Chapter Seven
“Her skull was smashed by the fall, Tate,” Stephen said grimly. “There was nothing I could do. Even I cannot bring back the dead.”
“I know,” Tate raked his fingers through his dark hair. “I did not mean to question your skills. All I want to know is if there was ever a chance to save her.”
Stephen shook his head wearily. “Nay,” he said hoarsely. “She was dead by the time she reached the bottom of the stairs. There was never any hope.”
Tate’s expression was taut with grief as he stood with Stephen in the hall outside of the master’s chamber. Kenneth stood slightly behind him and Edward was near the chamber door, his brown eyes swimming with tears as he gazed into the dimly lit room.
The four of them were entrenched in the unexpected tragedy, the shock of a little life cut short.
The three knights, having been trained to control their emotions, were nonetheless having a difficult time concealing what they felt.
Young Edward was positively beside himself.
They had all been fond of little Ailsa, like a breath of fresh air in the midst of their hellish mission, and her accidental death was a dark and cutting thing.
By the door, Edward wiped furiously at the tears in his eyes. “Mistress Toby is just sitting there, holding her and crying,” he said painfully. “Is there nothing to be done?”
The three knights looked at the young lad. “What would you have us do?” Stephen asked quietly. “Ailsa is dead. We cannot bring her back.”
“Can you at least give Mistress Toby something to make her feel better?”
Stephen sighed heavily, moving to peek inside the half-open door.
Toby was where he had left her, holding her sister’s corpse fiercely and weeping her heart out.
In fact, she’d not let go of the body since Tate had brought her sister up from where she had landed at the bottom of the stairs over an hour ago.
Stephen could hardly examine the little girl; Toby refused to let go.
But a full examination was not needed to know that she was quite dead.
“I have something to make her sleep,” he said, looking to Tate after a moment. “It is not going to be easy separating her from her sister’s body.”
Tate could see Toby and Ailsa from where he stood.
His own eyes were stinging and he realized it was because tears were close to the surface.
He hadn’t cried since that dark day four years ago when his wife had perished while giving birth.
Then he’d turned into a stone. Now the stone was cracking.
The emotions were starting to come forth once again.
He didn’t like it, but he knew there was no way he could stop it.
“Give her time,” he finally said, fighting off pangs of grief as he turned to Kenneth. “We will need a coffin for Ailsa. Will you see to that?”
Kenneth nodded slowly, his ice-blue eyes beholding the scene through the crack in the doorway. But he tore his eyes away as if he did not want to witness such pain. He was about to reply when a low voice came from the darkened stairwell.
“I told you that womenfolk did not belong at Harbottle.”
No one had seen Wallace come up the stairs.
He stood several steps down from the landing, hidden by the shadows.
Tate, Stephen, Kenneth and Edward turned to look at the man, looking dark and grim as he hovered just out of the light.
Tate found that his patience with the man’s grumbling was vanished.
Now he was brittle, poised to strike at a wrong word.
“The child’s fall down the stairs had nothing to do with whether or not she belonged here,” he growled.
“If I hear another dark word come out of your mouth about this incident, I will cut your tongue out and throw it to the birds. I have had enough of your grumbling; go with Kenneth and help him find a suitable coffin for the girl. Stay out of my sight until my anger has cooled.”
Kenneth had never heard Tate issue such a threat; the man was perpetually calm in all things. He could only surmise it was the force of his emotion talking. The big blond knight moved to the stairs, grabbing Wallace by the arm and forcing him back down from whence he came.
Tate’s angry gaze lingered on the darkened stairs long after they had gone as he struggled to collect himself.
He realized very quickly that his unchecked emotions were manifesting into sharp commands and zero tolerance.
He should have been embarrassed but found that, in truth, he was not.
He was feeling something for the death of Ailsa and was not ashamed about it.
With a heavy sigh, he turned back to the half-open door.
“Get your potion prepared,” he said softly, pushing the door open slightly in preparation for entering. “I have a feeling we are in for a long and difficult night.”
Stephen nodded faintly, following Tate into the room where his medicament bag lay open near the hearth. As Stephen went for the bag, Tate went for the bed. The closer he drew, the more his heart ached for what he saw.
