0076
Raven
Crap, crap, crap, crap.
My feet carry me back and forth, along the corridor of the hospital. As usual it is quiet and gives me some time to think.
'Will you just chill.' My Wolf, Midnight, rolls her eyes at me.
'I am mated to a Lycan! How can I be chill about that?'
'Neah is a Lycan.'
'She's different. I like her. This guy, he's friends with Mallory. That's not a good sign. And look at all the others, they are all assholes! We are right in the middle of some kind of Moon Goddess fuckery!'
Midnight laughs at me. I rarely showed anyone the panic I often felt inside. And thankfully, Midnight was savvy enough to make me appear calm.
'We could talk to her?' Midnight suggests
'Mallory? We can't do that, it would look like we are not on Neah's side. And I made it quite clear to Mallory that she is not wanted here.'
'It might be the only way we get to meet our second chance mate.'
'And what if he isn't as good as Salem? What if he is a horrid man? What if he hates us?'
'Then we cross that bridge when we get to it. The hospital is dead as usual. Go find her!'
Stepping out, I could see Neah and my brother having a bit of a heated argument. Dane should know better. Neah was supposed to be resting.
'She's definitely become more confident since she has been pregnant.' Midnight muses.
'Hormones and trauma history.' I mumble back. 'I just hope Dane is prepared for it to get a lot worse.'
'Hey?'
Eric scares the crap out of me. I really have to start paying more attention and not just tune everything out when I'm talking to Midnight. "Hey Eric, can I help you?"
"Have you seen Klaus?"
"No. He was with Neah for tutoring, so" I gesture to the couple arguing, "I guess he has headed home."
"Sure."
"Have you seen Mallory?"
He cocks a brow at me. "She was down by her house earlier."
"Her house?"
He nods at me. "Dane has set her up."
It was not what I was expecting to hear. I was still surprised he had brought her here after what she did to Neah. It wasn't his usual style.
Eric walks with me to show me which house. He leaves me standing a few metres away as he heads off to find Klaus.
Three times I go to knock on the door. Three times I turn around and almost walk away. Just as I'm about to attempt a fourth time. She pulls the door open with force and glares at me.
"What?" She scowls at me.
"I've been watching you through the window since you first arrived. You have already made it quite clear that you don't want me here. So what do you want? Have you come to have a go at me? Call me all the names under the sun?" I couldn't smell his scent on her anymore. She had clearly showered and his scent had disappeared down the drain with the water.
"The guy. The scent that was on you. Have you heard from him?"
"Now it makes sense." She smiles at me, "The questions about him. You are mated to him. You could smell him on me and that is why you came here." "Apparently!" I tut
"The last I heard, yes. Yes he is still alive."
"He was killing the Lycans?"
Mallory nods at me. "The Rogues. Do you want to come in and ask these questions? I'm cooking and I don't want or need it to burn."
My dark eyes move around to see if anyone is watching. I didn't want Neah to think I'm betraying her. I just wanted to know more about my mate. "Sure."
Following her inside, she gestures to the small kitchen table.
"Damien is my best friend." Mallory tells me. "We found each other a few months after he had been turned. By that point, I had been a Lycan for almost a year. A very lonely year." "He was bitten too?"
"By the same bitch that bit me!" Mallory pours me a coffee and slides it across the table to me.
Damien is a good guy. He has a dark side like all of us Lycans. It's funny, it's like we could only become a Lycan if we had a bad past." She half smiles. "Fucked up, right?" "You really believe that?"
"I saw the girl's arms. Whats her name, Jess? Kids don't cut themselves like that unless there is some seriously bad shit going on."
"And you?"
"I watched my father stab my mother over and over in a frenzied attack. After I attacked your friend, all I could see was my father in me. I had become exactly like him. And that is exactly what Cassandra wanted, what she hoped for." She ruffles up her blonde hair.
"Cassandra never chose normal, happy people. She always chose someone with issues. People who would perform the cruellest acts."
I feel my stomach drop. What was Damien's past? Why had she chosen him?
"And Damien?" I was almost afraid to ask
"It's something he never talks about."
"Never?"
"Never. I'm sorry, that's not the answer you were looking for."
I stand up to leave and glance back over my shoulder at her. "You should tell Dane and Neah what you told me."
She snorts. "You think that will make Neah think differently of me?"
"She has a dark past too. The only difference is, she is a pure blood. The last living one. She has a hard time trusting people after her history was built on lies."
'Well that was not what I was expecting!' Midnight tells me as we make our way to the pack house.
Neah and Dane were no longer outside arguing and were most likely making up when she should be resting, but Jenson is sat out front. Maybe he could give me some advice.
"What were you doing at Mallory's?" He asks as I drop down in a seat next to him.
"I'm mated to a Lycan too."
I didn't have to look at him to know he was staring at me.
"Mallory? I didn't think you were into girls?"
"No, not Mallory. Some guy called Damien. His scent was on her. You met him, right?"
He nods.
"And?"
"I don't know what you want me to say, sis. He's tall, maybe a little taller than Dane. He has tattoos. A bit abrupt, but he seems to like that Mallory. Are you sure you are mated to him? I could have sworn those two were together." "Yes."
"Then I feel sorry for you. To know of him and you might never get a chance to meet him."
"Thanks for the vote of confidence!" I snap. "How's Jess?"
He glares back at me.
"Don't claim you don't care for her. The moment you heard she was missing, you went after her." "She's okay, shut herself in her bedroom. Do you think the Moon Goddess is playing a prank on us?" "On you, maybe." I laugh
"It's weird right? All three of us being mated to Lycans?" He continues, ignoring my comment.
"The funny thing is, I said the same thing to Neah. If Jess and Damien were never turned, we would never have been mated to them. Does that mean we would have been destined to be mateless for the rest of our lives? Were we always supposed to be mated to Lycans?"
Jenson shrugs his shoulders at me. "You know me, I would have been happy without a mate."
I roll my eyes at my brother. "How you are still alive is beyond me!"
He rises to his feet, patting me on the back. "Love you too, sis!"
Jenson strolls off, leaving me sitting alone. Sometimes I was jealous of my twin's carefree attitude. Rarely did things phase him. Even when he was kicked out, he ended up taking it in his stride.
I sit watching the pack for some time. They move around, completely oblivious to me. I was pretty certain that if Dane wasn't my brother, they probably wouldn't even know of my existence.