13. Ranen
Chapter 13
Ranen
F un . North thinks being on cam with me could be fun.
Yeah, that’s the understatement of the year. Being on cam with North would be combustible. If it’s anything like what happened on my couch two days ago, it would be a fucking inferno when we did more.
Nerves dance in my belly as I think about what more could be. There’s no doubt that I want North to fuck me. With that big, thick cock of his, he’d split me wide open. I’d be happy to take it from him.
None of my toys are that fat, however. Will North notice that I’m a virgin? Will he know?
I need to tell him. I don’t want to blindside him, especially if he plans to fuck my ass the way he fucked my mouth.
It’s not just morning wood that has my dick standing at attention. Just thinking about how North shoved down my throat and took his pleasure from my mouth has my cock bobbing, desperate for release.
A soft knock sounds at my door and I pull my blanket over my lap just before North pushes inside. He looks at me with a critical eye, checking me over like he does every morning before he smiles at me. God, that smile. I can tell he doesn’t do it much, but he does every time he looks at me. I preen under his attention, grinning back.
“Can I come in?”
“Yeah, of course,” I answer, sitting up and giving him space to sit on my bed.
I frown when I think about the arrangement we have. Why is North still sleeping in my cam room? I’ve tasted his cum and he’s tasted mine, so he should be sleeping in the bed with me, right? Waking up wrapped around his big, strong body would be like winning the lottery. I’m not sure how to ask him to move in with me, though. Well, move into my room. I think he’s pretty much moved into my apartment since I was released from the hospital.
When he sits down, he puts two fingers under my chin, tipping my face up. “What’s wrong? Why the frown?”
I sigh, knowing North would catch my change in mood. It’s like he knows me on a deeper level than most people do, able to pick up on my moods and emotions.
“Nothing.” He gives me a look that I read as ‘ don’t lie to me’ and I chuckle. “It’s nothing bad . I was just wondering why you don’t sleep in here.” I try to push the words out in a louder voice, but fear grips me. What if he turns me down? What if he’s only in it for the fun of being on cam with me, not because he wants me?
No, that can’t be right. From the way he touched me and held me and kissed me and fucked my face, I know he wants me. But is it just sex or… does he want more? He said I was his. What does he mean?
Again, North aims a wide, beautiful smile at me, and I let out the breath that was confined in my chest. His smile turns dirty when he leans over me. I slowly lower myself back to the bed and North follows me, settling snugly between my legs. The blanket I’m holding over my hard dick is trapped between us, making it hard for me to wrap my legs around his waist.
Titling his head, North looks down at me and asks, “You want to fall asleep with me, Ranen?”
Swallowing roughly, I nod. “Yes.”
“Is that the only reason you want me to sleep in here with you?”
Throwing caution to the wind, I shake my head. “No.”
“Hmmm,” he hums, bending down to drag his nose over my jawline. I wrap my hands around his back, squeezing the muscles there. Fuck, I’ll never get tired of touching North. “I like the way you think, Ranen.”
Before I can formulate some kind of clever response, North takes my mouth in a greedy kiss and all thoughts of anything flee my mind.
Over the past few days, he’s been giving me feather-soft, barely there kisses that make me want more. This kiss isn’t like that at all. He burrows his tongue into my mouth, tasting, searching, owning . I try to keep up, but all I can do is let him plunder my mouth until he’s had his fill. I’m way out of my depth with North, but I couldn’t care less. I’m his. I want him. And I’ll be here for as long as he wants me.
I’m a panting mess by the time he pulls his lips from mine. “We’ll talk about what you want to do with me sleeping in here later.” He pulls away from me and I whine—really fucking whine—wanting him back as my human blanket. He chuckles and gives me one more quick kiss before sitting up and bringing me with him. “Come on. I made breakfast.”
Grinning, I hop out of bed and dart past him. North cooks often and he’s so good at it. I take a deep breath when I step into the hallway, the aroma of delicious food making my stomach growl.
My kitchen island is full of food—French toast, eggs, bacon, strawberries, and oatmeal. I grab two plates and load us both up. We sit down at the kitchen table and dig in. I groan when the fluffy French toast hits my tongue. “So good,” I say around a mouth full of food.
North laughs, eating more neatly than me. “I’m glad you like it.”
We’re silent for a few beats, North looking up at me with a secret smile. God, this man will be the death of me. If his little glances can turn me into mush, what else could he do to me?
