Chapter 23 #2
"Power's back on the main road." He closed the door behind him, the latch clicking softly, and moved to pour himself more coffee with economical motions, not a single movement wasted. "Saw the lights flickering through the trees. Should have it here by tonight, tomorrow at the latest."
"That's good news." I reluctantly released Remy so he could finish cooking, immediately missing his warmth, and leaned against the counter instead, arms crossed over my chest. "Means we can start thinking about getting back to normal."
The words felt strange in my mouth. Wrong, somehow.
"What's normal now?" Harper asked, turning from the sink to face us, dish towel slung over his broad shoulder, and the question hung in the air like smoke, heavy with everything we weren't saying.
None of us had an answer.
We ate breakfast on the living room floor again—eggs and bacon and toast that was somehow better than anything I'd ever made on my own stove.
The food was simple but perfect, seasoned with Remy's expertise and eaten with fingers that kept brushing against each other as we reached for the same pieces.
Gumbo had finally relinquished his stolen pillow, relocating to a sunny spot near the window where he could watch both us and the receding bayou with equal suspicion, his ancient eyes tracking every movement we made.
"We should talk about it." Remy's fork paused halfway to his mouth, bacon dangling forgotten from the tines, his expression unusually serious. The morning light carved shadows beneath his cheekbones, made him look older, more vulnerable. "What happens when we can all go home."
"What's to talk about?" Harper's brow furrowed, deep lines cutting across his forehead, confusion evident in every angle of his face. He set down his plate with a soft thunk. "We're pack now. That doesn't change just because we're not stuck together."
"But what does it look like?" Remy leaned forward, intensity replacing his usual easy charm, his breakfast abandoned entirely now.
"Do we date? Court officially? Do we tell people?
Do we—" He gestured vaguely with his fork, struggling for words, frustration tightening the corners of his mouth.
"I don't know how this works. Three Alphas, one Omega. It's not exactly traditional."
"Traditional is overrated." I reached over to squeeze his knee, feeling the tension coiled in his muscles, anchoring him with touch when words weren't enough. "We figure it out as we go. That's how it works."
"She's right." Silas spoke from his spot against the wall, plate balanced on one knee, his back straight despite the casual pose.
"Pack doesn't come with a rulebook. It comes with people.
We decide what it looks like together." He met each of our gazes in turn, pale eyes steady and unflinching. "What do you want it to look like?"
Silence stretched for a long moment, heavy with possibility.
"I want Sunday dinners." Harper stared down at his plate, a flush creeping up his neck beneath his beard, spreading to the tips of his ears.
His massive hands curled into fists against his thighs.
"All of us, around a table. Like a family.
" His jaw worked, grinding against words that didn't come easy.
"Haven't had that since my grandparents passed. "
"I want someone to come home to." Remy's usual bravado had vanished entirely, leaving his words raw and exposed like a wound freshly opened.
He picked at a loose thread on his pants, not meeting anyone's eyes.
"Someone who's happy to see me at the end of a long gig.
Someone who..." He swallowed hard, his Adam's apple bobbing visibly. "Someone who stays."
"I want to stop being alone." Silas said it simply, like stating a fact, but I could see the cost of the admission in the tension of his shoulders, the white-knuckled grip on his coffee cup.
"I want to matter to someone. To belong somewhere.
" His scarred fingers tightened further, the ceramic creaking dangerously.
"I want a home that isn't just four walls and silence. "
They all turned to look at me, waiting, three sets of eyes holding more vulnerability than I'd ever seen from them combined.
"I want all of that." My throat tightened around the words, emotion pressing against my chest until it ached. "Sunday dinners and coming home and belonging. I want to stop building walls and start building something real. With all of you."
"Then that's what we do." Harper's tone turned firm, decisive—the Alpha who'd rebuilt his life from grief now reaching for something new, something terrifying, something worth the risk.
"We build it. Together. However long it takes, whatever it looks like.
" He held out his hand, palm up, in the center of our circle, his calloused skin catching the light.