Toby was cradling Ailsa against her chest, the child’s head lying upon her breast. Toby had been weeping painful, steady tears for over an hour.
Her left arm was wrapped around the body, her right hand pressed against Ailsa’s head.
Tears, saliva and mucus rained onto Ailsa as Toby expended her grief.
Tate stood a moment, watching her slender body shake with sobs, wondering if there was anything in the world he could say to ease her sorrow but knowing in the same breath that there was not.
“Elizabetha,” he murmured, leaning over and gently putting his hands on her arms. “Can Stephen have Ailsa for a while? Just for a short while so that you may rest.”
Toby’s reply was to weep harder and hold on tighter. Tate sat down on the bed behind her, his big torso pressed up against her back and his massive arms winding around hers until he, too, was holding Ailsa. He just held them both a moment, rocking them gently.
“I promise that Stephen will take good care of her,” he murmured into Toby’s hair. “But you must rest a while. Just a short while, I promise. Will you trust him to take care of her?”
Toby was in a haze of grief. She couldn’t think of anything other than the tragedy that had befallen her and she held her sister’s cooling corpse tightly, trying to infuse some warmth into it.
It hadn’t sunk in yet that her sister would never rise again.
This was the child she had raised since infancy so in a sense, not only had she lost her sister but she had lost her child as well.
On the heels of Forestburn’s destruction and her parents’ death, the horrific accident was too much for her to take and she held on tightly for fear that if she let go, she would lose everything.
At least if she continued to hold Ailsa, she’d not lost her entire family.
Irrational thoughts, but at the moment, she was quite irrational. She was spiraling.
“Nay,” she sobbed into Ailsa’s hair. “You cannot have her.”
By this time, Stephen was standing next to the bed, a cup in his hand that contained the sleeping elixir. He bent over, touching Toby’s hand gently.
“I promise I will take great care of her,” he said soothingly. “But I should like for you to rest a while. Ailsa would not want you to become ill again. It would displease her.”
Toby tightened her grip, feeling threatened with one knight in back of her and another standing over her. She was sure they were going to snatch Ailsa away and she would not let them have her.
“Go away,” she hissed. “Go away and leave us alone.”
Stephen caressed Toby’s hand comfortingly. “Please, Toby,” he moved beyond the formalities. “Please let me take care of her for a while. You need to rest and I must tend to Ailsa. I cannot do that if you are holding her.”
“You cannot have her,” Toby sobbed.
“Why not?”
“Because she is mine.”
“Of course she is yours. I do not wish to keep her. I only want to have her for a little while as you rest.”
Toby gazed down at the ashen face of her little sister, who looked as if she was merely sleeping. No gore, no blood; just peace. Toby’s face crumpled and tears fell like rain.
“Why did you do that?” she begged the child mournfully. “Why did you fall on those stairs? You know you should have been more careful. Why did you fall?”
Stephen continued to rub at Toby’s hand, trying to offer what comfort he could. “It was an accident,” he said gently. “You cannot blame her. She simply fell.”
“Stupid!” Toby suddenly burst, shaking Ailsa angrily.
“It was stupid! You should not have been running! I should have… I should have.…” Her face went slack as if a horrible thought had just occurred to her.
“I should have held your hand. I should have grabbed you before you got too close. I should have….”
Toby was bordering on temporary insanity as she babbled; Stephen’s brow was furrowed as he and Tate passed concerned glances. “It was not your fault,” Stephen said with more firmness. “It was an accident. Please let me take Ailsa while you rest; I promise I shall give her back.”
Toby shook her head, recoiling from Stephen, realizing that Tate was behind her and trying to recoil from him, too.
She ended up struggling to her feet, holding her limp sister and trying to get away from the knights.
But she wasn’t strong enough to lift Ailsa entirely and she ended up dragging her sister several feet across the floor.
It was pathetic and harrowing. Tate rose slowly from the bed, watching Toby struggle to get away from them.
There was tremendous pain in his eyes, knowing very well what she was feeling. He had felt it once, too.