Chapter 16 Marina
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
MARINA
“I FEEL YOU”
“I can’t believe I’m at another one of these shows,” Naomi says, taking a tepid sip of her beer, her eyes scanning the crowd. “I’m too old for this shit.”
“You’re supporting your friend,” I tell her.
She rolls her eyes. “No, I’m supporting your boyfriend.”
Tonight is Magic 8 Ball’s first show since they got their new keyboardist, the first show since they’ve made a new setlist and the first show I’ve seen as Lazarus Scott’s girlfriend.
It feels pretty good, actually.
Well, except for the fact that he has his fucking groupies that keep swarming him, more and more of them filling up the place the closer we get to showtime.
It’s Saturday night and we’re in a small venue/club in Anaheim.
People are here to party. It’s loud, people are doing the night’s special Jell-o shots.
It’s so not Naomi’s scene, nor mine, but this is what you do in a relationship.
You support each other, even if you’d rather have them all to yourself back at home.
And by all to myself, I mean, riding his cock like a fucking joystick.
It’s been a week since we’ve become “official” and we’ve basically spent every day having copious amounts of hot, sweaty, monkey sex.
“What are you thinking about?” Naomi asks, frowning. “Wait. Don’t tell me. I don’t want to know.”
I give her a smug smile but stop myself from the sex talk.
I mean, don’t get me wrong. I want to talk to her about it because sex is a brand new and shiny thing to me and I want to know if certain things are normal, what’s good, what’s bad, I want to tell the world just how damn good it feels.
I want to run up and down Ventura with my arms open wide and yell “I’M HAVING SEX! ”
But I don’t because Naomi is obviously still grappling with her divorce. Lately, Robert has been coming back and groveling and Naomi isn’t having any of it. Which is good. I’m proud of her. I know it must be hard to have to say no and stay strong and push away the person you’re still in love with.
So, I was hoping that tonight there would be some eligible bachelors who would help her take her mind off things but so far, no dice.
“What about that guy?” I ask her, pointing to a bearded fellow in the corner wearing a red shirt that says Bazinga! on it.
“Are you kidding me?” she says dryly.
I shrug and keep looking. I’m not a very good wing-woman though because the moment my eyes lock with Laz who is hanging out by the stage and talking with Frank and their keyboardist, I don’t see anyone else.
He gives me a small, knowing smile. It’s a secret smile just between us.
He looks good tonight. Real good. This is no surprise since he always looks good but I swear he might have borrowed some of my eyeliner before we left for the venue because his eyes are exceptionally squinty and brooding and dark.
He’s a bona fide badass rock star, wearing his boots, tight, black jeans that accentuate the python he’s packing, and a thin, black T-shirt that fits him like a glove.
And I’m not the only one who thinks so, judging by all those damn groupies. Even now, they’re gathered around him and there’s a tall redhead that keeps trying to get his attention. And Laz, being Laz, and not being rude, is now talking to her, smiling at something she’s saying.
Jealousy is a bitch. I’ve always felt that touch of it when I saw him with his girlfriends but I was pretty good at ignoring it, plus I got used to seeing him with them day in and day out.
But now that Laz is mine, it’s rearing his ugly head.
I watch him, waiting for him to look up and notice me.
But he doesn’t, not for a while. And then I catch his eye, I’m waiting for him to say something to the redhead, something like “hey, that’s my girlfriend over there” and have them both look my way.
But he just goes back to talking and smiling at her.
“Who’s the ginger?” Naomi asks. “She’s getting a little handsy for my liking.”
She is. She’s laughing along with Laz at something and leaning forward, her hand briefly on his chest.
“If she keeps doing that, I’m heading over there and opening up a can of whoop-ass on her white ass.”
“No,” I tell her, holding her back, because Naomi’s anger is feral these days. “It’s fine. It’s just a groupie.”
“Ugh,” she says, giving me side eye. “You better keep an eye on that boy.”
“I trust Laz,” I tell her. “They’re not all like Robert, you know.”
“I don’t know about that.”
“Laz would never cheat on me.”
Right? I mean, it’s not exactly something I’ve thought about, it’s just been a given. We’re exclusive with each other, that means something. And as far as I know, he’s never cheated on any of his girlfriends.
“You don’t look so sure,” she says studying me.
I look back at Laz. The redhead is doing all the classic flirting moves. Flipping her hair over her shoulder, touching his arm. Now he’s leaning in close and saying something in her ear. His smile is cocky. She looks pleased.
I feel sick. I know I shouldn’t. I know I shouldn’t let this get to me but it’s getting to me.
