Chapter 26
She left for college today.
I thought it would be a good thing. Every single time I’m around her, I have to shove my feelings so far down inside me that I’m practically a shell.
It’s become more and more difficult over the years.
A part of me is disgusted at my feelings.
At twenty, I shouldn’t be lusting after a seventeen-year-old. It’s fucking dirty.
But how do you stop loving the only girl who’s ever seen the real you? Who has understood you at a level very few others have?
Her leaving should make my life a whole lot easier.
Instead, it’s as if my heart is breaking.
It’s time to let her go. I know that. She’ll find a man who’s much better suited to her, and I’ll have to watch from afar as she gets her well-deserved happy ending.
I fucking hate this.