Chapter 34
Chapter Thirty-Four
Ben
L ater that night, after dinner, I slip out of the kitchen and onto the deck. All the parents went to town to meet some other friends from home who are also up at the lake, and everyone else is otherwise occupied. Hallie stands alone by the deck railing, staring out at the sun setting over the lake. She’s wearing cutoff shorts, a hoodie, and flip-flops, her golden-brown hair loose around her shoulders. An August night personified. I come up behind her and press up against her back. Resting my hands on the railing on either side of her, I cage her in. She melts back into me and leans her head against my shoulder. We stand there like that for a few minutes in silence. She watches the sun slip lower, and I watch her.
Even in the dimming twilight, her green eyes sparkle at what I know is her favorite view. Her face looks calm and happy. I wrap both my arms around her, and she settles back even deeper against my chest. She fits perfectly against me. Her body curves like we’re meant to stand together exactly like this. I lean down and kiss her where her neck meets her shoulder, breathing in her cherry vanilla scent. And I wish, just for a second, that I could stop time and stand here like this forever. The fireflies flash, and the crickets sing, and the lake laps against the shore, and my favorite girl is wrapped in my arms. There has never been a more perfect moment.
The sun drops below the horizon, leaving behind a sky full of brilliant slashes of color. The sunset in this part of Western Maryland never disappoints, and this one is extra brilliant. Like it was sent here just for us, to bless whatever this is that is growing between us. To add a little strength to the still-fragile ties holding it together. Hallie is still staring out at the lake, smiling softly. Her face glows under the painted sky.
“Have you ever seen anything so beautiful?” she breathes.
“I have,” I say, my eyes still locked on her. There must be something in my voice because she turns her head to look at me. Our eyes meet, and her breath catches at whatever she sees on my face.
“Ben,” she whispers.
I don’t know who moves first, but in a heartbeat, our mouths meet. I spin her around and press her back into the deck rail, and she winds her arms around my neck, moaning into me as I take the kiss deeper, sliding my tongue into her mouth. At her taste, need and desire pummel me like a wave crashing onto shore. There is no way she can’t tell what this kiss is doing to me, how badly I want her, but neither of us makes any move to leave the deck. Instead, we stand there, bodies locked together, kissing each other senseless under a darkening sky, with the sounds of night all around us. And in this moment, I know that I am going to love Hallie Evans until the day I die.
We stumble into my room, and I kick the door closed before pushing Hallie back against it and sealing my mouth over hers. Once it got too dark to see on the deck, we came inside, skirting past all our friends hanging out in the great room and making a beeline for my room before anyone else noticed. I heard them all talking about going to town to get ice cream, and I hope they do that as soon as possible and leave us the fuck alone. Thinking ahead to our friends’ dubious respect for boundaries, I tear my mouth from Hallie’s and reach behind her to flip the lock on the door.
“Good thinking,” she says, breathlessly before pulling my lips back to hers. I push her back against the door as our mouths move together. Then I drop my hands to her waist, dipping under the hem of her hoodie and skimming my fingers up her ribs to stroke along the sides of her breasts.
Her whole body shivers, and she lets out a sexy little moan I will no doubt be hearing in my dreams. Pulling the cups of her bra down, I rub my thumbs over her peaked nipples, then roll them between my thumb and forefinger. Hallie pulls her mouth from mine, sucking in a sharp breath and arching her back away from the door, pushing herself harder into my hands.
“God, Ben. More. Please.”
Her voice sounds breathless and just a little wild. And if she gets that way just from my hands on her nipples, I can’t wait to see what she looks and sounds like when I finally get inside her. That thought alone has me hard as steel. I crush my mouth back to hers then grip the hem of her hoodie and pull it over her head. I toss it onto the floor at our feet and reach behind me to pull my own shirt off. Hallie throws her unhooked bra down with it, and then our mouths crash back together. I wrap my hands around her waist and pull her body flush with mine, my hard cock pressing against her stomach. Hallie reaches up and tangles her hands in my hair, and I deepen our kiss, stroking my tongue inside her mouth to taste her. She tastes like summer and the margaritas we drank at dinner and like she is so completely mine.
I kiss and lick down her jaw and skim my lips down her throat and across her collarbone. Then I close my lips around her nipple, sucking it hard while I roll the other one between my fingers. She lets out a throaty moan, and I switch sides, taking the other nipple in my mouth while her hands tug at my hair.
Pushing her back against the door, I move lower, dropping to my knees in front of her. I pop the button on her cutoffs and push them down her legs, taking her underwear with them, before skimming my hands down her legs and lifting one foot, and then the other, freeing them from her shorts. Hallie standing above me completely naked, chest heaving and pulse fluttering rapidly in her throat, has my own heart pounding. I can’t wait to get my mouth on her.
My eyes meet hers and she smirks at me. “You look good down there.”
