Outside
Leaves all around me, the wind in the trees. It should be quiet but I can’t stop crying.
How totally fucking stupid I was to think that you’d understand how important it is.
I saw her. HER. She came into the garden while I was there. I had to move so fast to get out of sight but what the FUCK?!
You didn’t tell me this.
HOW WAS I MEANT TO KNOW?!
Maybe you can’t get rid of her, maybe she’s clinging on like some fucking PARASITE.
You know what they do with parasites . . .
All I want is for you to tell me she doesn’t understand you, that’s all I need. I know how that works, living with someone who makes it so hard.
Now I’m feeling sorry for you. Isn’t that funny?
Only a few minutes ago I was so angry I was ready to kill you, but now I understand it properly.
It’s not your fault. You knew her before.
I guess you weren’t to know that there would be someone better out there for you, someone perfect. The other half to your whole.
I’m not sure you’ve realised it yet. Men don’t always know what’s best for them.
It’s as well I do know. And I’m going to make sure it happens.