I swallow the eggs I just shoveled into my mouth and tell him what I’ve been thinking the past few days. “I know I asked if you wanted to cam with me, but we didn’t discuss what that would mean.”
“I don’t understand.”
“I got into the business with no intention of hiding who I was. I don’t mind showing my face to my viewers, but you didn’t sign up for that, so I ordered you something.” I get up from the table and grab the package that was delivered from the local sex shop yesterday. “This should help.”
North ticks up an eyebrow, but doesn’t ask any questions—he just rips open the package and pulls out the mask I ordered. I figured it would be best that his mouth was visible, since I’ll want to kiss him as often as possible. But his eyes, nose, most of his cheeks, and his hair are covered. Not much we can do about the tattoos, but I’m sure none of my subs will be paying attention to those.
He turns it in his hands, nodding in approval. “I like this. I didn’t even think about hiding my face.” He looks up at me with a grin. “You did good, Ranen.”
His compliment washes over me, making me feel warm inside. “Thanks.”
“Are you ready for today? Nervous?”
I shrug, pushing my food around. The last time I did a show I got messages from whoever sent me the bear and that photo album. North said he blocked them, and I didn’t get any more messages in my inbox, but I fear he might try to send them from another account. I don’t know how to stop the person other than by constantly blocking him.
North must sense how I’m feeling—he always does—and grabs my hand. “I’ll be with you. Always. Nothing will happen to you while I’m here.”
I smile at him shakily. “I know. I’m just being weird. Don’t mind me. Yes,” I say, squaring my shoulders. “I’m ready.”
North nods and dons the mask, looking every bit as mysterious and sexy as I thought he would. “We’ll see.” He takes the mask off, nodding at it before he sets it on the table.
His face turns more serious as he looks at me with a tilt of his head. “We never talked about test results. I mean, I’m sure you get tested often. I got tested about three months ago and I haven’t been with anyone since.”
My cheeks heat with him talking about getting tested. I’ve never been tested. I’ve never had a reason to. My fumbling kiss when I was fourteen and my mutual jerk-off sessions with Olly are all the sexual experiences I have.
But I can’t tell him that. It’ll ruin everything. “Oh yeah. I’m… I’m good.”
North gives me a weird look for a less than a second before he smooths his expression. “I don’t have condoms, Ranen,” he says pointedly.
Oh. Oh . If my cheeks get any hotter, I swear I’ll burst into flames. “That’s… that’s okay. I trust you.”
I do. I trust North more than I trust anyone else. Hopefully that doesn’t make me a fool.
My palms sweat as I sit in front of the camera, rubbing my hands on my tiny shorts. Other than Olly, I’ve never had anyone on cam with me, and I’ve never wanted anyone to touch me or for me to touch them in return. I’ve also never thought about losing my virginity with an audience.
Because that’s what will happen. North and I will not stop at hand jobs and blow jobs. I won’t be content until his fat cock is buried in me as deeply as it will go. That thought turns me on and terrifies me in equal measure.
North looks over his shoulder at me from where he’s adjusting the camera to this new angle—facing the bed from the side instead of the foot of the bed like it usually does. It’ll allow the audience to see the entire bed and us on it. “You okay, Cas?”
Despite my nerves, I grin at his use of my screen name. “I’m good. Just… I need to tell you something.”
“Okay.” He turns to me, but is looking down at the mask in his hands.
I open my mouth to say I’ve never done this, but end up closing it and backing down. I’ve already canceled on my viewers several times. If I tell North I’m a virgin, he’ll probably want to back out of doing it. I’ll lose money if my subscribers don’t get the show they’re promised.
When North looks up at me with a question in his eyes, I shake my head, changing my mind. “Nothing. I’m just nervous, is all.”
He walks over and kneels in front of me. I’m not ashamed to admit that my dick throbs in my tiny shorts. “No need to be nervous. I’ll be here with you every step of the way.” He picks up my dildo and examines it with a small quirk of his lips. “Though I don’t think this will be enough.”
A laugh bubbles up my throat. He’s right. North is so thick, nothing but the green-eyed monster will get me ready for him. But that’s okay. I know North will be gentle with me, even when he’s not.
“Okay. I’m ready. You remember what we talked about, right?”
He nods, his smile turning filthy. “Just give me the word.” North gives me a quick kiss that’s so dirty it makes my toes curl. Fuck, I can’t wait to have him inside me.
After North takes a seat in the chair beside the computer, he presses a button to start my session. I paste a smile on my face when I see the red light come on, signaling I’m live.
