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Neah
"We already know that there are more out there, but we haven't got the time for that!" Dane snaps at Mallory. "For all we know, she might be here already, skulking around."
The twins have fallen quiet and are staring up at Dane.
From the moment they were more aware of their surroundings, they had always been able to feel his anger, but it never made them cry.
It just seemed to fascinate them.
"WE don't need to do anything." Mallory mutters and turns her eyes to me. "You do."
"Right." I snort. "The last time I spoke to Lycans, they were the ones that had been bitten, marked, whatever you want to call it. And not only that, you struggled to link me."
"I think something is holding you back." She shrugs her shoulders
"I know, the darkness that sits inside of me." I mutter sarcastically.
"No. You." She points a finger at me. "I thought it might have been Nyx not wanting you to listen to me."
'Not me.' Nyx mutters in annoyance.
"But now I think it's you. You've focussed so much on keeping the darkness at bay that you are not letting your natural bloodborn ability in."
"It didn't work with Salem or Blair."
"Neither of them were around when Cassandra had it in for you. But what had started was the very thing that you are fighting every day. I think that has something to do with it, but it's not what is stopping it."
"I accepted who I am." I mutter in defense
"But a lot has changed since then." Dane stares at me
"Neah, you are the last female Alpha, a descendant of Aldous Kitson. Every Lycan in the world belongs to you, Rogue or not. If it's true that there are more. You need to find a way to link them. To bring them here."
"And what if I bring more shit to our pack? What if they hate the idea of me? What if they hate the idea of having an Alpha? I understand what you are trying to say Mallory, but the twins." I look over to Dane who had picked them both up and was pulling faces at them.
"I can't risk anything happening to them."
"You would be doing this for them. And if anyone tries to fuck us over, we will bring hell down on them."
I stare at her, it was less than a week ago that she was telling me she would happily give up being a Lycan. Maybe the possibility of feeling like she belonged had changed that.
My eyes move to familiar crimson ones. He doesn't speak, he just stares back at me. The look that said it was all up to me. Sometimes, I liked it better when he took the decision away. The last time I made a choice, Mallory was almost killed.
I look at my boys nestled in his arms. They were unaware of what was happening. Unaware of what they had been born into and my only goal was to give them the best upbringing. Because as much as I am the last female Alpha. They are future Lycan Alphas. Set to rule both Lycans and Wolves.
"If I figure this out, there is a good chance Blair will seek the others out. Try to bring them to her side. What if she succeeds?"
"I have an idea, but it's a bit out there and we would need Raven on board." Mallory tells us
""What is it?"
"We ask them if they would die for you."
"What's that going to prove? They could just lie." Dane asks
"We give them blood of wolfsbane."
"WHAT?" I had nearly died when I had been drugged with it.
Raven had barely saved my life and if she had never got the antidote from the Witch, I wouldn't even be here. I saw what it had done to my parents. Every now and again I still see their blood soaked faces. "Because Raven knows how to make the antidote." Dane nods, ignoring my reaction
Mallory nods.
"Am I the only one that sees a flaw in that plan? Say we do that, then the news gets out that we have the antidote. That it's just a test."
"You order them not to tell anyone. Neah, I think sometimes you forget how powerful an order can be." Dane tells me
"I'm not poisoning them. I'm sorry, but there has to be another way."
Everyone falls into silence as Dorothy skips back into the room, carrying a bag of popcorn. "Do you know where Daddy is?"
"He's working, but he will be back soon." Dane smiles at her and steals a piece of her popcorn
"Because he is an important man?" Dorothy asks with a pout.
"He is. And when you are older, you will understand why?"
"Okay." She climbs up into the window and presses her face to the glass trying to look for Damien. Frowning when she can't see him.
"Mallory, will you stay here with the kids while I speak to my mate." Dane asks
"Yes of course, I love kids."
I cringe when she calls herself Auntie Mallory and tells them she will be staying a little longer, but I don't have time to correct her as Dane is pulling me out the room.
"I know you don't like it, but I think she is on to something. I also know it's bringing up shitty memories, but it will be a fast and quick way to weed out the bad. To find out who is really on your side."
"I won't be able to do it." Even talking of killing so many was making me fidgety. I needed to find a way to get rid of this darkness. I can't live like this, constantly worried that it's going to rear its ugly head. "You can't grow it anyway. Well, at least I don't think you can. It needs wolf blood."
He starts making a plan.
Talking about growing it in a safe place where no children had access to it.
A part of me hated it, but something deep inside me bubbles with joy at the thought of killing more people.
I hated the looming darkness.
While Dane is checking in on Jenson, Mallory sits on the floor opposite me.
We had been talking through mind link and each time seemed to get clearer and stronger.
'Tell me how you linked them all before?' She asks, her high pitched voice echoing in my head
'I'm not sure. I was hiding with Jess. She made me feel like I could do it and it just happened.'
'No, there's more to it than that. To be able to link that many at once, you need power, strength. Something you already have. But for some reason, it's stopping you now.'
'I guess I wanted to protect the ones I care about. Jess was like a little sister. We were finding our way together. She was newly bitten, I was newly unbound. But I didn't have this darkness. And the twins help my head stay clear."
"I'm not saying you need to shift. You accepted your position right? Well now it's time to truly believe in it. Believe that you are a fucking strong female Alpha. You have been bound four times and survived. That in itself shows that you are more than just any Alpha. So tap into it!"
"Stop telling me what to do! Stop talking. I need to think!" The words come out in a really strange tone. A voice that isn't Nyx.
Mallory stares at me with wide brown eyes, patting her throat. "What's wrong? Are you having trouble breathing?" I panic as she continues to point at me and then point at her throat. Her mouth moves but no sound comes out.
There are footsteps hurrying this way. The last person I expected to see was Eric. "You've ordered her to stop talking." He tells me
"What? No I didn't. And how would you know that, you weren't even here?"
"She linked me."
"I don't know how I did it. How did she link you? She's a Lycan. Hold on, you're her mate?"
"Yes," he flips his head to Mallory and then back to me. Frowning, "Mal said it happens when you are flustered."
"You were flustered about keeping Jess safe." I know he is just repeating her words, but it's weird. "You were flustered with her working you out. You're flustered with making decisions."
"So how am I supposed to undo it?" Dane needed to explain a bit more about the Alpha order.
"Just tell her she can talk."
"Just like that?"
"Just like that." He winks at me. I had missed Eric, he wasn't the same man when he drank.
"You can talk." I mutter to Mallory.
"And I have just cracked your problem." She smiles at me