Date Tuesday 21 February Time 11.45am
My thoughts and reflections:
Again, The Guide has come through for me.
At least this seems like a simple fix. I’ve cancelled all my evening plans for the rest of this week and told Drunk Stephen I won’t be going for lunches with him because I have to rebalance.
He assumed it’s because I’m tired from a sex marathon with Guy Carmichael.
Well, it’s less of an assumption and more that I pretty much told him that on the train yesterday, but it was an excuse for not talking to him much.
I was still feeling angry with Matthew and I couldn’t share it with Drunk Stephen without telling him why and I doubted I’d get much sympathy from him when he realised I’d effectively compromised his job.
Guy texted last night to say sorry he’d had to rush off without breakfast and that he had a crazy week, but that works to my advantage in terms of ‘enjoying solitude’.
Now I’ve looked up energy vampires, it explains a lot about why the manifesting hasn’t gone smoothly.
Must stay out of the way of Astrid (critical), the twins (innocent), Yaz (talker), Lydia (dominating), Cara (victim), Drunk Stephen (dramatiser), all the design team (manipulators) and obviously won’t have anything further to do with Matthew Lloyd (narcissist).
It’s actually extremely alarming how prevalent energy vampires are – they’re literally everywhere.
I’m hard pushed to think of an interaction where someone hasn’t been stealing my energy. Mum’s been robbing it since birth.
I’ve already said no several times this morning – Alice, can we have that cover brief?
No. Alice, would you be happy to take us through how the shoot went?
No. Is it okay if I sit here? No. And whilst people have looked a bit surprised, I’ve had a great time.
I probably need to learn to say no a lot more. Haven’t tried it on Astrid yet though.
I haven’t even had any meat today and it’s already nearly lunchtime, so easy win. I’ve booked myself a meeting room this afternoon and will put down the blinds and have a sleep, and possibly start a TikTok yoga challenge. Hopefully in a few days I’ll be vibrating with positivity all over the shop!
In one word:
Focused