“You need to go over there and claim your man,” Naomi says, egging me on. “Before she does.”
She’s right. I should go over there and make my presence known. But before I can, Laz and the band head up on the stage and the redhead takes a spot among the other girls at the front of the stage.
Too late.
Shake it off, I tell myself. Don’t be a crazy girlfriend.
I’ve never really been anyone’s girlfriend, so it’s not really surprising to find out I am of the crazy variety. I mean, what about me has been normal so far?
Nothing.
See, now I’m talking to myself.
“Hiya,” Laz says into the microphone, guitar slung on his shoulder. “We’re Magic 8 Ball and we’re here for your pleasure.”
Even though I’m kind of pissed at myself for being pissed, I still smile at that cheesy opener.
“I can’t believe he still says that,” Naomi mumbles into her beer. She looks around. “And I can’t believe how popular they’ve gotten.”
“It’s Laz’s book. Now everyone who knows him for poetry is showing up at these things.”
“And this is why you need to keep an eye on him,” she says. “He’s just going to get more ginger vixens hanging off of him.”
“Do they have to be ginger?”
The band starts off with the new keyboardist, I think his name is Hugh, hitting a few notes and samples, then the drummer comes in.
“John the revelator,” Laz starts to sing, his deep voice pitch perfect as it soars across the crowd. It’s amazing how good he is, how his voice still reaches far inside me and fills up each hollow part.
Then the song hits the chorus, the tempo goes up, they get louder somehow and the whole crowd starts to groove and dance. I guess Laz was right, people really do want to be able to dance to their rock music these days.
“Seven lies, multiplied by seven, multiplied by seven again,” he sings and the crowd starts to sing along with him.
It’s pretty incredible. Any angst I had earlier over him and the redhead is gone and I’m just like everyone else.
I’m a fan. His biggest fan. I’m in awe, lost in the throes of his performance, the music, the way his voice makes me want to climb on that stage and fuck his brains out.
I can’t blame him in the slightest for having groupies because I know exactly what they’re feeling.
By the time the show is over, an hour later, everyone is happy, sweaty, drunk. I think a lot of people are getting laid tonight and I’m hoping that includes me.
Laz comes off the stage, his shirt damp and sticking to him, ramping up the hotness factor, and the redhead finds him again, grabbing hold of his bicep for a moment.
To my surprise, he takes her arm and starts leading her toward me through the crowd.
“What the fuckity fuck?” Naomi says.
Laz and the redhead stop right in front of us. “Marina, I’d like you to meet someone.”
Okaaaaaaay.
He nudges the redhead, who is even prettier up close.
“This is Samantha.”
“Hiya,” the girl says with the same Manchester accent as Laz and gives me her hand. “So nice to meet you. I grew up next door to Laz.”
“Oh,” I say, surprised. I guess that kind of explains why they were a bit more touchy-feely with each other. “Nice to meet you.” I shake her hand and look at Laz. “Did you know she would be here?”
“Nah,” Samantha says. “He had no idea. I follow him on Instagram and Facebook and I was in LA with my boyfriend, and decided I should go to the show and say hello, remember me!”
I immediately relax at the mention of a boyfriend, so much so that Laz’s brows twitch.
“Well I’m glad you managed to come, are you doing Disneyland and all that?”
She nods. “Yup. My boyfriend is back at the hotel, he’s so knackered after being at the park so I took a chance and came by myself. So glad I did, I was just buzzin’ to come to one of his shows.”
“I haven’t seen her since I was a teenager,” Laz says. “I even had to babysit her a few times.”
She laughs, high-pitched and girly. “You were rubbish at it too.”
Now that they mentioned babysitting, I can see that she is in fact quite younger than us.
“Well, I’m going to get a drink,” Samantha says.
“I’ll come with you,” Naomi says. “I’m Naomi, by the way,” she says with a head nod. They both walk off.
“What’s wrong?” Laz asks me as he bends down to give me a quick kiss.
“Nothing,” I say, pasting on a smile. “You were so amazing. Really. The more dancey, up-tempo songs were the right thing to do, people were so into it.”
“Good,” he says, still squinting at me. My god, he is wearing my eyeliner. “But something is up. I can read you like a book you know. If I didn’t know any better, you were worried about Samantha.”
I give him a dismissive wave. “Phhfff. Forget about it.”
“You looked relieved to hear she had a boyfriend.”
I give him a sharp look. “You really are observant, aren’t you?”
“Marina, come on.”
“Well what? I was watching you guys all night and she was totally hitting on you.”