Chapter 99- His Sacrifice
By the time I walked out of my father's office, I felt like a man whose heart had been ripped out of him, I felt lifeless, empty even. I didn't see a need to keep going. I just wanted to die.
I thought I was in control of the situation, I thought I had a hold of everything but…but he won this one.
I was in a tight fit with nowhere to move, I was blocked, he blocked me and there was no escape. A kind of pain that I've never experienced before shot through my chest. It wasn't physical pain, I didn't even feel this way when my brother died, I felt pain, anger, guilt but none of them compared to the one I was feeling right now. I felt like the very essence of my life was taken away from me.
My vision blurred as I opened my car door and got in. I couldn't hold in the tears, I let them fall as I rested my head on the steering wheel.
How could he do something like this to me? He was my father and he's supposed to care about my happiness but obviously he doesn't, he doesn't fucking care about me.
How could he? How Could he?
What am I going to tell Anna after all the promises I've made to her, I promise to protect her, I promise to make her happy, how then am I going to face her?
She's supposed to be my wife, the only woman I want. Why was fate being so cruel to me?
I don't want this, I really don't want this but there was no way around it, I was doing this for her good, for everyone's good. I didn't want to live with guilt, I wouldn't be able to.
She'll be happy without me, she'll find someone else to make her happy. But the thought…the thought of someone else making her happy made the pain in my chest a thousand times painful.
I didn't want her to be happy with someone else, I wanted her to be happy with me, only me.
“ Fuck!" I cursed as the tears kept falling.
I hate him, I hate my father, I told him that to his face, I told him to never call me his son because I wasn't. You only call someone you care about ‘son’ ; you don't need to be related to someone for that.
I started the car as I wiped my eyes and drove off.
I couldn't face Anna after all this, I wouldn't be able to look into her eyes and she'd immediately know that something was up. I know I wouldn't be able to handle the look in her eyes, the betrayal.
I didn't keep to my words, I'm such a loser. I kept driving, not caring where I was going, I just felt numb and lifeless.
There was no hope for me.
The thought of Anna getting over me and falling in love with me made me stop the car as I came out and screamed.
“ No! No! Fucking no!"
I dragged my hair in frustration as thoughts after thoughts of Anna being with another man came rushing to my head. It was driving me crazy.
I needed a drink.
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All day I've been trying to reach Cole but after countless calls he didn't pick up his call. I was worried, this has never happened before that I'd have to call him more than twice before he picks his call. They say there's always a first for something but this was just too much.
He told me he was going to see his friend but didn't tell me which friend.
How can I know where he is? I don't know if something came up and they had to take care of something together. He didn't even leave a message.
I sighed in frustration as I began pacing his office. Where could he possibly be? What is he doing?
Busy of course.
Busy? No, no matter how busy Cole was I know he would have messaged me if everything was alright. Something was definitely wrong and I'll find out what it was.
Wait! His phone has a tracker, I should be able to track it. Without thinking too much of it, I searched for his location and thankfully it was on.
His location showed that he was at the penthouse. Without wasting any more time, I quickly took my bag as I rushed out of his office.
I got into the elevator as I patiently waited for it to reach down.
As soon as it reached the ground floor, I was running, as I made my way to my car and got in then I started it and drove away, heading to the penthouse.
“ Fuck!" I cursed when I saw that there was traffic.
“Not now please” I groaned in frustration. The cars were moving too slow.
By the time I reached the penthouse I was feeling all different types of emotions that I just wanted to scream but I controlled myself, the priority right now was Cole.
I got into the elevator and it felt like the longest wait I've had to endure in my life because the penthouse was at the top of the building.
When the elevator finally reached I felt like I would cry as I walked out and headed to the door. I placed my hand on the door and it opened as I rushed inside.
“ Cole! Cole!" I called as I looked around but didn't see him or hear his voice.
I thought the tracker said he was here? Was it wrong?
“ Cole, are you here?" I asked almost on the verge of tears when I heard a cold voice from behind me.
“ What are you doing here?"