Chapter 2 #2
I’m flushed all over and my lips are tingling. What’s happening right now? He’s not acting like we’re at a work meeting.
He wants me to use his first name? He’s giving me freedom to pick whatever I want from a menu where the cheapest item is like a hundred bucks?
None of this makes sense.
I can’t read any of the dishes. I peer at him, and he’s sipping his wine and studying me intensely. I hide again, clenching my jaw to keep my teeth from rattling.
“You live at home with your aunt, don’t you?” he asks suddenly. “How’s that been?”
I nearly jump out of my chair.
He’s never, not a single time, asked about my personal life before.
“Aunt Sheila’s great,” I say, lowering the menu.
This is a normal conversation. I’ve done this a thousand times.
I know how to talk to people. Usually, I’m outgoing and charming.
I like chatting! Natalie says sometimes I’m annoying and too sunny!
But Mr. Whelan’s got me all rattled and off my game.
“My parents died when I was twelve, and she took me in. I didn’t even know she existed before that. ”
“I’m sorry to hear about your parents,” he murmurs without much feeling. “Your aunt sounds like a good woman.”
“She’s the best. I have no idea where I’d be without her. I went to NYU and saved money by staying at home, and I guess I just never moved out. I have this dream—” I stop myself. I’m going way past the limits of his question, and I know Mr. Whelan likes it when I’m concise and to the point.
But this time, he gestures slightly. “Go on. You have a dream?”
“It’s silly. You don’t care about that.”
“Let’s pretend like tonight, I actually do want to hear everything about you, Casey.”
I flinch at my name. I’ve only ever been Ms. Brennan. But if I’m using Declan, I guess he can use Casey.
“Well, it’s dumb, but I’ve always wanted my own place. You know, my own house? New York real estate is crazy, so I have to save practically every dime I make, which is why I’m still with Sheila, but I’m getting there. Maybe another year or two?”
“Having a place of your own is important. I’m very fond of my own space.”
“I know. I’m the same way. I want big windows, lots of plants, old hardwood floors, plenty of little problems to fix, you know what I mean? A house with character. Something I can mold into my own.”
“Sounds like a project.”
“I love a good project. I love keeping busy. Natalie says I bounce around too much, but I can’t help myself.”
“Maybe that’s why you’ve been an adequate assistant these last couple of years,” he says softly, head tilted to the side.
“Probably. I don’t mind keeping busy at all. Better to have too much than too little. That’s sort of my philosophy about everything, actually.”
He makes a soft hmmm sound, his sexy lips pushing together, and he drinks some wine. “I’m the same, but also different. I keep busy. But only with what’s useful. Too much is always too much.”
It takes me a beat to realize he’s talking about himself.
About his actual personal self, which is another milestone.
We’ve been working together in close proximity for two long years, and somehow, I don’t think I’ve ever heard him speak about himself outside of schedules and meetings and emails.
It’s strange to imagine he has a personality outside of the office.
“Don’t you ever sometimes wish you had more?” I ask but immediately feel stupid. “No, you’re right, you’re a very busy man. What am I saying?” I laugh lightly to try and cover my mistake. Declan Whelan is filthy rich and powerful—what else could he possibly want?
But he glances away, his face softening for a moment. He seems lost in thought, and I squirm against the silence, struggling not to fill it with inane chattering.
“There are certain things I want but don’t yet have. Certain things most men want.” He looks at me again, and I swear his gaze tears into my skin. I nearly gasp with the intensity of it. “Would you like to hear all about what I want, Casey?”
Oh, god, yes, sir, please—
The waitress picks that moment to interrupt.
Declan orders the filet, and since I didn’t actually look at the menu, he chooses the same for me, plus another bottle of wine, a couple of fancy appetizers, and luxurious dessert.
I’m left breathless when the waitress leaves again, her eyes lingering on Declan’s muscular forearm when he pauses to push the sleeves of his sweater up.
I can’t blame her for ogling him. The guy’s got muscle and veins galore.
His arms should be blurred out.
They’re that distracting.
“Tell me more about your life with your aunt. Were you happy at home?”
“Sheila is great. I mean, she’s a little stiff and not super affectionate, but she’s always taken good care of me.”
He seems satisfied, although I don’t understand why. “You went to NYU, correct? What did you study?”
He probably knows the answer already, but he gets me talking anyway. Once I’ve finished my first glass of wine and he refills it from the new bottle, I feel myself starting to loosen up. I do most of the talking, and every time I feel like I’m going on too much, he prompts me with more questions.
I get the sense he prefers listening, which goes great with my chatterbox mouth.
An hour passes. The meal is divine. We work on a second bottle of wine. I’m feeling light and happy.
We don’t mention work. Not a single time.
After a while, I stop worrying whether this is a professional thing or if we’re on a date.
Instead, I focus on the delicious chocolate cake for dessert and the way he eats very small, measured bites while sipping bits of wine between each.
I mirror him and find the mix between the deep, rich chardonnay and the heavenly chocolate cake brings out new, complex flavors I didn’t even know existed.
He seems pleased when I mention it.
“You know what I’ve liked about you from the start?” he says, leaning back in his chair. “You’re a fast learner. You always have been. You’re not intimidated by new processes.”
I shrug casually, swirling my drink. “Everyone makes mistakes, especially when you’re doing something new. I just accept that it’s part of learning, and that makes picking up new skills a lot easier.”
“Who taught you that?”
“Sheila did.”
“Clever woman,” he murmurs, giving me a strange, intense look. “I wonder where she heard it?”
“Who knows?” I finish the last bite with a heavenly sigh. “That was amazing. Thank you, Declan.”
“You’re welcome.”
“I almost wish it weren’t over. I mean, I’m totally stuffed, but I’ve always been like this. More and more, you know what I mean? There’s no such thing as enough.” I laugh lightly, drinking down the last of the wine as well. “Sheila always says I’ve got big appetites.”
“What if I told you tonight didn’t have to be over?” His stare is piercing and intense. He holds my gaze, and a strange shiver runs down my arms, giving me goosebumps.
“What—what do you mean?”
“Come back to my apartment with me and find out.”