Chapter 38
Chapter
Thirty-Eight
BASS
I pull up to the parking lot just outside my property, not even fully parked and the engine still running, when she jumps out of the passenger seat of my SUV and runs off toward the beach heading straight to the water. I slam my head back against the seat cursing out loud at the madness inside this woman. My woman. “Fuck,” I huff into the air, opening the door and jumping out after her. I thought we were past this shit, but I know it was me who fucked up tonight, blurting out her pregnancy to her brother. The fucker just irks me so much, it pissed me off to hear him say she was going with him and not me.
Jade’s halfway to the water by the time I get out of my car, surprisingly she’s much faster than I expected her to be, especially looking like shit with a cut across her knee, which she refused to tell me how she really got. I don’t believe she tripped inside the fun house. However, my girl is still no match for me.
The sky above is tranquil and dark, every twinkling star visible on this clear spring night. The full moon illuminates the ocean water before her, reflecting off that gorgeous blond hair that blows wildly in the wind as she runs. Like a rebellious she-wolf, sprinting in the sand heading toward the vast ocean, not realizing it’s going to be ice fucking cold when she jumps in. But that’s Jade for you, impulsive and reckless, with a hint of valiance. She’s pissed because of what occurred earlier tonight, and although she may soon realize the stupidity of her tantrum, she won’t back down. Her pride, like mine, is too strong of an unconscious emotion. She can’t stop, won’t stop, until she’s proved her point and in this case, it’s that she can do whatever the fuck she wants. Not on my watch Little Wolf. This alpha won’t settle for a wayward, defiant mate.
It takes me about thirty seconds to catch up to her, right on the water's edge, and when I do I wrap my arms around her waist, hoisting her up into the air, her legs kicking wildly splashing in the water as her body squirms in my hold.
“Let go of me Sebastian! I swear I will fucking scream,” she huskily shouts out of breath. If I didn’t know any better I’d say she’s turned on. What am I saying? Of course she’s turned on, my baby’s deviant and fucked up like that.
I bring my mouth to her ear, blowing slightly as I speak causing her to curve her back into me. My hardened cock pushes into her ass as she wriggles against it. “Do it baby, that’s the beauty of living on a private, secluded beach, there is nobody out here to hear your cries for help. Well nobody that would give a shit at least,” I whisper, gravelly into her ear and her body instantly relaxes in my hold. “So scream all you want, nobody can hear you, nobody will come to your rescue. You’re stuck with me. There is no hero hiding in the shadows willing to risk it all to rescue the reluctant damsel. Only a cruel villain who takes what he wants, when he wants it, and you’re lying to yourself if you act like that’s not exactly what you want.”
I use her newfound willingness to be in my arms to turn her around, swaying her body in front of me and moving so I’m hovering over her. I slowly set her down on the soft, grainy sand, my body enveloping her in a blanket of heat and muscle. She flinches as her back touches the wet sand, her eyes fluttering slightly, long lashes blinking at me, iridescent irises watching me carefully. Her cheeks darken, a rosy flush covering them while her lips plump and open await my next move.
I don’t think twice, I don’t give her time to think either as I bring my mouth down to her, taking her lips in a passionate and spellbinding kiss. Or maybe it’s me who’s under the spell because the moment our lips connect, my baby takes over reaching her arms around my back and clawing as they slide up and down. Her tongue assaults, me savagely moving inside my mouth, wrapping around mine, my metal ring grazing her tenderly. Her legs move to wrap around my waist, pulling me in closer to her, my dick grinding against her needy, heated center. I could die right now and my life’s purpose would have been fulfilled.
Though when her lips leave mine I instantly feel alone, empty without her searing touch. “You’re wrong you know,” she whispers against my mouth, her voice thick and coated in arousal. Her tongue grazes the stubble on my chin as she bites down softly, but hard enough to make a mark. I groan as I push into her, closing my eyes and praying that by some miracle our clothes disappear leaving us bare and skin to skin. “I’m not the damsel waiting to be rescued by the hero of the story,” she shakes her head, a low, sultry chuckle escaping her. “I’m the real threat, the honorable villain hiding behind the disguise of a damsel who needs to be saved. I’m the savage beast, the monster creeping in the dark of night waiting for the perfect moment to come out and attack. When the characters are at their most vulnerable, that’s when I strike. Like a starved wolf in the night going in for its next kill. Unexpecting and unapologetic.”
I shake my head disapproving of her response, sucking against her neck, “Tsk, tsk, that’s where you’re wrong Jade. There is not one villainous bone in your body. Nothing about you which makes you the dangerous culprit. ”
She lets out a deep, guttural laugh, one that reverberates from the deepest part of her being. Looking down into her eyes is like seeing a reflection of my own. Like looking through a mirror, through a transparent film. Behind this mask of cold-blooded beast, it’s all there, the fear of getting close, the dread of being let down, the melancholic feeling which comes with not being able to give yourself over to fate. It’s all too real, inexplicably terrifying yet I can’t look away. Like green whirlpools sucking me in, unrestrained and unable to escape their depths I’m swallowed into the emerald wells.
“You say that because you don’t truly know me, Sebastian. You don’t know what my life has been like, what struggles I’ve had to endure, the chains I must break free from, the pain that lies within me. You’ll never understand the depths of the darkness I’ve felt.”
Her words send a pang of guilt straight to my chest because of the part I played in all of her hurt. Although not the biggest of her pains, it must still have felt like the worst kind of betrayal. She trusted me, gave me every part of her body, mind, and soul. Every time we fucked I got one step closer to finding out who she truly is, one inch deeper into the steeled walls she’s built around her heart. I’m afraid that in betraying her once again by confessing her pregnancy to her brother, at least in her eyes, I’ve ruined my chances at breaking through again. However, I am not a man who backs down at the sight of a challenge, not one to turn away from what I want and what I need. Jade is the one thing I can't, won’t, live without.
I cradle her face between my palms, “I know you better than you think, better than anyone ever could, because whether you believe me or not, whether you accept it or don’t, you and I are one in the same.” My thumb gently traces across her bottom lip making her gasp as she wiggles beneath me, “Products of our father’s indifference and negligence.” My thumb trails down her neck, “The consequence of growing up without a mother, without love. We’ve had to find solace in others, our friends, because we’ve been left alone and abandoned our entire lives and the fear of that happening once again is terrifying.” I bring my mouth down to suck on the skin my thumb was caressing, whispering between kisses. “Our darkness is the same shade of black, our emotions just as unpredictable as the raging waves of the ocean we wish we could drown ourselves in. We see our pain as our weakness, when in reality it’s our greatest strength.”
“Sebastian,” she whimpers, as I bite down on her shoulder.
“Because although we act like we can’t feel a damn thing, the pain coursing within us is the realest thing we’ve ever felt.”
Reaching her arms up, she wraps them around my neck bringing my face down closer to hers. “That’s exactly the reason I won’t ever be able to give myself over to you completely Sebastian, because the only thing that I can feel is pain, and no matter how this ends, the only sure thing is that it will hurt like a fucking bitch.”