“Hey, loves,” I say, waving at the camera. “I’m glad to have you guys back with me today.”
A few comments pop up from my main players, and I answer them with a smile. The one that makes me laugh is the one from Cooper.
cooper99: r we still gettin a surprise
“Yes you are. I have it all ready for you. Let’s catch up first. I think the dynamic of my shows might change…” I glance over at North, who grins as he puts on the mask, adjusting it so only his mouth shows. My cheeks heat and I duck my head, my cock growing in my pants.
cooper99: how?
“Well,” I say as I stand up and face away from the camera. “It has to do with my surprise. At least for the next few shows, I’ll have a… special guest joining us.” I hook my fingers into my shorts and drag them down my hips. I bend forward as I pull them off, showing my hole.
Two dings in rapid succession have me turning back to the screen, covering my dick so they don’t get everything right away.
derbycockrider69: will it be Dylan?
Dylan is Olly’s cam name, who my viewers are used to seeing me with.
camfan09: I can’t wait. I love your tandem shows.
I slide back on the bed, grabbing my toy as I plant my feet on the mattress. “No, it’s not Dylan. It’s someone new. Make him feel welcome.” Dings sound and I know I’m being flooded with tips. The thought of someone joining me on camera must have them really excited.
Since the tips are flooding in, I decide not to tease them anymore. Snapping up the bottle of lube, I pop it open and drizzle some on my fingers and on my toy. From the corner of my eye, I watch North palm his cock, squeezing it through his pants.
We discussed him keeping his pants on until he got on cam so I could take them off him. When I told him I wanted to put on a show, I meant it.
Smiling a smile only we share, I lube up my hole and push in one finger, then two. I groan and throw my head back, rolling my hips down on my fingers. “It’s been so long since I fucked myself,” I tell North, but I’m sure my subs think I’m talking to them.
I open my eyes, looking at North as he leans forward. His gaze drifts down to my hand, licking his lips while watching me fuck myself.
When he meets my stare, I grin and grab my toy to replace my fingers. The toy is cold and hard, but it feels good. I ease it in, gasping as it brushes against my walls. “Oh, fuck. That feels really fucking good.”
That’s his cue.
North stands up from the chair he’s in and saunters right in front of the camera. My eyes follow him as he strides over to me. When he’s at the foot of the bed, he runs his hands through my hair and I sigh, looking up at him with pleading eyes.
“You look hot spread out for me like this, Cas,” he says in a low voice that sends a shiver down my spine. “How does it feel?”
“Good. So good. But I need…”
He steps closer to me, and I move shaky hands to his pants to undo them. North takes over working the toy inside me, pumping it in and out slowly. “Take what you need from me, Cas. Let me feel that hot mouth around my dick.”
His hand tightens in my hair and I’m reminded of our time on the couch the other night. God, I wish the camera wasn’t here. I wish North could play with me how he wants and I could try to drive him wild with my mouth. He said I was good last time… I hope I can make him feel that good now that we have an audience.
My hips buck of their own volition, chasing the pleasure of how he’s fucking the dildo into me.
It seems like it takes forever to get his pants open, but I finally free his erection. “Fuck,” I groan, pumping him in my hands a few times. When a bead of precum appears on his cock head, I stick out my tongue and collect it. I make a show of swallowing, looking up at him while I enjoy my treat. “You taste good.”
North scrapes his nails across my scalp as he digs his hand deeper into my hair. He pulls my head back, earning a high moan from me. “Open your mouth for me, Cas. Swallow my cock while I play with this pretty hole.”
I roll my hips against the toy as I open my mouth, sucking North inside. My eyes roll into the back of my head at the taste of him. At the weight of him sliding over my tongue. At how his fat mushroom head bumps against the back of my throat. Fuck, I’m so hard I can’t think straight.
North snaps his hips forward, holding my head steady so he can fuck my mouth while he uses the toy on me. I tug his balls, his sac wet from my drool trickling down his cock.
“Just like that. You’re so fucking good at this,” North praises, making me moan, and my cheeks heat from more than just his cock filling my mouth. “I love fucking your throat. Swallow around me.” I do what he says, pulling a loud groan from him. I glance up at him, watching his throat work while his head is thrown back.
Pulling my head back so his cock pops free of my mouth, North grins down at my obvious distress. I try to move forward, to take him into my mouth again, but he doesn’t allow it. A whine of protest leaves my throat, my focus solely on North’s thick, glistening dick. “You’re greedy for me,” he teases, pulling the toy from inside me and replacing it with his fingers.
