15. Diminishing Returns
Coop
Madison is a greedy little thing, and I’m not sure I have enough energy to take her again. We’ve settled on the bed, but she’s not done. Fuck, how many times have I come in the last hour or so? Her ass keeps rubbing against my cock, and even my dick is getting ideas.
Her mouth is on Seth. Licking, sucking, kissing. Everywhere.
I love watching her take the others. Not as much as Seth, but it’s erotic as hell to see her so into someone else while she wants me too.
When she kneels up and leans over to take his cock in her mouth, I reach for the lube. Yeah, we all got cleaned, but I like my girl a little dirty. I rub the lube over my cock before rising behind her and sliding lube over her puckered hole with my fingers before sinking them inside her hot, tight body.
She presses into my fingers, driving them deeper.
Fuck.
She whimpers when I draw my fingers out. Before I can line up my cock with her perfect little asshole, she straddles Seth and impales her pussy on his cock. Seth grabs her hips and thrusts up tighter into her. Moaning, she leans forward on Seth and turns her needy eyes on me.
I don’t need a second invitation. Seth widens his legs, and I kneel between them before slowly easing my cock into her puckered hole. Little mewling noises come from Madison.
“You’re doing great, princess. He’s almost inside you, just a little more. Then we can fuck you.” Seth takes her mouth with his as I bottom out in her ass.
Fuck, there’s nothing like the tightness and feeling of another cock thrusting with me in a woman. I love a good, tight ass, and Madison’s is the best I’ve ever felt.
She moans loudly as her body convulses around us before we even start moving.
“I think I love subspace.” Kissing the back of her neck, I pull back and thrust deep into her ass again. I sit up and part her ass cheeks so I can watch my cock slide in and out of her.
Noah lies down on the bed beside us, and Madison reaches out to stroke his cock. She hasn’t said much, but Noah’s told me before that it’s not unusual for a sub to stop communicating when they hit that high.
Seth thrusts from below while I alternate. He pushes in, I pull out. I push in, he pulls out. She’s making these needy noises in the back of her throat. I can feel my balls tightening with every thrust.
“Fuck.” Noah comes all over her hand.
Her eyes remain locked on Noah as she brings her hand to her mouth and licks his cum from her fingers. That’s enough to push Seth over the edge. He thrusts up into her and holds her hips against his. Groaning, he fills her with his cum. I draw her upright against my chest as I piston my hips, fucking her ass while Seth remains buried in her pussy.
She rubs her skin against mine as I palm her breasts. When I trail my fingers in circles around her hardened nipples, she exhales a shaky breath. Dragging my fingers lower, I slide them over her clit and rub it lightly. It won’t take much to get her off, as sensitive as her body is right now.
She leans her head back against my chest as her lips part and no sound comes out. When she comes, she tightens around me and Seth groans. Her body throbs against mine as I drive my cock into her one final time and spill my seed into her ass.
We all hold there, catching our breath. For a second, everything inside me is still and quiet as our rough breaths fill the air.
“Come here, tiger.” Blake holds out his arms for her, and we pull out so she can go into them. He lies down and she cuddles against his chest. Noah returns from the bathroom with a warm cloth to clean her up.
By the time Seth and I return to the bedroom, Noah has wrapped his body around Madison’s back. A small shiver ripples through her. I lie down next to Noah and draw the blankets over us, resting my hand on her back.
On the other side of Blake, Seth holds her hand. All of us are touching her. She sighs gently before closing her eyes.
Nothing is better than this moment right here.
Everyone I love is safe and accounted for. I’m on the edge of sleep as that thought tugs me awake. I’m not a fearful man. But when things seem to be going right in my life, everything falls apart.
* * *
Madison
The sun isn’t even over the horizon when I wake up feeling hot and sweaty. I’m cocooned between Blake’s and Noah’s warm bodies with covers over us. Flashes of last night flow through my mind, and my lips tip into a smile. I don’t think I’ve orgasmed that much in my life.
Continuously fucked. Unable to get away as they thrust their cocks deep inside me. Filling me up over and over again. My body heats at the memory. I definitely want to do that again.
I try to stretch without waking them. My body aches in the most delicious ways. Noah’s hand slides up my thigh, leaving a trail of sparks in its wake. It’s arousing but in an almost loving way, not the longing, needful way of last night.
Rolling toward him, I lift my gaze to his soft brown eyes. This close, I can see flecks of amber in them from the glow of the bathroom light. My chest feels like it’s ready to explode.
“Good morning,” I whisper, to not wake the others.
“Good morning, kitten.” He tugs on my very loose braid. I’m surprised it survived during the shower and everything after. “How are you this morning?”
