Chapter 54
KANE
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I stalk out of the house and stop a short way down the driveway, drawing in measured breaths in an attempt to calm down.
The late-afternoon air feels cool on my burning skin.
So many emotions are charging through my chest I’m having trouble separating them.
Anger. Longing. Desire. Bitterness. Fear. Guilt, most of all.
I think back to the words I hurled at Amy.
I look at you, at your life, and I can’t stand you.
There are grains of truth in that statement, but a big fat lie lurks there too.
The lie rests in the fact that Amy is the first woman, since Mel, who lingers in my thoughts, who kickstarts my heart whenever I look at her, who stirs in me an insane and unwelcome desire to please her. Nolene never had that impact on me.
Why her? Of all the women in the world, it has to be Amy, and I’m all kinds of stupid for falling for her.
I head back to the house, unable to shake the unsettling premonition I’ve opened up a door to something dark and dangerous, and now I can’t close it.