Remy placed his hand on top without hesitation, his slender musician's fingers stark against Harper's broad palm.
Silas added his a moment later, movements careful but certain, his scars silver against tanned skin.
I completed the stack, feeling their hands beneath my palm—rough and gentle and warm—the weight of the promise we were making settling into my bones.
"Pack." Remy breathed the word like a prayer, his eyes bright with unshed tears he'd probably deny later.
Harper's rumble of agreement vibrated through our joined hands, resonating somewhere deep in my chest. He didn't need to say the word—the sound spoke for him, ancient and instinctive.
Silas simply nodded once, his jaw tight with emotion he couldn't quite hide, his grip tightening on the hands beneath his.
For a man who lived in silence, the gesture said everything.
I didn't need to add my voice. The promise was already written in the press of our palms, the tangle of our scents, the way the cabin had started to smell like all of us—like home.
The rest of the day passed in a strange limbo between the world we'd built in the flood and the one waiting for us outside.
We took down the boards from the windows, letting real light flood the cabin for the first time in days, dust swirling in the sudden brightness.
The marshland had dropped another few inches, revealing the muddy yard, the waterlogged dock listing slightly to one side, the debris scattered across the property like the storm's calling cards.
There would be work to do—cleaning, repairing, restoring—but that was future problems. Present problems involved figuring out how to coexist in a space that was about to get much bigger.
"I should check on my gigs." Remy stared out the window in the early afternoon, shoulders tense beneath his worn t-shirt, fingers drumming an anxious rhythm against the windowsill.
"Had a few shows lined up this week. Need to see if the venues are even open, let people know I'm okay.
.." He trailed off, something complicated moving behind his eyes.
"We can go together." I moved to stand beside him, our shoulders brushing, feeling the fine tremor running through him. "Once the roads are clear. I'll come with you."
"You don't have to—" He turned toward me, protest already forming on his lips, his brow creasing with that look he got when he was about to deflect with humor.
"I want to." I cut him off, reaching up to cup his face, feeling the stubble rough against my palms, the warmth of his skin. "That's what pack means, right? Showing up for each other?"
His smile bloomed slow and genuine, chasing away the tension in his features like clouds parting after a storm. He leaned into my touch, eyes falling half-closed. "Yeah, chere." He turned his head to press a kiss to my palm, his lips soft and warm, lingering. "That's exactly what it means."
Harper spent most of the afternoon on the porch, ostensibly checking for storm damage but really just existing.
I found him there when I went to check on Gumbo, sitting on the top step with his forearms resting on his knees, massive hands dangling loose between them, staring out at the flooded bayou with distant eyes.
The afternoon light caught the silver threading through his dark hair at the temples, the deep lines bracketing his mouth.
"You okay?" I settled beside him, close enough that our shoulders touched, feeling the solid warmth of him even through our clothes.
"Yeah." He was silent for a moment, gaze unfocused, lost somewhere I couldn't follow.
"Just thinking about Claire." His throat bobbed, the name rough on his tongue like he didn't say it often.
"She would have hated this. The mess, the uncertainty.
She liked things planned, predictable." A slow shake of his head, beard brushing against his collar.
"I used to think that was what I wanted too. "
"And now?" I kept my voice soft, giving him space to answer or not, watching a muscle jump in his jaw.
"Now I think maybe I just wanted what she wanted because it was easier than figuring out what I actually needed.
" Harper turned to look at me, dark brown eyes searching my face with an intensity that made my breath catch.
"This isn't predictable. You're not predictable.
" He paused, struggling with the words the way he always did, his hands clenching and unclenching.
"I think that might be exactly what I needed all along. "
I leaned into him, resting my head on his shoulder, breathing in his scent—moonshine and cedar smoke and something earthier underneath. "Sounds like she wanted a version of you that didn't exist. That's not your fault."
"Took me a long time to figure that out." His arm came around me, pulling me closer, his hand spanning nearly the entire width of my back. "Kept thinking if I'd just tried harder, been different..." He trailed off, shaking his head. "But I can't be something I'm not. Not anymore."