Chapter 121- Lonely Hero
“ Sammy baby, why are you up?" I said as I quickly rushed to him, I didn't want him to ever see us fighting.
“ Did mummy do something bad?" he asked as he looked at Mirabel before turning to me.
“ No, mummy didn't do anything bad, we were just talking," I said as I ran my fingers through his.
" Really?” He asked and I nodded.
" Yes, let's get you back in bed,” I said as I carried him, then I turned to Mirabel to see that she just rolled her eyes and then she walked away.
So much for being a mother. She just cares about the marriage and barely performs her duties as a mom.
I opened Sammy's room door and I laid him on his bed.
“ Daddy, do you love mummy?" he suddenly asked and I tensed, I couldn't lie to my son and at the same time I didn't want to hurt his feelings.
“ Are you jealous? I love you, you don't have to worry," I said as I looked down at him with a smile and he smiled back.
“ I love you too Dad, you're the best hero in the world," he said with a cheeky smile and for some reason his smile reminded me of her. So beautiful and pure.
“ So you're saying your Daddy is better than Captain America?" I asked him and he nodded and I couldn't help but laugh. Captain America was his favorite hero, so him telling me I was his best made my heart full.
I stayed with him until he went back to sleep. I drew the blanket up his chin and then I kissed him on his forehead before walking out of his room and quietly closing the door.
I was about to walk to my room when I noticed Mirabel talking to someone over the phone and she looked pretty angry.
I wanted to ignore the call but my legs had a mind of their own as they started walking to where she was.
“ Do something, just fucking do something," she said in anger as she started pacing.
“ Don't tell me that, are you insane? It's been…no, no, fuck off, you're annoying the hell out of me,”
Who was she talking to and most importantly what was she talking about?
“ I want results, stop talking…” I quickly hid myself when she turned and then she walked past where I was hiding as she headed to her room.
What was this woman up to?
I didn't think too much of it, I just walked to my room to rest for the night.
As soon as I closed my door her words started ringing in my head.
She was pregnant for me and I didn't know. I'm just thinking, what would I have done if I found out she was pregnant back then? Would I have found a way around the situation?
And what's even worse, someone took the child. Who could have done something like that? Could it be that my Dad knew about the child? Can he do something like that?
I rubbed my face in frustration as I walked to my bed and fell on it in exhaustion.
I have to find a way around this, I have to look for my son. If that's the only thing I can do for Anna after all the things she went through because of me.
I'll find our son, even if it's the last thing I do.
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I jumped up again, awoken by the same nightmare but this time it was worse.
My son was crying, calling for me to help him, to save him from the people that took him but I couldn't even see his face, I could only hear his cry of agony, his cry of pain.
I just felt it in my heart that he needs me.
I sat up in bed as I thought back to that beautiful day, the day I welcomed my son, how my heart felt when I held him close to me.
I'd give anything to hold him again, to feel him in my arms.
Can the earth just hear my cry already and give me my child? It's been too long, too, too long.