50. LUCIAS DIARY ENTRIES JANUARY 2013
My birthday ideas for Angie include: a heart-shaped necklace, books (But she doesn’t even read?), a new curler because her current one sucks…
Antony isn’t speaking to me anymore, and everything sucks.
I think he is still angry that I kissed another boy instead of him.
The only reason why I did that was because he wouldn’t kiss me.
I really, really wanted him to be the only one to ever kiss me.
Goals: find the perfect birthday gift for Angie and apologize to Tony.
I made Angelina cry today because I felt sad.
I get really angry sometimes because I feel like no one really knows me here.
Everything I say and do is wrong, and I worry that I am a bad person and a bad friend.
I don’t know why I feel this way, but it reminds me of my mom.
It’s sooo confusing… I didn’t even go out today.
Mom, Dad and Beckett are at this party, but I stayed home.
I’m just so sad.Sad and alone all the time.