Chapter Nineteen
Jessica
A wild side?!
Pfft, as if.
I mean, I did have sex before marriage—but even that had been boring. Although, I think that had more to do with my partner than me.
The only thing exciting about it was that it had been forbidden.
When I’d suggested to Jon that we try something other than missionary, like I’d read in a romance novel, he responded by telling me to quit reading “those books”.
“They put unrealistic expectations in your head.”
Looking at Alan holding Ruthie so lovingly put my hormones in overdrive.
I bet he did all kinds of positions.
Oh my god, Jessica!
You’d think I’d have learned my lesson about premarital sex. But Alan was so freaking hot, I might be willing to risk it again.
I knew I’d at least daydream about it.
He asked, “Do you want me to do that?”
Huh?
Oh yeah. I was about to change Ruthie’s poopy diaper.
There was some more fodder for Child Protective Services… “She was thinking about fornicating with a man when she should have been taking care of her child!”
Fortunately, they were just the daydreams of a lonely, sheltered girl. Nothing would ever become of it.
Or maybe that was unfortunate.
“No, I’ve got it,” I replied as I reached for my daughter.
As my parents liked to remind me, she was my responsibility—no one else’s.