Chapter 2 #2
“Don’t say I’m fragile. I’m not made of fucking glass,” I clip out.
“What if I want you to touch me? That bastard almost took something from me I could never get back. But he didn’t break me.
” I swallow the vise that threatens to choke me.
“I want you. Please!” I don’t care if I sound desperate.
I know that a man’s hands on me is not something I should want in this moment, not after what that scumbag tried taking from me.
The sad reality is that we live in a world ruled by men, and society stigmatizes women who embrace their sexuality. Let’s not even talk about seeking that sort of connection after being sexually assaulted. The accusing fingers somehow always turn on the victim.
What was she wearing? How short was her dress? What did she do to attract his attention?
She was asking for it.
She’s a slut.
She wanted it.
These words kindle a spark inside me that picks up speed until it becomes a firestorm. Why should I let them dictate how I heal? Aren’t women’s bodies policed enough as is? Well, fuck everyone who thinks they can tell me what I can and cannot do with my body. They don’t own me.
My body, my fucking choice.
I push away the shame and the dirty feeling that clings to me like a petrol stain. “I am choosing this. Your touch is what I need right now. Erase him from my skin, Kaiden.”
His fingers twitch as if it’s physically painful not to make a move toward me.
“Plea—”
Kaiden disappears and blinks into existence on top of me, settling between my thighs while caging me in, bracing his weight on his forearms. He slants his lips over mine in a scorching kiss that sets me ablaze.
My head spins as his silken tongue dances expertly against mine, and I lose myself in this blissful moment.
He flips us. The yelp of surprise I let out as he settles me on top of his hips turns into a pained grunt when my ribs scream in protest.
“Fuck. I’m so sor—”
“I’m fine.”
“Okay. If we do this, Iris, you’ll have to take everything you want from me. You’re in the driver’s seat, and I’m the luckiest son of a bitch in the world, riding along on the best journey of my life. I will not make a move unless you tell me to.”
I sink my teeth into my lower lip, unsure what to do next, letting Kaiden’s words wash over me. Determination soon settles in, and even though I’m insecure as fuck because of my limited experience, I won’t let it ruin this moment for me.
I discard my tee on the floor. “I want your hands and mouth on my breasts. I love it when you suck my nipples.”
His gaze smolders as it rakes over my curves.
“You’re pure perfection, angel. Nothing in this world compares to your beauty.
” Kaiden props himself up against the pillow in a sitting position beneath me.
His hands glide to my breasts, his thumbs circling my areolas.
Dipping down, his breath ghosts against my skin before his lips latch onto my nipple.
A desperate whimper tumbles free from my parted lips in response.
He alternates between them, sucking, biting, and licking until I’m a dripping, soaking mess over his hard body.
“I can’t take it anymore. Touch me. Please.”
“Where do you want me to touch you, angel?”
“You know…”
“Say it!” he commands in a raspy voice.
“On my pussy.” Anticipation for what’s to come makes me feel like a string pulled too tight on a bow, ready to snap at any moment. “Please!” I cry out.
His fingers travel to the space between my legs, but he just holds them there.
I let out a frustrated huff. “Slide your thumb over my clit and use your fingers to fuck me.”
He smirks as he sinks two thick fingers inside me.
He draws them all the way back out and then pushes them back in, setting an unrelenting pace, curling them against my front wall, and reaching a spot that makes me see stars.
I moan when his thumb starts tracing wet circles on my pulsing clit. But I need more.
“Stop,” I tell him, and Kaiden obeys. Chest bouncing, I say, “I want your mouth on my pussy. Now!”
“Fuck me. You’re spectacular when you’re bossy.” He gives me a roguish smile that steals the breath from my lungs, then he settles back on the pillow, knitting his fingers beneath his head.
“What are you doing?”
“You said you wanted my mouth. So come ride my face, love.”
“Oh.” He wasn’t kidding when he said I’m in the driver’s seat.
As I’m about to move, an idea pops into my head.
I slide off Kaiden’s basketball shorts before throwing them on the floor on top of my T-shirt.
His massive cock juts out, and my mouth waters.
I need to taste him. I’m so nervous my whole body is shaking, but what the hell…
he told me to get what I want. So I do just that.
I turn around, straddle Kaiden backwards, and sit on his face, my pussy directly over his mouth.
I put all my weight on my elbow while using my other hand to grip the base of his shaft, and I take him into my mouth to the back of my throat.
Kaiden lets out a surprised hiss as a violent shudder wracks his body.
This time, I don’t gag. I would pat myself on the back if I could.
Flattening my tongue, I run it along the underside of his cock before I stop at the crown and swirl it around the tip.
Then, I suck it as if it’s a lollipop, his piercing cold against my heated skin.
“Fuck, angel! You’re going to be the death of me. That feels so good.” His fingers bite into my ass cheeks as he inhales me deeply. “You’re dripping all over my mouth. Is this all for me?”
I mumble a response around his length as I bob my head up and down.
My toes curl when his wicked tongue sneaks out and licks the length of my slit. “C’mon, angel, ride my face. I want to suffocate in your cum.”
Gyrating my hips over his mouth, I suck Kaiden off like it’s the last thing I’ll do. He moves his tongue in mind-numbing circles around my clit and then brings it down to my entrance, spearing it before sliding it in and out of me. Pleasure obliterates my synapses. My back arches.
I cry out as the release burns through me with the power of a ravaging wildfire, leaving me in a pile of ashes.
I’m sure the entire building can hear me.
But I simply don’t give a fuck. The groan Kaiden lets out as he follows me over the edge is sexy as fuck.
I swallow greedily the jetting salty ropes of cum.
