it does something to me every time I feel it on my skin.
I thrust my hips, not too quickly to bring back painful memories but quick enough to give her pleasure. She moans in my mouth as her arousal spreads between us, only making our kiss hotter, hungrier, and we end up having the best sex of our fucking lives, full of passion, love, and ecstasy.
Forever, I’m going to spend forever with this girl. I am one lucky fucker that she never gave up on me.