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Neah
"It's good right, that he's dead?" Raven asks as she crawls into my bed next to me. The twins were asleep and I had been making the most of the quietness until Raven came charging in my room. "I don't know."
She eyes me suspiciously, "Because Blair allegedly killed him?"
"Don't you think it was all a little too easy for her? Damien tracked him for a month and still couldn't kill him. When Salem was here, none of us could get a hand on him. Instead, he destroyed countless lives."
"Okay, so you have a point." She mutters. I still didn't understand it or what Blair wanted and everyone had a different opinion.
Raven opens a bar of chocolate and starts nibbling on it while trying to think of something to say. "I get that maybe she was helping Jenson get revenge, but you are right, it does seem too easy."
"I mean, he is definitely dead, Neah. I watched the colour drain from Damien's face. He may have tried acting all macho but you could see it, he was in pain."
"Could they have faked it? Maybe Salem is working with them too."
She shakes her head. "Salem killed Jess. there is no way in hell that Jenson would work with him. And you can't fake the pain of losing a sibling."
"But no one expected him to work with a Lycan either, not after he blamed Dane for bringing Damien and Mallory here."
"Hmm." She frowns and offers me a piece of her chocolate, though I shake my head. "Damien has a theory." She mutters, shoving the piece into her mouth. How she wasn't the size of a house was beyond me. She is always eating. "Spill."
"He thinks it's an attempt to get closer to you."
I snort. "Me?"
"Like some weird fucked up plan. He doesn't know what, but he definitely thinks it's something."
"I think we can all agree on that. I may have not been able to see through things when I was younger, but I have learned a lot. Everyone has a game plan."
"And she is still with Jenson. Knowing my brother, he has probably told her everything about our pack and how it works I expect he has even told her everything he knows about us. He isn't supposed to, but that was before he detached himself from us." Her shoulders drop. She won't admit it. But she missed him. Even if he seemed to be a problem.
"I wish he could see that he has lost his way." She adds as she stares at her hands. "Dane will forgive him. He is family."
I didn't want to tell her what Dane had said about him. Forgiving him was the last thing on my mates mind. In fact he had mentioned several times how he would let the others tear him apart for putting his family and the pack at risk.
"I don't think he cares about that, Raven. It's been months."
"She could have a hold over him." It sounded more like she was trying to reason with herself. Or maybe Midnight.
I shrug my shoulders, keeping my thoughts to myself.
'You should tell her.' Nyx mutters
'No, because deep down she already knows.' I snap back
I watch Raven's shoulders drop even lower. "We've lost him for good, haven't we?"
"I don't know. What I do know is that it has been a long time since there has been any news from him. And the first bit we get is not even from him, but from the Alpha of Ashburn city. He didn't even acknowledge the death of his kids." She drops back on my pillows, staring up at the ceiling and even letting the remainder of the chocolate bar fall to the floor.
A tear creeps out of the corner of her eye, leaving tracks as it makes its way down to the pillow.
Seconds later, a brisk knock raps the door and Damien doesn't even wait for me to tell him to come in.
His dark eyes settled on her as more tears seeped from the corner of her eyes.
Damien crosses the room, sliding his arms under her even when she protests about being touched. He pulls her against him until she gives in and lets him carry her from the room.
As they leave, Dane makes his way in, planting a kiss on my cheek. "What was that about?"
"She misses him."
He nods his head knowing exactly who I am talking about.
"Do you think there is a chan.....
"No." He cuts me off before I even finish the sentence. "Jenson made it more than clear that he doesn't want this. I'm not pandering to him!"
Every so often he would throw in a word or phrase that I didn't know. I think sometimes he forgot that I was a slave and the only words and phrases I knew were ones that were used around the house. Some I had learned in my time here, but still, there was always something.
He sees my face and corrects himself. "I'm not going to do what he wants just because he throws a fit. I need to do what's best for our family and the pack."
"I want to help her. But I don't know how to."
"You can't." He looks over to our napping twins. "It's more than just a sibling missing a sibling. They are connected in more ways than most. Twins that carry Alpha blood. They are twins that have also been gifted twin Wolves. That bond they have shared since the day they were conceived can't just be broken because he left the pack.""
"Can she still link him?"
"No."
"You just said the bond is stronger. What about her Wolf, Midnight, could she connect with his?"
"Aspen? I guess I haven't really thought about it. If you haven't noticed, she doesn't really talk about Jenson to me. Or Damien." He adds with a sigh. "She did this after our parents died. She partially shuts down. Though it's really hard to see because she carries on with life in general, she just won't talk about the things that are weighing her down."
"She talks to me. Not much, but she does."
"And I am more than grateful for that." He kisses my cheek again, inching down to my lips.
The electricity of his touch ignites my body as his kiss deepens. His tongue is quick to explore my mouth as his hand locks into my hair, holding me close.
"The boys." I murmur, pulling away.
He growls when I don't let him go any further. "They will be sleeping in their own room tonight."
"But..." I start to protest. I have had them close to me every night since they were born. They were my responsibility. It was up to me to keep them safe from the chaos of the world.
"They are nearly seven months old. Their nursery has been ready for months. And they will be in the room right next door with a guard if that makes you feel better. I need my mate to myself, even if it's only for a few hours."
He nuzzles the mark on my neck, knowing that it is my weak spot. His hot breath brings my skin to life.
"Two guards." I murmur back
"If it means I don't have to share you, you can have as many as you want."
He kisses me again just as Evrin starts to cry and mutters something about that's why he wanted me alone as he climbs off the bed.
Seconds later Logan wakes too. It was definitely a twin thing.