Epilogue #2
“I said, I trust your judgment.” I let my thumbs trace her cheekbones. “But there’s a price.”
“I can assure you those are very expensive institutions. There will certainly be a price.”
But my gaze makes it clear I’m not discussing tuition. She catches up, her eyes shifting. “Rolan, I’m trying to have a serious?—”
“I know.” I let my hands travel down her neck, her shoulders, the length of her. “You can have your serious conversation. After.”
“That’s not—” Her breath catches as my hands find the hem of her dress and slide beneath it — and encounter nothing. No barrier. Just her.
I stop.
She meets my gaze with an expression that is attempting innocence and achieving nothing of the sort.
My eyes narrow. “Did you walk through this house without underwear? ”
She bites her lip. The smile is winning its war against her effort to suppress it. “Let’s say I was aware there might be a cost.”
The laugh escapes before I can contain it. Unguarded, unmanaged, the kind that belongs entirely to her. I pull her toward the desk.
“Always ready for me,” I say against her ear, my hands moving with intent.
“Rolan…”
“Turn around,” I order.
She obeys.
She’s so wet that I meet no resistance as I bury myself inside her.
She releases a moan, her body arching back against mine, and I gather her hair, pulling gently to bring her mouth within reach while I take her from behind.
My fingers find her center, and she moans again against my lips — a sound that nearly unravels my control entirely.
“Look what you do to me, Elizabeth.” I reserve her full name for moments like these now. I know precisely how she responds. “Now give it to me — come for me and we can talk.”
She does. Her body tightens around me as I follow her over the edge with my own release.
We take Anya ourselves on the first morning.
The terms required a week to negotiate. I don’t arrange anything involving my daughter’s security without exhaustive deliberation, regardless of what the threat assessment indicates.
The school is of the appropriate caliber: elite, which in this context translates to discretion rather than exposure. Children of governors, executives, and families who understand that privacy is a non-negotiable feature of their existence .
Two of my men stationed on the perimeter, with a direct line to the headmaster. There’s an understanding — reached with courtesy and the absolute clarity that Rolan Belov’s requests do not constitute suggestions — that certain protocols will be observed without exception.
It is possible, I’ve come to understand, to construct a life that is secure without building my daughter a cage.
Ellie sits beside me in the car, her hand in mine. Anya occupies the back seat, pressed against the window, absorbing the city. She’s wearing the new uniform, and her sketchbook is tucked inside her bag.
She looks excited.
The thought produces a pressure in my chest that I don’t resist. Six years of keeping her contained, of measuring safety in perimeters and protocols and controlled environments, and what I failed to recognize is what Ellie demonstrated from the very beginning: that the objective is not to shield Anya from the world.
The objective is to make her strong enough to stand in it.
We walk her to the entrance. She holds both our hands — mine on the left, Ellie’s on the right — and when the school doors part and the sound of other children reaches her, something transforms in her face that I am going to carry with me for the rest of my life.
Pure wonder.
She glances up at Ellie, who crouches to her level and says something I cannot hear. Anya nods and embraces her, fast and fierce, and then her gaze finds me.
I crouch down.
“ Poka, Papa ,” she says.
“ Poka, malaya .” I take her face in my hands. “Be yourself in there. The rest of them will catch up.”
She considers this with genuine seriousness. Nods. And then she walks through the door.
Ellie stands beside me as we watch her disappear. Her shoulder presses against my arm. After a moment, her hand finds my own.
“You were right,” I say.
“I’m—”
“About keeping her home for so long.”
Ellie’s gaze follows the doorway where Anya vanished.
“You were doing what you knew how to do,” she says. “Keeping her close. Keeping her protected. That was love.”
My gaze returns to her.
“But this is also love,” she says. “Letting her walk in.”
My phone vibrates.
I glance at the screen. Alexei.
I answer.
“Talk.”
I lower the phone and find Ellie watching my face, reading it the way she has learned to read everything about me — fluently, instinctively, without requiring translation.
“What happened?” she asks.
I interlace our fingers. The ring catches the morning light.
“We have a lead on Dmitri,” I tell her.
Her grip tightens.
“We’re going to find them,” I say. And I mean it.
She nods. Her eyes are bright with hope.
“Then let’s go home,” she says. “And get to work.”
I study her — this woman who entered my house carrying a five-hundred-thousand-dollar debt and was wearing Hello Kitty pajamas when we first met — and I think, I don’t deserve her.
And then, I’m going to spend the rest of my life ensuring she never has reason to agree.