He slows his pace but doesn’t stop until he draws out the last aftershock and twitch from my body.
I feel him move as I float a few inches above the bed before losing my grasp on reality.
When I come back to my senses, Kaiden is lying down next to me, his head propped on his bent arm. The glint in his eyes is electric as his knuckles caress the side of my face. “So beautiful. So responsive,” he says, voice low, hypnotic. “Can I kiss you?”
“Yeah,” I breathe, and he closes the gap between us.
I can taste myself on his tongue. We kiss and kiss and kiss until we become a storm of battling tongues, writhing bodies, and tangled limbs.
I don’t know where I end and he begins. Soon enough, the fire that was quenched inside me a few moments ago is stoked anew.
I let my fingers coast down before wrapping them around Kaiden’s throbbing erection.
He shudders in response as we continue kissing.
I pull back after a few moments. “I want you. All of you.”
His Adam’s apple bobs hard in his throat. “Are you sure?”
“I am.”
A deep frown etches on his forehead. “I don’t have condoms.”
“I’m on the shot,” I tell him. “They’re mandatory for all members who date outside the Order.
So, if you’re clean…we don’t have to use a condom.
” The Order only allows us to date humans if we don’t marry or have children.
Very few do, though. I was the only one in Ashville—yet another thing that makes me an outcast.
“I’m clean.”
“Well, I’ve never had sex before, so I’m clean too,” I blurt out, then cringe. I didn’t intend to ever tell him that.
He sucks in a sharp breath. “What? You’re a virgin? I mean…I felt how tight you were, but I never assumed…And you want me to be your first?” he rasps.
Sawing my lower lip between my teeth, I nod, not knowing what to say as the heat in my cheeks spreads all the way to the tips of my ears.
“Fuck, angel. You wreck me,” he says, emotion threading his voice.
Kaiden snaps his eyes shut. When he opens them again, the blazing crimson and gold in the obsidian void makes me melt into the mattress.
“I don’t deserve you, but I’m going to take everything you’re willing to give me because you’re everything I ever wanted. Everything I ever dreamed about.”
He watches me through heavy lids as I straddle him and slide my clit over his length, rocking up and down, using my arousal as lubrication.
Needing to feel his skin against mine, I lean forward.
We’re chest to chest. Hearts pounding at the same ardent rhythm.
My hand trembles as I position the head of his fat cock to my entrance and try to slide down, but it doesn’t work.
I’m too tight, and he is too big. A cry rips out of me.
Chancing a look down, I realize he’s only halfway in.
Frustrated tears spring to my eyes while my muscles tense up. “Fuck!”
Kaiden interlaces our fingers. “Relax, angel,” he murmurs in the shell of my ear. “Can I touch you?”
I nod through a sharp inhale.
His hand glides down between us to the apex of my thighs.
His taut muscles, and bulging veins show he’s barely restraining himself, but he doesn’t move.
He just lets me adjust to his size as he circles my clit while his lips trace a fiery path on the column of my throat.
Under the maddening assault on my nerve endings, my muscles relax.
The pained whimpers are soon replaced by wanton moans.
Craving more of him, I undulate my hips slowly. Pleasure entwines with pain.
“Fuck me, Kaiden,” I pant. “I need you to move. Please!”
“Is my angel desperate for my cock?”
“Yes!”
Kaiden lets out a sharp curse as I begin riding him with abandon.
“Your pussy was made for me, Iris.” Thrust. “You’re taking my cock so well.
” Thrust “You’re so tight.” Thrust. “So goddamn perfect!” Thrust. “You unravel me. I would do anything for you. Anything.” Every roll of his hips has his piercing hitting my G-spot.
Sparks fly between us while the sounds of pleasure echo off the walls.
“So good…aaah…Kaiden.” I meet every thrust, chasing the high desperately, begging for more.
And harder. And deeper. He is a sight to behold, jaw slack, pouty lips parted, and eyes at half-mast. A fine sheen of perspiration coats his glorious body as his muscles ripple under me.
Kaiden drowning in our shared ecstasy will forever be etched onto my brain.
“Be a good girl and come all over my cock, angel!”
He pushes me to the brink of madness, and I lose myself in his rapture. The orgasm rips through me like a tsunami. His name tumbles from my lips as my walls pulse against his cock.
“Fuuuuuuuck,” Kaiden growls while his body shudders, his cum filling me to the brink.
Our gazes lock. Lips parting on a shaky inhale, something flashes in the confinement of his irises.
It’s equal parts awe and disbelief. There’s also something more that I can’t quite put my finger on, but it enthralls me as if I’m spellbound.
Our connection runs deeper than anything I have ever felt, like our souls are reaching for each other and grasping on for dear life.
He frames my face and kisses me so slowly, so reverently, as if he’s afraid I might disappear.
One of his arms bands across my middle while the other caresses my nape.
If the first kiss we shared was transcendental, now I feel as though he’s imprinted himself in the very fabric of my soul. And I know without a doubt that my fear has come true. Kaiden has ruined me for anyone else. I am forever altered by him.
“How are you feeling?” he asks after a few beats of silence.
“Sore, but it was worth it,” I say on a giddy sigh before placing a soft kiss at the hollow of his throat.
“Do you want me to run you another bath?”
“Too tired,” I mumble and burrow my nose in the crook of his neck, inhaling deeply.
The heady scent of sex mingled with his cologne is the best kind of drug shooting up my veins.
When he threads his fingers through my hair, it only takes seconds for me to fall asleep in Kaiden’s arms. At some point, his body heat is gone, and I feel a warm, wet cloth between my legs, but I’m too busy floating in a galaxy of pleasure to care.