“I will get on my knees for you anytime you want me to, Hallie girl. It’s my fucking pleasure. Now, I am going to lick you and suck you until you come on my tongue. Then I am going to press you into my bed and slide inside of you and fuck you until you come on my cock so many times that you lose count and can’t think of anything but you and me and how good we are together. Does that work for you, Hal?”
“Yes. God. Do that. All of it. Now.”
“Good answer. Brace yourself, Hallie girl.”
I lift one of her legs over my shoulder, then skim my thumb through her slit, collecting all the moisture already gathered there, and use it to circle my thumb around her clit. Hallie lets out a gasp, and one of her hands flies into my hair, tugging in a way that sends a bolt of lust through me and has me thirty seconds from coming, completely untouched, all over my bedroom floor. I take a deep breath to get my shit together. Then I lean forward and lick along the path my thumb just took, dipping my tongue inside her over and over again. Hallie’s taste explodes on my tongue, and Jesus Christ, it’s so perfect. I could live down here with my mouth buried in her sweet pussy. I glide my tongue up to circle her clit, and she moans, her head dropping back against the door. I keep circling her clit lightly until she is grinding down, searching for more friction.
“Please, Ben,” she begs.
I lift my head and glance up at her. “Tell me what you need.”
She meets my gaze and never breaks it as she says, “I need you to suck on me until I come.”
Hallie telling me what she needs is a heady thing, and I want nothing more than to give it to her. I dip back down, wrapping my lips around her and sucking her clit into my mouth. She lets out a loud moan, and her leg almost buckles. I reach up and grip her hip, steadying her against the door. With my other hand, I push two fingers inside her. I know I hit the right spot when her muscles contract and she starts to fuck herself on my fingers. I could live a thousand lifetimes and would never get tired of giving Hallie her pleasure.
“Don’t stop,” she moans. “Right there, please. Don’t fucking stop.”
Like I would ever. I suck her clit even harder and curl my fingers deep inside her. I feel the second her release starts. Her legs start to shake, and her hands tighten in my hair, pushing my face even tighter against her. Then I graze my teeth over her clit before sealing my mouth back around it, and she comes apart above me with a loud cry. Her release coats my lips and chin, and I stay with her through it, licking up everything she gives me. When her orgasm finally ebbs, she collapses back against the door. I lift her leg off my shoulder and place it on the ground before standing and lifting her up, wrapping her legs around my waist.
“Fuck, Ben, that was… I don’t even know what that was.”
“That was just the beginning, Hallie girl. You haven’t seen anything yet.” I carry Hallie over to the bed and drop her down on the comforter. Pushing off my sweatpants and boxer briefs, I crawl on top of her, grinning when I see her gazing down at my cock warily.
“I think I was in such a lust haze last night that I forgot how big you are. Like, you’re really, really big”
I snort out a laugh. Jesus, this woman. No woman I have ever been with has made me laugh while I’m so hard that I could hammer a nail into a wall with my dick. “Thanks for the compliment, Hal.”
“That wasn’t a compliment, Benji. There is no way it’s going to fit.”
I toss her a wink. “We’ll make it fit, Hallie girl.”
I lean down to kiss her again, my weight balanced on my forearms. I reach down and push her legs apart, fitting my cock right to where she is hot and wet and ready for me. Never breaking our kiss, I drag myself through her wetness, grazing her clit with my tip over and over again, until we are both gasping into each other’s mouths, and I am half-crazy with the need to be inside her. She must feel the same because she slides her hands down my back, gripping my ass and pulling me to her.
“Now, Ben,” she says, her hands tightening on my ass.
Fucking hell. “Condom,” I manage, starting to roll away to grab one from the box I stuck in my suitcase in a moment of optimism I thank my past self for.
She props herself up on her elbows and looks at me. “Do we…need it?”
“Huh?” I momentarily lose the power of speech at the thought of sinking inside of Hallie bare.
“The condom, Ben. Do we need it? I’ve been tested. And I have an IUD.”
“Me too. I mean, I’ve been tested, too. And I’ve always…I mean, I’ve never…With anyone.”
“Me, either.”
“Hallie, I want nothing more than to fuck you bare, but are you sure?”
“I’m so sure. I trust you. Now, please, get inside me.”
I roll Hallie back under me and fit my mouth over hers in a kiss that is slow and filthy and has her hands back on my ass, urging me towards her. I lift my head, and Hallie stares back at me, lips wet and eyes wide and trusting and filled with lust. My heart bangs against my rib cage with nerves and anticipation, needing Hallie more than I need air in my lungs. I reach down and guide myself towards her entrance. She is so turned on and so wet that I slide inside her in one slow motion and groan at how good she feels. Hot. Wet. Tight. Perfect. I still inside her, giving her time to adjust to me and giving myself a second to gather what’s left of my tattered control.
“Look at me, Hallie.”
Hallie’s gaze is hazy with pleasure. She is so beautiful it reaches out and grabs me by the throat, and I have to swallow down a wave of emotion. She wraps her legs around me and hooks her ankles at my back.
“Fuck me, Ben,” she gasps out. “I need you to fuck me now.”
