Chapter 7 Unraveling
“My mind is like glass, sharp and clear; my light shines bright, I have no fear.”
For the past week, I’ve been lodged in Donovan’s condo, letting him fuck every hole on my body.
Today, I was finally at home, in my own space.
It was a nice morning, so I decided to come outside to my field and meditate.
The energy surrounding me has been very dark and heavy for the past few days, and I needed a reset.
Not only that, but the premonitions I’ve been having every night have been very unsettling.
You got what you wanted
The spirits took their fee
You should have left them silent
Now you’ll never be free.
Those chilling words have been sung to me in the consistent nightmares I was having, causing me to wake up in cold sweats.
Each night, I would wake up in Donovan’s arms with him staring at me as if he were looking into my soul.
That shit freaked me out, and I sought to put some space between us.
Today was his first day back to work since he popped up at my job, and I welcomed the solitude.
It made me wish I hadn’t quit my job so impulsively, but it is what it is. I’ll figure things out as I always do.
As I allowed my skin to absorb the rays of the sun, the fog in my head finally began to clear.
Breathing in the fresh air, I felt the energy around me shift and become lighter.
Maybe being in my own home is what I needed instead of always being with him.
The more time I spend with him, the more I second-guess my decision to perform the black magic to will him to me.
Yes, I want him and love the things he does for me, but I feel like that’s all it is.
I love the idea of him, but I no longer enjoy being with him.
I was torn on what to do because this is what I wanted—this is what I’d asked for.
However, the possessiveness he’s shown me was not healthy.
I could not stop thinking that maybe this wasn’t the best choice I’d made.
Crack! Boom!
I jumped from the sudden sound of thunder, opening my eyes quickly to find the noise source. I was so confused when I glanced up and found that dark clouds had transformed the sky. It had gotten so dark so quickly, you’d think it was nighttime instead of ten in the morning.
Bam! Crash!
Hearing the sound of breaking coming from the inside of my cabin is what finally made me jump my ass up and head inside.
I didn’t have time to gather my incense, mat, and morning tea before I was running across the yard.
Now on my porch, I stopped at the back door, eyes wide from the shock of what I was seeing.
My front door had been kicked in, swinging back and forth as it was halfway off the hinges. My furniture had been overturned, and broken glass was everywhere.
“Donovan!” I screamed, causing him to stop. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
With his back turned to me, he slowly pivoted at the sound of my voice.
Gasping loudly, I covered my mouth in horror as I took him in once he’d faced me.
His clothing was disheveled as he panted heavily.
What scared me the most were his eyes. No longer hazel, they beamed a bright yellow.
He looked as if he were possessed. Stepping closer to me, I could see clear as day the shadows that were dancing in them.
Donovan, the man I fought so hard to get, is no longer here with me.
“Where the fuck have you been?” he roared as he continued to throw plates and plants all over my house.
“I told you to stay at my house and wait for me!” His eyes narrowed as he glared at me, scanning my body before he dropped a drinking glass, shattering it everywhere.
“Where have you been? You been fucking another nigga?”
“Baby, no.” I placed my hands in the praying position as he walked my way. “You know I love you and no one else.”
Once I was within reach, he grabbed me by the arm, slamming me into his chest. As I searched his soulless eyes, it was confirmed that the Donovan I knew and loved was no longer with me. I couldn’t help the lone tear that slid down my cheek.
“There… there.” He grinned, licking the trail of tears that were now falling. “There’s no need to cry, Mama. Daddy is home now. I thought being with me was what you wanted. I thought I was all you needed.”
“Y-You are, baby.” I hiccupped as I cried. “I just don’t like you like this.” I winced when his grip on my arm drew tighter. “Donnie, you’re hurting me.”
Ignoring my cries and pleas, he slammed his lips onto mine.
Usually, his touch made me melt; now it felt as if my skin was on fire.
Not letting up, I grew tired of his nails digging into my arm, so I returned his kiss.
For effects, I moaned into it. That must have pleased him because his grip loosened as he pulled me closer to him.
