Chapter 8 #2
I hadn’t traveled across more than half a century to save just one of them.
And so what if he saw me coming? I was the man with the gun, he was the man with the hammer—probably filched from the tool drawer at his boardinghouse.
If he ran at me, that would be good. I’d be like a rodeo clown, distracting the bull.
I’d caper and yell until he got in range, then put two in his chest.
Assuming I was able to pull the trigger, that was.
And assuming the gun worked. I’d test-fired it in a gravel pit on the outskirts of town, and it seemed fine… but the past is obdurate.
It doesn’t want to change.
4
Upon further consideration, I thought there might be an even better location for my Halloween-night stakeout.
I’d need a little luck, but maybe not too much.
God knows there’s plenty for sale in these parts, bartender Fred Toomey had said on my first night in Derry.
My explorations had borne that out. In the wake of the murders (and the big flood of ’57, don’t forget that), it seemed that half the town was for sale.
In a less standoffish burg, a supposed real-estate buyer like myself probably would have been given a key to the city and a wild weekend with Miss Derry by now.
One street I hadn’t checked out was Wyemore Lane, a block south of Kossuth Street. That meant the Wyemore backyards would abut on Kossuth backyards. It couldn’t hurt to check.
Though 206 Wyemore, the house directly behind the Dunnings’, was occupied, the one next to it on the left—202—looked like an answered prayer.
The gray paint was fresh and the shingles were new, but the shutters were closed up tight.
On the freshly raked lawn was a yellow-and-green sign I’d seen all over town: FOR SALE BY DERRY HOME REAL ESTATE SPECIALISTS.
This one invited me to call Specialist Keith Haney and discuss financing.
I had no intention of doing that, but I parked my Sunliner in the newly asphalted driveway (someone was going all-out to sell this one) and walked into the backyard, head up, shoulders back, big as Billy-be-damned.
I had discovered many things while exploring my new environment, and one of them was that if you acted like you belonged in a certain place, people thought you did.
The backyard was nicely mowed, the leaves raked away to showcase the velvety green.
A push lawnmower had been stored under the garage overhang with a swatch of green tarpaulin tucked neatly over the rotary blades.
Beside the cellar bulkhead was a doghouse with a sign on it that showed Keith Haney at his don’t-miss-a-trick best: YOUR POOCH BELONGS HERE.
Inside was a pile of unused leaf-bags with a garden trowel and a pair of hedge clippers to hold them down.
In 2011, the tools would have been locked away; in 1958, someone had taken care to see they were out of the rain and called it good.
I was sure the house was locked, but that was okay.
I had no interest in breaking and entering.
At the far end of 202 Wyemore’s backyard was a hedge about six feet tall.
Not quite as tall as I was, in other words, and although it was luxuriant, a man could force his way through easily enough if he didn’t mind a few scratches.
Best of all, when I walked down to the far right corner, which was behind the garage, I was able to look on a diagonal into the backyard of the Dunning house.
I saw two bicycles. One was a boy’s Schwinn, leaning on its kickstand.
The other, lying on its side like a dead pony, was Ellen Dunning’s.
There was no mistaking the training wheels.
There was also a litter of toys. One of them was Harry Dunning’s Daisy air rifle.
5
If you’ve ever acted in an amateur stage company—or directed student theatricals, which I had several times while at LHS—you’ll know what the days leading up to Halloween were like for me.
At first, rehearsals have a lazy feel. There’s improvisation, joking, horseplay, and a good deal of flirting as sexual polarities are established.
If someone flubs a line or misses a cue in those early rehearsals, it’s an occasion for laughter.
If an actor shows up fifteen minutes late, he or she might get a mild reprimand, but probably nothing more.
Then opening night begins to seem like an actual possibility instead of a foolish dream.
Improv falls away. So does the horseplay, and although the jokes remain, the laughter that greets them has a nervous energy that was missing before.
Flubbed lines and missed cues begin to seem exasperating rather than amusing.
An actor arriving late for rehearsal once the sets are up and opening night is only days away is apt to get a serious reaming from the director.
