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Neah
His eyes were on my hand. Weird hollow rasps come out of him as blood trickles down the front of his top.
Very slowly he looks down.
Like time had stopped to allow him to process what had happened.
His hands shake as he touches his chest, he croaks and his body sways.
Without a single thought, I shove him off the roof.
Standing still until I hear his body hit the ground with a deafening crack.
Sitting down, I pull my knees to my chest, letting the cold night air rustle through my hair.
I had just killed someone.
I turn my hand over to look at it, it had partially shifted. Dried spots of blood still lingered. Running my thumb over the tips of my fingers, I feel nothing, no pain, no sharp edges under my skin. The claws had disappeared as quickly as they came.
'I'm sorry about that, but that prick needed dealing with.' The voice rumbles through my head, unbothered by what had happened.
There was no one on the roof but me. And it certainly wasn't Alpha Dane who was speaking to me.
'You are right, I am far from a man.' I hear the amusement in her voice
'Who...who are you?"
'I'm Nyx, your Lycan. And it looks like we found each other at the right time.'
'We don't.... You are not supposed to be in my head.'
'It's funny what a little Alpha blood and a few bindings can do.'
I was annoyed, if I had a Lycan, why hadn't she shown herself. 'Where have you been?'
'I've been right here, but those fuckers had me shut down.'
It was an odd sensation, feeling her roam my mind. 'The period?' I whisper
'Bingo!'
Stunned into silence, I keep my arms wrapped around my legs. Is this what Alpha Dane and the others feel like when their Wolf is talking?
'You will get used to me, Neah. My job is to keep us both alive.'
I let out a snort. I had done alright on my own until now. Sort of.
'From now on.' She adds
By the time the sun rose, my entire body was shivering.
I only had on the tee and joggers I had worn to bed.
My feet were bare and even though my body could give off a lot of heat, it wasn't enough to combat the cold night air and I wouldn't let Nyx come forward so we could climb down.
I was still too afraid to become a monster.
I would rather freeze to death
'Neah? Neah are you okay?' Alpha Dane's words race through my mind.
Looking over the edge of the roof, I could still see Devon's mangled body along with the people he had killed. There were no others, the grounds were quiet. What about the kids? What about the ones who were too old to take part in the pack run. Where were they? How many had Devon killed?
'I'm on the roof.' I mumble through the link
"Why didn't he feel my fear or my panic?" I ask out loud
'I blocked it. It was time for you to stand on your own two feet. As much as he is hot, he can't protect us all the time.'
"You blocked him?" I shout out in annoyance
She doesn't answer me and she doesn't say anything else.
Alpha Dane and the others come out of the forest. They halt when they see the dead bodies that surround the packhouse. Very slowly, Alpha Dane's eyes search the rooftop, looking for me. The moment he sees me, he just stares back at me. He thought I had killed them. 'I'm coming up.' He mutters
He expertly scales the side of the house like he had done it a million times before. His feet and his fingers quickly finding ledges to hold on too. As he climbs over the top, he just watches me.
"It...it wasn't me! Well, just Devon." I whisper.
"Did you shift?"
"No, a little..... She talks so much. What about the kids and the others?"
His eyes narrow at me. "Eric is checking. Who are you talking about?"
"Nyx." I mumble. "In my head. A Lycan." I was really struggling to get the words out, between her talking to me and trying to tell me what to say and my own thoughts, things were becoming muddled.
He grabs my shoulders, his eyes quickly go to my bare feet and he groans.
"How long have you been up here?"
"Midnight." I whisper. I had looked at the clock moments before Devon barged his way into my room.
I cling to Alpha Dane like a monkey as he lowers us back down to his bedroom window. Inside he wraps a blanket around me and quickly closes the window.
"Tell me what happened. Tell me everything?" He settles into the large chair, watching me with his crimson eyes
I stutter a lot, trying to get all the information out. He just nods his head, letting me get everything off my chest
"And claws appeared." I mutter. "I....I pulled out bits of his heart." I urge at the thought of it, remembering how the pieces stuck to the end of my claws. It still didn't feel real.
"You partially shifted?" He asks when I don't say anymore
I close my eyes and nod. I could hear in his tone that he didn't believe it. That he thought I was lying.
"And you have a Lycan who is talking to you? In the same way as Aero speaks to me?"
I nod again, because it hadn't matched anything that I had learned about myself. Trey never had a Lycan spirit inside of him. Devon said it didn't happen. Yet here I was with Nyx whispering things in my head. "Is she talking to you now?"
I puff out my cheeks and bob my head.
"What is she saying?"
"That you don't believe me. But...but you can read my mind, you have to know that I am not lying."
"Right?"
"But it's not that you don't believe me, is it, Alpha Dane. It's that you don't think it's possible for me to kill someone like Devon. Even though you can read my mind."
His crimson eyes study me. "Partial shifting is not a thing. But then again, these days, I never know what is going to happen."
I didn't want to show him, but he was leaving me no choice.
'Do it?' I whisper to Nyx. 'Just like before.'
I actually feel her eyes roll and it was the oddest feeling. I pull my hand out from under the blanket and hold it out. Within seconds, there is a sharp pain that shoots through my entire body. My hand slowly transforms, growing bigger as thick claws inch themselves out of the tips of my fingers.
The actual shift didn't hurt, it was the moment before. It was....strange
"How does it make you feel?"
I turn my clawed hand over, inspecting it. Tufts of dark fur spread up my wrist but fizzled out as it met my human flesh.
"I don't know." I murmur. I had hated the idea of me shifting. Hated the idea that I would become something else. I hated how this was kept a secret from me since I was a kid. But the partial shift, it saved my life.
'See,' Nyx mutters. 'It's really not that bad.'
""You don't know?" Alpha Dane repeats
I shake my head and my claws retract as my hand shrinks.
'I'm sorry about your men." I whisper, still staring at my hand. "I believed him. When he said Trey was attacking, I believed him."
"You had no reason not to. You fear Trey. If someone tells you he is coming. I wouldn't have expected any different."
I frown because I knew I was an idiot
"He lied to us all. And we all fell for it. I'm just as much to blame. I should have known that taking too many on a pack run would be a mistake. I put my trust in the wrong man. That won't happen again."