“You don’t know how worried I was when I tracked your location here instead of home.” He pulled back, placing his forehead on mine. “I don’t want you here anymore.”
Breathing forcefully, I tried to think of my words before I stated them.
I didn’t want to say or do anything that would trigger him to lash out more.
“Donnie, this is my home, love.” He reared his head back and glared down at me.
“This is where I live. I love spending time with you, but now and then, I need my own space, baby. You understand, don’t you? ”
Looking at me as if I had two heads, he chuckled menacingly as he nodded his head.
Placing his hand in his slacks, he stepped back from me.
“You want me to kill you, huh?” He angled his head and grinned.
“You want me to chop your ass up and spread you through the Valley for the wolves that you think live out here.”
“Baby—”
“Shut the fuck up, witch bitch!”
My mouth closed instantly. Donovan was a solid man, and overpowering him wasn’t an option.
He was scaring me, though, so I needed to figure out how to maneuver this situation in my favor.
Shifting my eyes from where he stood, I looked around for an item to aid me in my defense.
Before I could locate anything, he began to shout.
“You think just because you need space, I’m supposed to give it to you?
You think you’re better than me? Look around!
” He spread his arms out before looking around my clusterfuck of a home.
“This ain’t shit but a shed of junk! You have all of your little potions, spells, and incense, and think that’s all you need to rid yourself of me?
” Shaking his head in disbelief, his eyes glowed a brighter yellow than they had been moments earlier.
“You can burn all the sage you want, baby. You’re never getting rid of me.
This ain’t the shit you see on television or read about in your black book. This is the real death row.”
Pacing my floor, he laughed and talked to himself like I wasn‘t in the room with him. Shaking from fear, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Trying my best to clear my mind, I chanted a spell that I knew would make this better since I had no physical reinforcements.
I was wrong, and now I see
Unbinding our love is my plea
This is no longer what I want to gain
Loose the hold and break the chain
As I chanted over and over, I felt the room around me go still. With my heart beating in my ears, I took one more deep breath before opening my eyes.
“Ahh!” I jumped back, hand over my thumping heart. Donovan was now standing directly in front of me, eyes glowing with the shadows dancing in them, darkening. “What are you—”
“You thought some little Dr. Suess rhyme was going to make me leave?” He smiled brightly, looking crazier than ever.
“Stop playing with me, Sabrena, before I show you what Hocus Pocus really is.” Turning to exit the kitchen, he kicked over my cauldron filled with all the essentials I was brewing for the next full moon.
My eyes followed him as he made his way back into my living room.
Posting on the wall, he crossed his ankles and folded his arms as he mugged me.
“You have ten minutes to grab your shit so we can leave. Clock starts now.”
Darting out of the kitchen, I made my way to my bedroom and began packing clothes.
I didn’t know how long he was going to make me stay with him this time, so I was grabbing as much as I could.
Once I had what I could gather, I went to my Spell Nook and grabbed my spell book, placing it in my bag but out of his view.
There is no way I could continue to be with Donovan if this is how he’s going to act.
Not only was he scaring the hell out of me, but he’d also gotten physical and threatened me.
I wasn’t sure how negatively the spell had affected him, but I quickly found out and was hating what I now saw.
Making my way back up the hall, I entered my once cozy living room, and his jumpy eyes snapped to mine as.
Gripping the straps of my bag, I watched as his eyes lingered on it before he brought them back to mine.
Shifting his entire persona, he smirked and held his hand out to me. “Come on, baby. Let’s go home.”
Nervously, I placed my hand in his and let him lead me out of my sanctuary.
Closing my door as best as he could, he glared at me once more before bringing my hand to his lips, peppering it with the calmest kisses.
Once in his truck, I let out the breath I didn’t know I was holding.
The flip in his behavior had frightened me more than the erratic chaos he caused earlier.
This spell wasn’t working out the way I wanted.
I had infinite proof that he loves me and only me, but I no longer desired his love.
I needed to find Gertrude quickly so I could figure out a way to reverse this.
If I wasn’t able to undo the black magic I’d done, I was afraid of what the future truly held for Donovan and me.