Chapter 45
Forty-Five
Jaclyn
It’s dark when we enter the apartment.
I know Natalia is sleeping over at Chris’s house because they came to the club together and I just assumed that she was going to be with him.
She always is.
Hayden holds my hand until we get to his room where he closes the door behind him. He throws his keys on the side table and then lays down on the bed with his head resting against the headboard.
He looks at me, heat in his eyes.
Ever since we stopped kissing in his dressing room he has been touching me anywhere he could and during the ride here, my nerves skyrocketed because I can’t help but think that maybe I want to do everything with Hayden.
I trust him like I’ve never trusted anyone and the ache between my legs when I was kissing him was so overwhelming I was about to offer myself to him then and there.
“Come here,” he says, holding his bruised hand out.
I drop my bag on the floor. “Let me get something to clean the blood.” I go into his bathroom.
I grab the first aid kit he always keeps in his cabinet because he uses it so often whenever he has fights. I walk out of the bathroom and go to Hayden who is still holding a hand out for me. I take it and he swings my leg over his lap with his other hand so that I’m straddling him.
“Much better,” he says resting his head on the head board and closing his eyes.
It’s quiet as I tend to the cut on his face. I wipe his face clean of any dried blood. Hayden keeps his hands placed on my hips, every now and then digging his fingers in my skin making me want to squirm on his lap.
I take one of his hands off my hip making him open his eyes and watch me clean the cuts on his knuckles.
“Hands like these should be treated with care, Hayden.” Once one hand is clean of blood I press my lips to the knuckles. I put his hand down and he places it back on my hip. I grab his other one and start cleaning the cuts and blood. “You always like to use them to hurt yourself when you could be using them for anything else. Why fighting?”
Once I’m done cleaning his other hand I press my lips to his knuckles again.
“Because it’s a way for me to relieve everything I’m feeling inside.”
“Like what?” I look up at Hayden, questioning.
Hayden takes my jaw in his hand, his face leaning closer to mine. I stare down at his lips before licking my own.
I want his lips on me everywhere. All I want to feel is him.
“Because all of that pain I want to cause, fighting is the only way to do that.”
“There aren’t other ways? Less dangerous ways?”
Hayden’s eyes fill with a darkness I’ve never seen before. It makes me curious and also feel achy between my legs with how he looks at me like I am the only thing he needs to take all of those demons inside his head away.
“There are but you’re not ready to see that.”
Before I can ask another question, Hayden pulls my face closer to his and covers my mouth with his. I moan instantly, feeling him consume me with his lips.
I breathe hard into his lips, needing more of him and everything he’s willing to give.
He bites my bottom lip making me arch into him and hiss. He slips his tongue in, warm, wet, and so enticing over my tongue. Gliding and rubbing against one another.
“Hayden,” I moan, running my fingers along the strands of his hair. He groans, taking my lips in his again and again. Sparks shoot downwards that make it impossible to ignore. Hayden kisses me like all boys should kiss girls. He kisses me like I’m the only girl he has a need for. He kisses me like I am his lifeline and he needs me to breathe air. I bet that if I wanted to, Hayden would stay here all night with his hands on me, kissing and not doing anything else.” Hayden. I need-”
Hayden takes his lips off mine and drags them down my neck, pressing small hot kisses. “What princess? What do you want?”
“You.” I breathe out, leaning down to try and get his lips back on mine again. “I need you to touch me, please.”
I trail my hands down his frame and sneak them under his sweater so I can feel his skin. His abs clench against my hand and I almost hear a groan come out of his mouth.
“Where? Tell me where it hurts, baby,” he whispers, sending jolts of pleasure to the spot between my legs. I rub myself on his hips, still keeping eye contact with him. Hayden moves his hand from my ass and it goes to my pussy. “Here?” I nod my head and hide my face in his neck, embarrassed and ashamed because it’s weird asking this. But the pleasure hurts too much to just ignore like I have other times. Hayden moves me so that I’m lying on my back, anticipation filling my veins. He takes off his sweater and throws it on the floor. My pants are next and I press my thighs together, scared of him seeing me completely bare. Sure Hayden has fingered me but it’s always been with me on top of him. Never with me laying down completely bare in front of him. “Sit up, princess,” he says, his voice deep.
I sit up and Hayden takes off my sweater. His hungry gaze runs over my breasts and I blush, immediately wanting to cover myself.
“Stop,” I say to Hayden, making him look back up at me.
“Take off your bra.” I shake my head, biting my bottom lip lightly. “Take it off princess,” he says in a gentler tone. He’s not going to let me get away with this. I take off my bra and then cover my breasts, but Hayden comes on the bed and takes my hands away from my chest. He makes me lie back down and rests a knee between my thighs. He leans down and kisses my neck, slowly making his way down my chest. His lips don’t leave any spots untouched. “You insist on making this body seem like it’s the worst thing in the world when in reality, it’s the only one I want in my bed.” He kisses down my stomach. I suck in, my hands itching to cover the lump I have on my lower stomach from the shots I used to take down there. Hayden looks back up at me, glaring. I rest my hands back down on the bed. “Your insecurities are one of the hottest things I have ever seen, Jaclyn.” His kisses move over my hips which are covered in stretch marks. “So let me appreciate them. ”
I try to press my legs together but Hayden’s knees prevent me from doing that. “Hayden.” My eyes close and I squirm in his hold. I grab his hair and pull him up so that his lips can meet mine. “Please, just touch me.” I hate how desperate I sound but the way his knee is rubbing against my pussy feels like torture.