I pull out almost to the tip and push back inside her, our moans mingling together as pleasure shoots up my back.
“You are so fucking perfect, Hallie girl. You feel like you were made for me.”
I drop my head and kiss her again, my tongue swirling with hers as I move inside her. I have lived this moment a thousand times in my head over the years, and nothing I imagined comes close to the feeling of being inside Hallie, her legs wrapped around me and her hips rising to meet me thrust for thrust. We are as close as two people can be, and still, it doesn’t feel like enough. I reach back and grab one of her legs under her knee, spreading her even wider for me. The change in position has her legs shaking and her inner muscles clenching around me.
“That’s it, Hallie girl. Give it to me. Come for me,” I growl into her neck, picking up my pace.
“Fuck, Ben,” she cries out. “I’m coming.” Her orgasm slams into her, her hips jerking up and her pussy choking my cock so tight that I have to grit my teeth to keep from coming myself. But I promised her more than one orgasm, and I’ll be damned if I break that promise the first time I fuck her. I slow my pace but keep it steady, until she collapses back against the pillow and looks up at me with a dazed expression on her face.
“Fucking hell, Ben. I have never come that hard.”
I smirk at her. “You’ll come harder.”
I pull out of her then and flip her over onto her stomach. I kiss her neck and then kiss and lick my way down the soft points of her spine as my hands glide down her sides. When I get to her ass, I kiss each round globe and then grip her hips, lifting them until she is on her knees, balancing her weight on her forearms. I reach around and pinch both of her nipples, then roll them between my thumbs and forefingers. She hisses out a breath and lifts her hips higher.
“ Ben ,” she whispers urgently. “I need you.”
Hearing her say she needs me, even if she just means she needs me to get back inside her, does something to me, and my chest squeezes tight. I grip her hips hard and slide back in, mesmerized by the view of my cock disappearing inside her.
“You look hot as fuck like this, Hallie,” I grit out, picking up my pace. She arches her back and moves with me, meeting me thrust for thrust, making the hottest fucking sound every time I slam back inside her.
“Touch me,” she gasps out.
Without slowing my pace, I reach around and swirl my thumb around her clit. She cries out so hard I would be worried about the entire house hearing us if I wasn’t so lost in the feel of our bodies moving together. Being inside her, moving with her, feels so fucking good, but I suddenly, urgently, need her closer to me. I wrap an arm around her chest and yank her up so that her back is flush with my front. Then I slide my hand up and lightly grip her throat, my other hand strumming her clit. I still don’t feel close enough, and she must feel the same because she turns her head back towards me, our mouths meeting in a kiss that is all teeth and tongues and fucking filthy.
“Harder,” she rasps, reaching up and wrapping an arm around my neck, anchoring herself to me even tighter.
“Anything, Hallie girl,” I whisper in her ear, tightening my hand on her throat. She must like it because her inner walls start to flutter around me. “I’ll give you fucking anything.”
I pull out and angle my hips so when I slide back into her, I hit her g-spot, and that does it. She clenches around me and comes on a scream. Hallie coming apart around me is every fantasy come to life, and I can’t hold it in anymore. The most intense pleasure I have ever felt shoots up my spine, and I explode into her, biting her shoulder as I come. My vision blacks out around the edges, and the orgasm continues to roll through me, my release spilling inside her. My hips slow as my orgasm ebbs, and we both collapse onto the mattress, my arm snaking out around Hallie’s waist to pull her against me.
“Holy shit,” she gasps, her chest still heaving from her release.
“Yeah,” I say, my lips finding the top of her head. I tighten my arm around her and glide my other hand up and down her back.
“That was…wow.”
“Yeah, Hallie girl, it was.”
“I mean, sex has never felt like that for me. Has it for?—”
“No,” I say, not even letting her finish her sentence. “Never. It’s never been like that for me, either.”
I lean down and kiss her again and then untangle myself from her. “Be right back.” I go into the bathroom, clean myself up, and then wet a towel with warm water. I take it back to the bed and use it to clean Hallie up and toss it into the hamper in the corner of the room. I lift Hallie up, lay her down on the pillows, and then climb in next to her. I drag the comforter over both of us and then gather her into me so that her head is pillowed on my shoulder, both of my arms around her. I smile as she tosses a leg over me, inching herself even closer.
“You didn’t have to do that,” Hallie says, her voice thick with exhaustion. “Clean me up like that, I mean. I could have done it myself.”
“I did,” I say, matter-of-factly. “I will never not take care of you.”
“I like being taken care of,” she whispers, her voice barely audible. “No one ever thinks I need it, but I do. I just don’t know how to ask.” Then she nuzzles her face deeper into my neck and drops into sleep.
I lay there for a long time, holding on to Hallie, my heart squeezing at her admission. I know what it cost her to say those words, even half asleep.
Tangled up naked in my bed with the girl of my dreams, I make a silent vow to take care of her for the rest of my life, to give her everything she needs before she ever has to ask.