25. Soulful Hurtz #3
“Get back in school nigga, I want you over shipping now too. More money for you and the family. Also, take your full cut, you have only been taking five bands when I told you its ten now. Never cut yourself short of some shit that’s owed to you.
I will be seeing you tomorrow so I can tell you and Bundy about the new positions that y’all will be giving to the rest of the gang.
” I nodded my head and stood up feeling good about everything.
“Watch Bundy, a scorn man would do just about anything to get what he wants.” Inferno looked at Queen but was talking directly to me.
“I got you.” I made my way over to Queen. She stood up and hugged me then handed me a heavy envelope.
“For your troubles with Clapback.” She smiled at me. My chest tightened because I was now starting to have more money than I ever imagined. Thanking her once more I walked out of the warehouse feeling the depression and heavy weights that weighed me down slip away.
I pulled into the parent pickup area and waited for my sisters to walk out the gate from school.
The rain in Cali made people drive crazy as hell.
I could hear vehicles beeping for their kids and some parents standing out by the gate eager as hell to see their kids.
Luv and Passion walked out the gate side by side.
Luv had a mug on her face, and her hair was all over her damn head, indicating that she indeed had a fight today.
It was easier said than done with raising the girls.
I tried to be a good father figure but also have the kind of relationship to where they could feel open enough to express themselves to me.
Passion got in the front seat today, when she normally would ride in the backseat and let Luv take the front since she was the oldest. Today, Luv’s energy could be felt. She had a bad attitude and already had a look on her face like she was ready for me to get on her case.
“Can you take me to go see about my momma?” She looked out the window as I pulled off from the curb.
“I don’t know where Ma is, Luv. Let’s talk about you fighting and acting like you don’t got sense while at school.” I redirected the conversation. I was feeling good after my meeting with Queen and didn’t want to ruin how I was feeling bringing up my mom.
“Lia kept talking stuff, so I beat her ass.” She rolled her little frail neck, and I shook my head at her bad ass.
“Watch yo mouth Luv.” I warned and turned the radio down. “You think I like getting calls from the principal about you not being able to control yourself?” I looked at her pretty face through the mirror and she frowned up.
“I’ll do better if you just let me see about my mom! You deserting her and acting like you our damn daddy!” I merged to the left of the road and pulled over in front of Wendy’s then put my hazards on. Turning in my seat, I looked over at Luv. I really was tempted to whoop her ass.
“Keep talking to me disrespectfully Luv and I’ma beat yo ass. I ain’t desert momma! She deserted us and almost got Passion hurt real bad from those drugs.” I let that slip from anger and regret even saying it. I could hear Passion sniffling and already knew she was crying.
“I’m going to find my momma!” She snatched at the back door and then hopped out.
She took off running down the damn street.
I sighed with a heavy heart, putting on my hazards, I hopped out and started running after her.
Once I caught up with her, she kicked and screamed in my arms. Hearing her scream at the top of her lungs saying how much she hated me, broke my fucking heart.
I didn’t know what to do to make this shit better, I would never give up on Luv, but she was making this shit harder than it needed to be.
“Chill Luv, I promise I will go find momma and try to get her some help. You making things hard when I’m just doing the best I can to protect y’all from disappointment and hurt.
” I turned the hazards off and pulled back into traffic.
I opted out of turning the radio up, I was gone buy them some pizza and take my ass home so I could smoke the biggest blunt possible.
I worried about my mom just as much as the girls. I wondered if she went and tried to get help after her getting raped in beat in front of her own daughter. In my mind that should have been all it took for her to go get cleaned up.
That same dreadful feeling was starting to come over me again. I had an envelope full of money and backpay coming my way from the money I didn’t take from my cut with Queen. Yet I still found it hard to find my own happiness even if it was for just one damn day.
Money didn’t buy happiness, and I now knew this to be true.
So, for the sake of my sisters, I would push my anger and resentment to the side and find my mother.
Luv and Passion were too young right now to understand and see things the way that I did.
Disciplining was also something that I didn’t know shit about.
I could threaten Luv all day but she and I both knew that I would never lay a finger on her.