Heat floods me at how insatiable I was when we got back to the room. The shower. The bed. I couldn’t get enough of their skin touching mine. I bury my face against Noah’s chest. Everything just felt so much better.
His deep chuckle rumbles through his chest and warms me. “Don’t be embarrassed you enjoyed yourself, kitten. We wouldn’t want it any other way.”
I peek at him, and he rubs his thumb across my lower lip. I press a kiss to the pad of it. Even my jaw is a little sore this morning.
“I really liked what we did last night.” I mean those words, but part of me feels off. Yes, the whole thing was super intense. Held down, unable to move. That feeling of being a vessel for them, something to use to find their release, made it even hotter. But my mind keeps tripping over what that means.
Noah cups my cheek and presses a soft kiss to my lips. “Try to get some more sleep. You might feel a little hungover or sad. We’ll take care of you when we get out of bed.”
I lay my head down over Noah’s heart and listen to the steady beat. His naked body presses against mine. It’s comfortable and familiar. This is what I want, to be safe in someone’s arms. In his arms. I let out a sigh and close my eyes, ready for more sleep.
My mind can’t stop spinning, though.
I loved being used by them last night. But is that all I am to them? Someone to try new things with or practice their kinks? Just a hole to fill to satisfy their base desires?
How long can this thing between us really last? Until the guys don’t want to share a woman anymore? Before they want someone to call their own? Before I lose them because I will never be enough for them? I can’t be perfect. That isn’t who I am.
“Hey.” Noah’s arms wrap around me, and his hands stroke soothingly down my back.
His chest is wet under my cheek. Warm tears stream down my face. I didn’t even realize I’m crying. I rub at the tears.
Noah props himself up on the headboard and draws me into his lap, cradling my body in his arms and between his legs. “It’s okay to feel whatever you’re feeling, Madison. Things got intense last night. You aren’t used to that level of hormones flooding your system.”
Sniffling, I meet his eyes. Tears blur my vision. I should be happy, content, satisfied.
His smile is soft as he brushes the tears from my cheek. “What’s going on in your head right now, kitten?”
I glance around at the others still sleeping. The tears fall unchecked.
“This is going to end,” I whisper and meet Noah’s eyes, feeling so small and helpless. I should be stronger. I shouldn’t tell him this, but it throbs in my chest like an ache that needs to get out. “I don’t want it to, but it’s inevitable. It’s not like this is a real relationship.”
“Why not?” Noah tilts his head and his blond hair falls over his eye.
Unable to resist, I reach out and brush it back. “We have a contract?—?”
“As most relationships that involve kinks should. Ours just happens to be written down.” Noah tightens his arm around me. “Every relationship should start with a talk about what you expect from each other. Our relationship involves a lot of sex and a variety of different needs we want met.”
I try to smile for him, but this ache in my heart keeps pounding away at me. “It’s not like we are emotionally tied?—?”
“You don’t think this is emotional for us?” He shakes his head with a small smile. “This thing between us requires a lot of trust. We trust you to be faithful to us. We trust each other to not hurt you in any way. We trust that we’ll remain open and honest with each other so that no one gets hurt or jealous.”
“But what about when you guys find someone else?” I draw a heart on his chest, letting myself wallow in the sadness of what’s to come. I’ve never been anyone’s. Not really. Even my previous boyfriends were convenient rather than anyone I wanted long-term.
But I want to belong to these men. To be theirs fully and completely.
“What makes you think we’ll find someone else?”
“You guys have to go on dates. Those women will have expectations and hopes.” I can’t bring myself to say my fears out loud. And I can’t be enough for all of you. I’m just me.
Noah glances at the others. “Can I tell you a secret?”
I nod, and he shifts me so that I’m straddling his lap. His cock is hard between my thighs, and even though I’m aroused being close to him, this isn’t about sex right now for either of us.
He leans in and presses his mouth against my ear. His lips tickle me as he whispers, “The only one I want to date is you.”
I draw back to meet his eyes, surprised. “What?”
“We’ll talk more later. When we’re awake and can focus.” He gives me a tender kiss and pulls me in for a hug, which feels amazing. I don’t know what he means, but my heart is pounding so hard right now.
Is it hope or fear? Maybe a little of both?
He tips my chin up and searches my eyes. “Feel better? A little?”
“Yeah, a little.”
“Back to sleep, kitten. Sleep will help.”
As we settle down on the bed, Blake rolls toward me and draws my back into him, surrounding me with his heat. Noah closes his eyes, and I study him. He wants to date me? Like outside of this relationship? What would that mean for the others? What would that mean for me?
Blake rubs his nose along the nape of my neck. “Sleep, tiger.”
My eyes are useless to resist him, and the world around me fades. But questions still linger. Can I date one and fuck the others still? Can I give my heart to only one of them?