Hayden dances his fingers to my pussy and runs them through my wetness. “You’re fucking soaking, Jaclyn.” He presses the pad of his finger to my clit, rubbing it in slow, torturing circles. I grind against his hand, my eyes close, drunk on the way he’s making me feel.
“Yes,” I moan.
He slowly thrusts two fingers inside me. I buck my hips off the bed, needing more friction.
Hayden starts to move them in and out at a slow pace while his thumb plays with my clit. I see stars in my eyes as he goes at a dangerously slow pace.
It’s like a sweet torture, him doing this to me and I can’t get enough.
I grind against his hand, moving with his fingers as he pleasures me.
“You’re fucking tight, princess,” he whispers in my ear, kissing down my neck and chest. His lips take a nipple in his mouth and I arch into him. “But you’ll take my cock, won’t you?” he says before nipping at my nipple.
“Ah.” I wrap my arms around him and press him closer to me as I feel my release rush through me. I come on his fingers, even as he still milks out my orgasm, playing with me. “Hayden,” I breathe out his name in his ear, earning a groan from him.
He tugs on my nipple once more, making me whimper. He gets off the bed and moves to his side table. He digs around in the drawer before coming back on top of me.
I open my eyes and watch him admire me, bare in front of him and completely at his mercy. “Are you ready?” he asks, looking almost as nervous as me. I nod my head, afraid another moan will come out of me. “Your words, princess. I need to hear you say you want me.”
“I want you, Hayden,” I confess, not even hesitating.
“Good girl.” He kisses me on the lips making me feel tingles between my legs again.
He takes off his shorts and I can’t stop staring at him. My eyes lead down his delicious v-line to his cock that is huge, hard, and swollen with pre-cum leaking out of the tip.
I made him that hard?
Is that even going to fit inside me?
He grasps his cock in his hand and my eyes immediately go to his face. He looks like he’s in pain and all I want to do is make him feel better.
“See what you do to me, princess.” He runs his fist up and down the length of his cock, never taking his eyes off me. “You look at me like I’m your god, baby,” he groans, his abs clenching and eyes fluttering closed.
“Hayden, please,” I say, not even recognizing my own voice.
Hayden opens his eyes, darkness filling his gaze as he admires me. He lets go of his cock and grabs the foil package he put on the bed. He rips it open and shoves it on his cock. He pulls my legs towards him and I gasp when I feel him between my legs.
He is hot and I want to push myself closer to him to feel more. It’s like all I need to feel better is him. He leans down and wraps my legs around his waist.
“It’s going to hurt, okay?” he says, already knowing I’ve never done this before which makes me feel better.
“Okay, just get it over with it,” I whisper. “Distract me.”
Hayden nods his head lightly before leaning down and placing his lips on my nipple again. I moan as I feel him give my nipples and the area around them the attention they need.
He latches onto my nipple with his teeth at the same time I feel him push inside me slowly.
I tighten my legs around him, and suck in a breath.
It hurts a lot more than what I thought it would. There is a lot of pressure as he pushes inside me slowly. I whimper as he moves all the way inside me.
“I know baby, I know,” he says, still paying attention to my nipples and distracting me. Him paying attention to my nipples is helping a lot. I feel pleasure with the pain he brings me. “You’re doing so good, baby. You’re taking me so well,” he groans before sheathing himself inside me entirely. I almost choke on air when he is fully inside me. “You feel so fucking good, princess. God I never want to leave.”
Hayden stays inside me for a while, just paying attention to the sensitive spots on my tits as I adjust to him. I start rocking myself against him, feeling heat all over my body.
Hayden pulls out before rocking back into me. I wince but it doesn’t hurt as much as the first time. He pulls out again and pushes himself into me.
“Go faster, Hayden,” I beg.
He nods his head and then leans up to cover my mouth with his. He thrusts in and out of me faster, to the point where I feel sensitive everywhere.
I moan and he grunts as we kiss each other. His hands on my ass grip me tightly as he pushes in and out of me. I clench and unclench around him which makes him go faster as he moans.
My eyes squeeze shut when I feel pleasure run through my body and it’s all over. My whole body feels like it’s shaking. It's different from all of the times I have touched myself. It’s stronger and pure and I wish I could keep feeling this .
Hayden soon follows after me with a grunt as he bites down on my bottom lip, pressing his hips against mine as I feel the condom warm up with his release.
He thrusts and jerks lightly into me before relaxing in my arms. He rests his head in my neck, pressing his lips to my neck softly.
And as I close my eyes and try to think of something, anything.
All I can think about is how much my heart is in danger.
Because Hayden Night is so close to having that in the palm of his hand.