The big night comes. The actors put on their costumes and makeup.
Some are outright terrified; all feel not quite prepared.
Soon they will have to face a roomful of people who have come to see them strut their stuff.
What seemed distant in the days of bare-stage blocking has come after all.
And before the curtain goes up, some Hamlet, Willy Loman, or Blanche DuBois will have to rush into the nearest bathroom and be sick. It never fails.
Trust me on the sickness part. I know.
6
In the small hours of Halloween morning, I found myself not in Derry but on the ocean.
A stormy ocean. I was clinging to the rail of a large vessel—a yacht, I think—that was on the verge of foundering.
Rain driven by a howling gale was sheeting into my face.
Huge waves, black at their bases and a curdled, foamy green on top, rushed toward me.
The yacht rose, twisted, then plummeted down again with a wild corkscrewing motion.
I woke from this dream with my heart pounding and my hands still curled from trying to hold onto the rail my brain had dreamed up.
Only it wasn’t just my brain, because the bed was still going up and down.
My stomach seemed to have come unmoored from the muscles that were supposed to hold it in place.
At such moments, the body is almost always wiser than the brain.
I threw back the covers and sprinted for the bathroom, kicking over the hateful yellow chair as I sped through the kitchen.
My toes would be sore later, but right then I barely felt it.
I tried to lock my throat shut, but only partially succeeded.
I could hear a weird sound seeping through it and into my mouth.
Ulk-ulk-urp-ulk was what it sounded like.
My stomach was the yacht, first rising and then taking those horrible corkscrew drops.
I fell on my knees in front of the toilet and threw up my dinner.
Next came lunch and yesterday’s breakfast: oh God, ham and eggs.
At the thought of all that shining grease, I retched again.
There was a pause, and then what felt like everything I’d eaten for the last week left the building.
Just as I began to hope it was over, my bowels gave a terrible liquid wrench. I stumbled to my feet, batted down the toilet ring, and managed to sit before everything fell out in a watery splat.
But no. Not everything, not yet. My stomach took another giddy heave just as my bowels went to work again. There was only one thing to do, and I did it: leaned forward and vomited into the sink.
It went on like that until noon of Halloween day. By then both of my ejection-ports were producing nothing but watery gruel. Each time I threw up, each time my bowels cramped, I thought the same thing: The past does not want to be changed. The past is obdurate.
But when Frank Dunning arrived tonight, I meant to be there. Even if I was still heaving and shitting graywater, I meant to be there. Even if it killed me, I meant to be there.
7
Mr. Norbert Keene, proprietor of the Center Street Drug, was behind the counter when I came in on that Friday afternoon.
The wooden paddle-fan over his head lifted what remained of his hair in a wavery dance: cobwebs in a summer breeze.
Just looking at that made my abused stomach give another warning lurch.
He was skinny inside his white cotton smock—almost emaciated—and when he saw me coming, his pale lips creased in a smile.
“You look a little under the weather, my friend.”
“Kaopectate,” I said in a hoarse voice that didn’t sound like my own. “Do you have it?” Wondering if it had even been invented yet.
“Are we suffering a little touch of the bug?” The overhead light caught in the lenses of his small rimless spectacles and skated around when he moved his head.
Like butter across a skillet, I thought, and at that my stomach gave another lunge.
“It’s been going around town. You’re in for a nasty twenty-four hours, I’m afraid.
Probably a germ, but you may have used a public convenience and forgotten to wash your hands. So many people are lazy about th—”
“Do you have Kaopectate or not?”
“Of course. Second aisle.”
“Continence pants—what about those?”
The thin-lipped grin spread out. Continence pants are funny, of course they are. Unless, of course, you’re the one who needs them. “Fifth aisle. Although if you stay close to home, you won’t need them. Based on your pallor, sir… and the way you’re sweating… it might be wiser to do that.”
“Thanks,” I said, and imagined socking him square in the mouth and knocking his dentures down his throat. Suck on a little Polident, pal.