A loud moan tears from my throat as he tunnels his fingers inside me, pressing them as far as they’ll go. Then he curls them and I see fucking stars.
“Right there?” he asks, though he knows exactly what he’s doing. “You want my fingers right there, don’t you? You’re so fucking tight. You want me to stretch this pretty hole?”
“Please,” I beg, my body vibrating with pleasure. My cock bobs against my belly, my precum leaking like a fountain. The faint dings of tips sound in my ears, but I can’t concentrate on that. My only thought is not to blow my load before North gets his dick in me.
“Please what?” North asks as he walks to stand in front of me. He gets down on his knees and blows on my cock, chuckling as he watches it bob against my belly. “Please what, baby?”
I meet his scorching blue-green eyes, watching them flash as he gazes at me. “I don’t… please… Please?”
He leans forward and drags his tongue from the base of my dick to my cockhead. Then he engulfs my cock in his mouth. I curse loudly and throw my head back. I’ve never had anyone blow me before. I didn’t think it would feel this fucking good—this fucking hot. “Oh fuck. Oh god, it feels so fucking good. Please. I can’t… can’t…” My hips buck into his mouth. North looks up at me and I see why he was so mesmerized by me on my knees for him.
He looks fucking good like this, his mouth full of my dick. His pupils are blown wide as he looks at me. Even with a mouth full of cock, he has a teasing tilt to his lips that drives me fucking insane.
I can’t take it anymore. If North stays on his knees for even a moment longer, I’ll fucking shoot on his face. I want his dick in me when I come.
Taking a page from his book, I thread my fingers through his hair and pull him off. “Fuck me, please. I need you. I need to feel you inside me.”
Even as sex drunk as I am, I hear the cacophony of dings going off behind me.
North grins, popping up from his knees and taking my mouth in a kiss so hot I fear I’ll explode. His tongue delves into my mouth, rolling over mine greedily. I kiss him back just as eagerly, unable to control my arousal. I’ve never felt this out of control in my life. I’ve never felt like I couldn’t breathe if I didn’t have someone’s cock. Never felt so gone off someone in my life.
Snatching his mouth from mine, North bends to my ear and licks the shell, biting down when he gets to the lobe. In that same low, husky voice, he says, “I’m going to make you mine. I’ll make you forget every man before me. I’ll be all you can think about when you fuck yourself with one of those toys.”
I moan, rocking my hips to meet the friction of his cock. “I want it. Please.” I know I sound like a broken record with all my begging, but I can’t help it. If I don’t have him, I’ll fucking die.
North arranges me on the bed so we’re lying longways, in perfect view of the camera. I glance over at my laptop, my eyes almost bugging out at the amount of my tips. And it’s steadily going up. It’s my most successful show and I can’t even enjoy it because I can’t think of anything or anyone but North.
I watch with rapt attention as North scoops up the lube and squeezes some onto his dick. He strokes himself a few times, making sure he’s coated. I swallow in fear when I really look at North’s cock. The vein running down the middle is intimidating, pulsing with each stroke of his hand.
“Go slow,” I whisper, low enough so only he can hear.
Even though I can’t see his whole face, I can tell his eyebrows dip. “I will.”
He leans over me, putting his cock against my hole. I think he’s going to shove inside and I hold my breath, poised for the pain of his intrusion. Instead, North bends down and kisses me, slow and sweet.
He’s getting me out of my head. He’s bringing me to the present, to be here with him. How the fuck does he read me so easily? How does he know I was pulled out of our scene by my fear?
I don’t question it for too long, because I get caught up in him once again. His tongue is soft against mine, making love to my mouth. I sigh into him, wrapping my legs around his waist.
When I’m putty underneath him, North pulls his mouth away. Then he slides inside me.
My body seizes as he pushes in, the sting more than I thought it would be. An anguished groan leaves my throat as he feeds me inch after inch of his big dick. When he bottoms out, he freezes, not even breathing. He rises up on his elbows and looks down at me, his eyes reflecting a surprise I don’t think he’s ever shown before.
After another second, he bends back down to my ear. In a low voice, he asks, “Are you a virgin?”
I should have known I couldn’t hide anything from North. Even when I don’t want him to, he sees me. He’s the only person that sees me.
I really hope I didn’t fuck up by not telling him. Hopefully my reasons make sense to him.
“Yes,” I whimper around a tight throat. “I am.”